Will I Ever - Alice Deejay

I was running from everybody else And just isolating myself constantly Up until I got to the point where I realized The problem was deeply rooted in myself, you know? But you don't really realize that when you're in the midst of it You just kinda assume the worst and hate everything around you Including yourself So take all that stress, decompress it And hang it up right at the door Feeling like this isn't fun anymore Not that it ever was But lately everyone's Misunderstanding what's really import Tantalizing sights and feelings ignored Paths to get over, it never explored Overgrown nothingness stemmed from destruction It's deeply embedded beneath all my subsidence Goodness gracious I'm so cold My body's filled with brittle bones They'll break and bend as I grow old I hope your hand is mine to hold Goodness gracious I'm alone Broken my sticks and thrown my stones I'll go somewhere where no one knows me I don't mind being this lonely So maybe it's grim But I'll spill on a whim about all that I think My thoughts subside till I'm pushed to the brink Miscalculated So often equated To shit so insane, I think I need a shrink Traumatized by flies that hatch in my head Metamorphosis ensued 'til I'm dead It's funny how they can grow Little do they all know Their home is rotting and damn near condemned Dissociation Deserting my patience I don't think I'll wake up and realize That feeling this vacant No communication Is simply leaving me terrorized I see all these faces Inside of the places That only exist when I close my eyes So if this is a phase That is bound to erase Then I guess that I ought to just give it time Goodness gracious I'm so cold My body's filled with brittle bones They'll break and bend as I grow old I hope your hand is mine to hold Goodness gracious I'm alone Broken my sticks and thrown my stones I'll go somewhere where no one knows me I don't mind being this lonely All I ever will be Is someone that'll kill me A parasitic head fuck Monotonous and willing All I ever wished for Is sanity by 24 But I never got that I never got that

I don't know when I wake up Will I ever feel alright But I hope I do And I remember all the good times, the good times with you I don't know when I wake up Will I ever feel alright But I hope I do And I remember all the good times, the good times with you I don't know when I wake up Will I ever feel alright But I hope I do And I remember all the good times, the good times with you I don't know when I wake up Will I ever feel alright But I hope I do And I remember all the good times, the good times with you I don't know when I wake up Will I ever feel alright But I hope I do

Well, I can feel this going down Abandon ship and save yourself now Just float away and let me drown Please don't over-exert yourself now And set me free And set me free I'm going home I've been running for a long time Thinking is a past time Paying for my past crimes Will it ever end? I keep searching for my own light Fear is keeping me uptight Read me now my last rites Praying to ascend And when you come down from your throne Don't hesitate to don your mask now You find it hard to be alone So take a minute to yourself now And set it free I'm going home I've been running for a long time Thinking is a past time Paying for my past crimes Will it ever end? I keep searching for my own light Fear is keeping me uptight Read me now my last rites Praying to ascend I've had enough of it I've had enough of it I've had enough of it Can't get enough of this Now bring it down I've had enough of it I've had enough of it I've had enough of it So bring it down And set it free I'm going home I've been running for a long time Thinking is a past time Paying for my past crimes Will it ever end? I keep searching for my own light Fear is keeping me uptight Read me now my last rites Praying to ascend Will it ever end? Will it ever end?

The sun was setting over Avalon The last time we stood in the west Suffering long time angels enraptured by Blake Burn out the dross Innocence captured again Standing on the beach at sunset And all the boats keep moving slow In the glory of the flashing light In the evenings glow When will I ever learn To live in God? When will I ever learn? He gives me everything I need and more When will I ever learn? You brought it to my attention That everything was made in God Down through centuries of great writings and paintings Everything lives in God Seen through architecture of great cathedrals Down through the history of time Is and was in the beginning And evermore Shall ever be When will I ever learn To live in God? When will I ever learn? He gives me everything I need and more When will I ever learn? Whatever it takes to fulfil the Main change was to delete the is mission That is the way we must go But you've got to do it your own way Tear down the old Bring up the new And up on the hillside it's quiet Where the shepherd is tending his sheep And over the mountains and the valleys And the countryside is so green Standing on the highest hill with a sense of wonder You can see everything is made in God Head back down the roadside And give thanks for it all When will I ever learn To live in God? When will I ever learn? He gives me everything I need and more When will I ever learn? When will I ever learn To live in God? When will I ever learn? He gives me everything I need and more When will I ever learn? When will I ever learn To live in God? When will I ever learn? He gives me everything I need and more When will I ever learn?