Why Am I Alive Now? - ANOHNI

If I could write to the kid I was before Id tell him you'll get everything you ever wanted But you will still want more Someones gonna tell you Who you should wanna be So you'll forget the vision that they didn't wanna see And when they give up cause they will give up say Here I am alive They say you dont grow up You just grow old It seems to say I haven't done both I made mistakes, I know I know But here I am alive So many people close to me cut me down This is supposed to be a bad luck town I jumped, I fell, I hit the ground But here I am alive If I could write to myself When I was on top of it all Id say you're going over border And when you're falling You're gonna feel so small Someones gonna tell you that you deserve the worst They'll say you're never coming back And tell you that you're cursed But when they give up, cause they always give up Say, here I am alive They say you dont grow up You just grow old It seems to say I haven't done both I made mistakes, I know I know But here I am alive So many people close to me cut me down This is supposed to be a bad luck town I jumped, I fell, I hit the ground But here I am alive (Alive alive alive alive alive) And when they give up, cause they will give up Say: Here I am alive! And when they give up, cause they always give up Say: Here I am alive! They say you dont grow up You just grow old It seems to say I haven't done both I made mistakes, I know I know But here I am alive So many people close to me cut me down This is supposed to be a bad luck town I jumped, I fell, I hit the ground But here I am alive Here I am alive! Here I am alive! Here I am alive! Here I am alive! Here I am alive! Here I am alive! Here I am alive! Here I am alive! If I could write to the kid I was before

For more or less For better or for worse Slam the door, a window flies open Feel the contours of my words I am bruised but not broken For better or for worse For more or less Don't look backwards Don't look forwards Mom has been my compass Has been my compass I call you from the crossroads Come and be good to me And treat me right Who knows the direction the winds will blow? Come and kiss me softly in this hard life Whisper sweet things and just let go And just let go And just let me go And just let go And just let go And just let go Come and be good to me And treat me right Who knows the direction winds will blow? Winds will blow Don't look forwards Don't look forwards And just let me go For better or for worse More or less Don't look backward and don't look forwards Mom has been my compass Has been my compass I call you, I call you from the crossroads Come and be good to me Treat me right Who knows the direction winds will blow? Come and kiss me softly in this hard life Whisper sweet things and just let me go

I don't love you anymore It's been a while and I am sure You left me for another girl You left me in a broken world You left me lying in the street You left me without body heat I curled into rust My body turned into dust I couldn't get out of the hole I was so lonely, all alone When the phone rang, I wasn't there When my parents called, I just sat and stared I went to sleep Hoped that my life I could cheat Take me off the face of this lonely world Let me turn and turn in your love It's been a while And I don't love you anymore You walked away from me Out of the blue and you were free I was such a fool I gave more to keep things cool But if you showed up at my door This is what I'd implore I don't love you anymore I don't love you anymore You left me in a cage My only defense was rage

Execution It's an american dream Have no mercy on me Please don't have mercy Don't let them prove I was wrong When we know so bad what's right Don't let them dig up my grave Sometimes a feeling is reason enough Execution It's an american dream Like the chinese and the saudis The north koreans and the nigerians If europe takes it away Inject me with something else Fill me up with something else And if they try to take our love away Please don't have mercy!

How did I become The mother of this son? The face and mind And hands of virulence? I, who curled in cave and moss I, who gathered wood for fire And tenderly embraced How did I become a virus? Hopelessness I feel the hopelessness I don't care about me I feel the animals and the trees They got nowhere to go I don't care much about you I don't give a shit what happens to you Now we blew it all away Hopelessness I feel the hopelessness How did I become a virus? I've been taking more than I deserve Leaving nothing in reserve Digging till the bank runs dry I've been living a lie