White Mountain - the moment I missing

You try to live up to what others believe 'Til you conquer all your fears and just find what you need In the time that it takes to settle for less You could have done with what you thought would be best You set your ideals with the truth that you see Nothing turns out quite the same as you thought it would be Counting the times that you've said what you mean All the reasons to forget what you want to believe And you know what I'm thinking now If only for the moment And you know what I'm thinking now If only for the moment All that you think has meaning for you Excuses are many when you seek what is true You live in your thoughts and believe you are right 'Til what you foresee is brought into sight You set your ideals with the truth that you see Nothing turns out quite the same as you thought it would be Counting the times that you've said what you mean All the reasons to forget what you want to believe All the reasons to forget what you want to believe All the reasons to forget what you want to believe All the reasons to forget what you want to believe All the reasons to forget what you want to believe

Days go by, but I don't seem to notice them Just a roundabout of turns All these nights I lie awake and on my own My pale fire hardly burns Never fell in love with the one who loves me But with the ones who love me not Are we doomed to live in grief and misery? Is it everything we got? I'm the mountain Rising high It's the way that I survived I'm the mountain Tell my tale The greatest story's now for sale I'm the seaside I'm the waves I'm the one that makes you crave I'm the valley I'm the hills Look at me I'm standing still I'm the mountain I'm the plain Tell me now am I insane I'm the spirit I'm the source I'm the root I am the doors I'm the road Long and hard Running out of my heart I'm the mountain Climb me up And we're never gonna stop I'm the locker I'm the key I am who you want to be I'm the reason I'm the blame I will never be the same Mirror-mirror tell the truth of the old ones and the youth Of the things we hide deep from ourselves Mirror-mirror show me now what will I become and how For now I'm just a mountain I'm the mountain Down the road that takes me to the Headley Grange I see a figure of a young man He's torn with doubts, mistakes, his selfishness and rage But doing all the best he can I'm not so blind to see That this young man is me

You should've been there Should've burst through the door With that "Baby, I'm right here" smile And it would've felt like A million little shining stars had just aligned And I would've been so happy Christmas lights glisten I've got my eye on the door Just waiting for you to walk in But the time is ticking People ask me how I've been As I comb back through my memory How you said you'd be here? You said you'd be here And it was like slow motion Standing there in my party dress In red lipstick With no one to impress And they're all laughing As I'm looking around the room But there was one thing missing And that was the moment I knew And the hours pass by Now I just wanna be alone But your close friends always seem to know When there's something really wrong So they follow me down the hall And there in the bathroom I try not to fall apart And the sinking feeling starts As I say hopelessly "He said he'd be here" And it was like slow motion Standing there in my party dress In red lipstick With no one to impress And they're all laughing And asking me about you But there was one thing missing And that was the moment I knew What do you say? When tears are streaming down your face In front of everyone you know And what do you do? When the one who means the most to you Is the one who didn't show? You should've been here And I would've been so happy And it was like slow motion Standing there in my party dress In red lipstick With no one to impress And they're all standing around me singing "Happy Birthday to you" But there was one thing missing And that was the moment I knew Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh, I knew Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh You called me later And said, "I'm sorry, I didn't make it" And I said, "I'm sorry too" And that was the moment I knew