I only smoke when I drink I only drink when I'm lonely I numb myself when I think I'm not the one that your holding. When I remember the time You said you were mine And I was your prize And you were my Romeo I only smoke when I drink I only drink when I'm lonely I only cuss when I'm mad I'm only mad when I hate you I only cry when I'm sad I'm only sad cause I miss you And then I lay in my bed With somebody new And he doesn't hold me like you used to do I only cuss when I'm mad I'm only mad when I hate you And every time that I come here to this bar Oh, I smoke and I drink I cuss and I fight Itchin every inch of this broken heart I only flirt when I'm drunk I'm drunk cause I want attention I'm substituting your love With just another addiction Oh I ain't proud of my self It's bad to my health But I'm blaming you, The one who destroyed me I only smoke when I drink I only drink I'm lonely I only smoke when I drink I only drink I'm lonely

These are the reasons I drink The reasons I tell everybody I'm fine Even though I am not These are the reasons I overdo it I have been working since I can remember Since I was single digits Now Even though I've been busted I don't know where to draw the line 'Cause that groove has gotten so deep And nothing can give reprieve like they do Nothing can give a break for this soldier like they do Here we are I feel such rapture and my comfort is so strong One more hit It feels so helpful in my need for respite And here are the reasons I eat Reasons I feel everything so deeply When I'm not medicated And so that's it, I am buying a Lamborghini To make up for these habits To survive this sick industry Nothing can give reprieve like they do Nothing can give me a break from this torture like they do Here we are I feel such rapture and my comfort is so strong One more sip It feels so helpful in my need for some long overdue respite And these are the reasons I don't even think I would quit And these are the reasons I can't even see straight, and And these are the ones whom I know it so deeply affects And I am left wondering how I would function without it Here we are I feel such rapture and my comfort is so strong One more rip I go from one lilypad to another to stay lit

I grew up with reverence for the red, white, and blue Spoke of God and liberty, reciting the Pledge of Allegiance Learned love of country from my own family Some shivered and prayed, approaching the beaches of Normandy The flag waves high and that's how it should be So many lives given and taken in the name of freedom But the story's complicated and hard to read Pages of the book obscured or torn out completely I am a son of Uncle Sam And I struggle to understand the good and evil But I'm doing the best I can In a place built on stolen land with stolen people Blood in the soil with the cotton and tobacco Blood in the soil with the cotton and tobacco Blood in the soil with the cotton and tobacco A misnamed people and a kidnapped race Laws may change but we can't erase the scars of a nation Of children devalued and disavowed Displaced by greed and the arrogance of Manifest Destiny Short-sighted to say it was a long time ago Not even two lifetimes have passed since the days of Lincoln The sins of Andrew Jackson, the shame of Jim Crow And time moves slow when the tragedies are beyond description I am a son of Uncle Sam And I struggle to understand the good and evil But I'm doing the best I can In a place built on stolen land with stolen people We are more than the sum of our parts All these broken homes and broken hearts God will you keep us wherever we go? Will you forgive us for where we've been? We Americans Blood on the table with the coffee and the sugar Blood on the table with the coffee and the sugar Blood on the table with the coffee and the sugar I've been to every state, and seen shore to shore The still open wounds of the Civil War Watched blind hatred bounce back and forth Seen vile prejudice both in the south and the north And accountability is hard to impose On ghosts of ancestors haunting the halls of our conscience But the path of grace and goodwill is still here For those of us who may be considered among the living I am a son of God and man And I may never understand the good and evil But I dearly love this land Because of, and in spite of, we the people We are more than the sum of our parts All these broken bones and broken hearts God will you keep us wherever we go? Can you forgive us for where we've been? We Americans We Americans Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory Love in our hearts with the pain and the memory

I don't write 'cause I don't think I don't have a need to speak I don't see the bright side, quite as clear Accolades and happy days They don't ever last Stories of courage clouded up with fear In the broom grass, I would l lie Glimmer in my eye, the sun smiled back on me From victory, I tried To match eternal light with how I live my life Of course, I was forced to retreat From victory,I accept defeat Waxy green and yellow walls Outside my windows fall Covering the light I thought I'd see Am I sad or am I sick? What's at the root of it? Do I throw my hands and quit? Something tells me, no In the broom grass, I would l lie Glimmer in my eye, the sun smiled back on me From victory, I tried To match eternal light with how I live my life Of course, I was forced to retreat From victory, I accept defeat Worries on all sides of my mind In silence, my darkness is denied In the broom grass, I would l lie Glimmer in my eye, the sun smiled back on me From victory, I tried To match eternal light with how I live my life Of course, I was forced to retreat And from victory, I accept defeat From victory I accept defeat

If I get murdered in the city Don't go revenging in my name One person dead from such is plenty No need to go get locked away When I leave your arms The things that I think of No need to get over alarmed I'm coming home I wonder which brother is better Which one our parents love the most I sure did get in lots of trouble They seemed to let the other go A tear fell from my father's eyes I wondered what my dad would say He said, "I love you and I'm proud of you both In so many different ways" If I get murdered in the city Go read the letter in my desk Don't bother with all my belongings But pay attention to the list Make sure my sister knows I loved her Make sure my mother knows the same Always remember there was nothing worth sharing Like the love that let us share our name Always remember there was nothing worth sharing Like the love that let us share our name

Tell the truth to yourself And the rest will fall in place Tell the truth to yourself And the rest will fall in place I lied to the doctor I lied to my lover I wanna make amends But where do I start? Tell the truth to yourself And the rest will fall in place Tell the truth to yourself And the rest will fall in place Tell the truth to yourself Tell the truth I can make my mother, my father, my sister, my brother My lover, my neighbor, my friends, all happy Give of myself whatever they ask But without this single truth, it is only emptiness that I cast A happiness that will not last But I'm not here for that For what does happiness help Without this simple truth given to thyself? I was the coward I did strangle your heart I wanna make amends But where do I start? Tell the truth to yourself And the rest will fall in place Tell the truth to yourself And the rest will fall in place Tell the truth to yourself And the rest will fall in place Tell the truth to yourself And the rest will fall in place

When my body won't hold me anymore And it finally lets me free Will I be ready? When my feet won't walk another mile And my lips give their last kiss goodbye Will my hands be steady when I lay down my fears, my hopes, and my doubts? The rings on my fingers, and the keys to my house With no hard feelings When the sun hangs low in the west And the light in my chest won't be kept held at bay any longer When the jealousy fades away And it's ash and dust for cash and lust And it's just hallelujah And love in thought, love in the words Love in the songs they sing in the church And no hard feelings Lord knows, they haven't done much good for anyone Kept me afraid and cold With so much to have and hold Mmm, hmm When my body won't hold me anymore And it finally lets me free Where will I go? Will the trade winds take me south through Georgia grain? Or tropical rain? Or snow from the heavens? Will I join with the ocean blue? Or run into a savior true? And shake hands laughing And walk through the night, straight to the light Holding the love I've known in my life And no hard feelings Lord knows, they haven't done much good for anyone Kept me afraid and cold With so much to have and hold Under the curving sky I'm finally learning why It matters for me and you To say it and mean it too For life and its loveliness And all of its ugliness Good as it's been to me I have no enemies I have no enemies I have no enemies I have no enemies

Shooting off vicious collections of words The losers make facts by the things they have heard And I find myself trying hard to defend them I made decisions some right and some wrong And I let some love go I wish wasn't gone These things and more I wish I had not done But I can't go back And I don't want to 'Cause all my mistakes They brought me to you I have some "friends" they don't know who I am So I write quotations around the word friends But I have a couple that have always been there for me And I missed some fun 'cause I worked through the dawn Expecting your praise when I returned home But I paid the cost 'cause I got left alone for the songs But I can't go back And I don't want to 'Cause all my mistakes They brought me to you