Toxic Masculinity - Cloud9DD

I mask up my emotions I try to hide the pain inside I feel so cold I wanna cry But I can't let it go 'Cause that's not the man you know, yeah My self-esteem is broken You came to my life and made it right I'm so grateful I wanna cry But I won't let it show 'Cause that's not the man you know, yeah Most of the time I hide my pain inside I got a lot going on inside my mind I got some people trying to block me when I shine I wanna fight but it's just a waste of time But it's just a waste of time

It's been in my head for so long after They told me these words I can't remember It keeps coming on and on They kept beating on and on my face If they keep telling I'm a liar Babe, it's not my fault I built these layers I can't meet myself What about my masculinity? What the fuck is wrong with my body? Am I not enough? Who gives you the right to run to rules? Who gives you the right to run to rules? What's wrong with you? Tell me baby, baby Do I walk like a boy? Do I speak like a boy? Do I stand like a boy? Sorry babe, you keep asking Do I kiss like a boy? Should I spit like a boy? May I fuck other boys? Tell me baby, baby Do I walk like a boy? Do I speak like a boy? Do I stand like a boy? Sorry babe, you keep asking Do I kiss like a boy? Should I spit like a boy? May I fuck other boys? Tell me baby, baby My flesh, to jail my soul I just feel like I can fall My muscles not sharp enough And my hair is way too long And what about my voice? What about my voice? Do you think I sound Like the other boys? Do I walk like a boy? Do I speak like a boy? Do I stand like a boy? Sorry babe, you keep asking Do I kiss like a boy? Should I spit like a boy? May I fuck other boys? Tell me baby, baby Do I walk like a boy? Do I speak like a boy? Do I stand like a boy? Sorry babe, you keep asking Do I kiss like a boy? Should I spit like a boy? May I fuck other boys? Tell me baby What about my masculinity? What the fuck is wrong with my body? Am I not enough? Or even too much? It would be shortsighted to try Is it coming through your mind? But I don't care To be a man