Tired of It All - vill!^

I'm tired of it all How can I feel complete If I can't even fill the void inside myself? How do I feel my skin When every day I feel like somebody else? I don't know how to fix this Did I even try? How can I hear my voice When every voice in here is trying to pull me down? Everything seems quieter How can you feel better? I can't escape, my body's frozen to the bone (it feels so wrong) I see your face and now I feel all alone (it all goes down) Feelings and weakness, I'm tired of it all I see your face and I see pictures on the wall Those pictures on the wall I'm tired of it all I'm tired of it all How would I know my face If I don't even face you the way you are? How can I find my way When the ground is covered with all your lies? I'm walking down the red line Did I cross it once? My head is in overdrive And it keeps knocking at the front door Sorrow How to escape? I wonder how to escape from this sorrow I can't get out of this world My brain is about to explode I can no longer bear the weight Of all the things I've left undone It's bringing me down I wonder how to escape From all the things I've left undone Everything seems quieter How can you feel better? I can't escape, my body's frozen to the bone (it feels so wrong) I see your face and now I'm feeling all alone (it all goes down) Feelings and weakness, I'm tired of it all I see your face and I see pictures on the wall Those pictures on the wall I'm tired of it all I'm tired of it all

Right now, I don't care how shame feels Don't care how pain feels inside Right now, don't care what I hear Don't care what I fear inside So now I'm going it alone It feels like me against the world I can't allow for an ounce of inability I may be tetched, but for now I'm going all out Right now, I don't care how shame feels Don't care how pain feels inside Right now, don't care what I hear Don't care what I fear inside I can't make room for comfort I can't make room for myself I'll keep my cool, defiantly My strategy is not too sound But I'm going all out If there's a barrier up I'm pushing through it A door slammed in my face I'm kicking through it I will silence the doubts Even if it fucks me up right now I'm tetched, but I'm going all out I'm pushing my limits Right now, I don't care how shame feels Don't care how pain feels inside Right now, don't care what I hear Don't care what I fear inside Right now, I don't care how shame feels Don't care how pain feels inside Right now, don't care what I hear Don't care what I fear inside Right now, I don't care how shame feels Don't care how pain feels inside Right now, don't care what I hear Don't care what I fear inside It doesn't matter It doesn't matter to me

Exhausted And embarrassed of the way I process Everything It hurts to keep it in But no one understands I won't fight it I'm just tired of healing I won't fight it I'm just tired of healing And feeling Like I never meant anything Surrendered The secrets meant to keep us Forever if we tried In September I laid it all to rest But no one understands The blonde and blue I had I won't fight it I'm just tired of healing I won't fight it I'm just tired of healing I won't fight it I'm just tired of healing I won't fight it I'm just tired of healing And feeling Like I never meant anything Did I ever mean anything

Got me singing and shit Yeah, this is for my people out there That love hard You know what I mean If you love hard Then you what the fuck I mean But don't never let nobody Change who the Fuck you are Know what I'm talking about If you love hard, then you just love hard Be you I told myself That I'll never fall again Love is complicated Not too sure of what it is I just know I'm always getting less than what I give And the explanation I get is my heart too big But I don't see it like that I rather give my all, With everything I do Or don't do it at all But I guess it get it Everybody's' different Maybe healing people being used Is just my mission Cause if she ain't a lil bit broken I don't want her Something she ain't never seen Is what I'm tryna show her Baby that's my toxic trait Aways tryna fix Tryna show this broken world That love still exist But it never seem to work I just get myself hurt Fuck wearing it on my sleeve I wear my heart up on my shirt Always pouring into people Like I don forgot my worth Knowing with out hesitation They'll run me through the dirt But still, I always fall first All this shit be tearing up my mental health Is it fake love or is it real I can never tell I can really expect nothing different From no one forreal I got more respect for these bitches Than what they do they selves Get to know you like what's on your mind Go some where and talk about She not interested She rather fuck me in this parking lot Damn And I ain't even have to take her out After this, delete the messages and hit the Block But then be expecting me to treat you like somebody These hoes be the same with everybody I'm not saying they all the same I'm just saying that it's not ironic I know a couple that's gon probably think I wrote this song about em That's why it never work I just get myself hurt Fuck wearing it on my sleeve I wear my heart up on my shirt Always pouring into people Like I don forgot my worth Knowing with out hesitation They'll run me through the dirt But still, I always fall first Yeah I always fall first Said I always fall first Wear my heart up on my shirt That's why I always fall first I always fall first I always fall first I always fall first I wear my heart up on my shirt