Tired of falling in love - Zia

Got me singing and shit Yeah, this is for my people out there That love hard You know what I mean If you love hard Then you what the fuck I mean But don't never let nobody Change who the Fuck you are Know what I'm talking about If you love hard, then you just love hard Be you I told myself That I'll never fall again Love is complicated Not too sure of what it is I just know I'm always getting less than what I give And the explanation I get is my heart too big But I don't see it like that I rather give my all, With everything I do Or don't do it at all But I guess it get it Everybody's' different Maybe healing people being used Is just my mission Cause if she ain't a lil bit broken I don't want her Something she ain't never seen Is what I'm tryna show her Baby that's my toxic trait Aways tryna fix Tryna show this broken world That love still exist But it never seem to work I just get myself hurt Fuck wearing it on my sleeve I wear my heart up on my shirt Always pouring into people Like I don forgot my worth Knowing with out hesitation They'll run me through the dirt But still, I always fall first All this shit be tearing up my mental health Is it fake love or is it real I can never tell I can really expect nothing different From no one forreal I got more respect for these bitches Than what they do they selves Get to know you like what's on your mind Go some where and talk about She not interested She rather fuck me in this parking lot Damn And I ain't even have to take her out After this, delete the messages and hit the Block But then be expecting me to treat you like somebody These hoes be the same with everybody I'm not saying they all the same I'm just saying that it's not ironic I know a couple that's gon probably think I wrote this song about em That's why it never work I just get myself hurt Fuck wearing it on my sleeve I wear my heart up on my shirt Always pouring into people Like I don forgot my worth Knowing with out hesitation They'll run me through the dirt But still, I always fall first Yeah I always fall first Said I always fall first Wear my heart up on my shirt That's why I always fall first I always fall first I always fall first I always fall first I wear my heart up on my shirt

I'm scared of falling love Falling in love Falling in love, oh I'm scared of falling love Falling in love Falling in I'm scared of falling Of falling in love Falling in love again, oh I'm scared of falling Of falling in love Of falling in love, oh Yeah, I saw darkness in her beauty She saw beauty in my darkness She freed me from my heart But I'm still trapped inside of conscious So we, hold our feelings hostage Wasn't born this way, we're taught this And I, drink 'til I feel nauseas To convince myself I want this But I'm sick of going out on weekends Sick of waking up, so sick and weakened Spending weeks just drinking Sinking, drowning in the deep end, fuck In the mirror this reflection isn't mine but Even though I'm smiling I'm standing on the train tracks in my mind I know, angels they won't protect me Ones that I love forget me And everyone that I know found love in themselves except me I keep on searching for something that can't be seen Can't tell the difference from my nightmares and my dreams I'm a victim to addictions they control me like a Puppet when I take this stage I found pain inside of love And I found love inside these razor blades Pray to Lord, my soul to take My promises, I always break In love with the drugs I take But still my veins are filled with hate She held my heart with heavy hands The devil in a pretty stance Saw her standing all alone and asked if she would let me dance, I Was scared of falling in love, we all know the outcome 'Cause everybody needs a heart But some still live without one, fuck We all know the outcome Everybody needs a heart, but some still live without one We all know the outcome And everybody has a heart, she made me live without one I'm scared of falling Of falling in love Falling in love again, oh I'm scared of falling Of falling in love Of falling in love, oh I'm scared of falling in love Falling in love Falling in love, oh