The Town Inside Me - AISHA

I used to lay out in a field under the Milky Way With everything that I was feeling that I could not say With every doubt and every sorrow that was in my way Tearing around inside my head like it was there to stay Night in my eyes, the night inside me There where the shadows and the night could hide me Night in my eyes Sky full of stars turning over me Waiting for night to set me free I caught a ride into the city every chance I got I wasn't sure there was a name for the life I sought Now I'm a long way gone down the life I got I don't know how I believed some of the things I thought Night in my eyes, the night inside me Here where the shadows gather to decide me Night in my eyes Out at the end of light and gravity Waiting for night It takes the night to clear all of this mess away The obligation, the burden and the light of day It takes the night to fall between the world I obey And a world where I hear angels play Maybe I should go back to Spain I walk around inside the questions of my day I navigate the inner reaches of my disarray I pass the altars where fools and thieves hold sway I wait for night to come and lift this dread away Night in my eyes, the night inside me Here where the shadows and the light divide me Night in my eyes Night full of promise and uncertainty Waiting for night to set me free

You put the storm out, that's up in my head You put the call out Beside of me, kick up inside of me And you steal the world and live to survive And shake out the ghosts and then you turn around In spite of me, kick up inside of me One for the first time Two for the last time Three for the thrill and Four for the last time As far as I can see, you're gonna Move deep deeper deep inside of me Kick away my life kick away You put the fear in me, kick away, kick away As far as I can see you move deep deep inside of me Take me away, take me away, up to another day Open up the way, lead me away in the pouring rain In the pouring rain You put the storm out, that's up in my head You put the call out Beside of me, kick up inside of me And we steal the world and live to survive Shake out the ghosts and turn around In spite of me, shake up the ghosts inside of me One for the first time, two for the last time Three for the thrill, and four for the last time As far as I can see, you're gonna Move deep deeper deep inside of me Take me away, ah ah ah until another day Take me away, kick away As far as I can see you put the fear inside of me Kick away

I wish that I could be All the woman inside of me And I wish that I could do All the things that woman could do I don't feel I'd be Any different from me And I do not think I'd feel I was inferior In fact I think I'd like it To see my sex as women see us What a thing to feel and to experience But what if I should stay That female way For the rest of all my years Would my joy turn into fear? Maybe I would find It's not just a state of mind But womankind in fact is held inferior Could I handle all the pressure Or would I pine for the oppressor role That keeps me where I am, which is superior But I still wish I could be All the woman inside of me Just to feel and just to see All the things that woman means Just to set that female free I am her and she is me

There's a devil inside of me And he's holding on And I don't know if he's staying Or for how long Pulling at my heart strings Kicking in my mind And I'm sad to say he's got me thinking About the bad parts of my life There's a devil inside of me A monolith of doom There's a devil inside of me And there's one inside of you A terrible terrorist Tormenting me in my abyss And I don't know how to stop him Or if it's even a problem There's a devil inside of me A monolith of doom There's a devil inside of me And there's one inside of you There's a devil inside of me And he's holding on And I don't know if he's staying Or for how long Pulling at my heart strings Kicking in my mind And I'm sad to say he's got me thinking About the bad parts of my life There's a devil inside of me A monolith of doom There's a devil inside of me And there's one inside of you A terrible terrorist Tormenting me in my abyss And I don't know how to stop him Or if it's even a problem So tell me how you deal With that devil in your heart 'Cos every time I think we are done I find I'm right back at the start