You probably think that you are better now, better now You only say that 'cause I'm not around, not around You know I never meant to let you down, let you down Woulda gave you anything, woulda gave you everything, oh I did not believe that it would end, no Everything came second to the Benzo You're not even speaking to my friends, no You knew all my uncles and my aunts though 20 candles, blow 'em out and open your eyes We were looking forward to the rest of our lives Used to keep my picture posted by your bedside And now, it's in your dresser with the socks you don't like And I'm rollin', rollin', rollin', rollin' With my brothers like it's Jonas, Jonas Drinkin' Henny and I'm tryna forget But I can't get this shit outta my head You probably think that you are better now, better now You only say that 'cause I'm not around, not around You know I never meant to let you down, let you down Woulda gave you anything, woulda gave you everything (woah) Better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, uh yeah Better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, uh yeah

Been staring at the wall today to find some hidden meaning My laundry's clean, my momma called To ask me how I'm feeling I've been running out of things to think So what's the point of dreaming? I called all my friends 'cause I can't get Along with all my demons And I've been watching from a distance How the seasons change I've been lost, lost in the rythm lately I don't know, know how to dance alone Know how to dance alone I've been lost, lost in the rythm lately I don't know, know how to dance alone Know how to dance alone Been staring at the wall today Still looking for some meaning I tried talking to myself for a change To ask me how I'm feeling I've been running out of room to think I need a higher ceiling Called all my friends 'cause I need help Distract me from my demons And I've been watching from a distance How the seasons change I've been lost, lost in the rythm lately I don't know, know how to dance alone Know how to dance alone I've been lost, lost in the rythm lately I don't know, know how to dance alone Know how to dance alone (I've been lost lost in the rythm lately) (I don't know, know how to dance alone) (Know how to dance alone)

Midnight on the water I saw the oceans daughter Walkin' through the burnin' rain Hopin' just to know her name And I can't get it out of my head No, I can't get it out of my head Now my old world is gone for dead 'Cause I can't get it out of my head Breakdown on the shore line I can't move, I've been paralyzed Morning don't get here 'til night Searching for her silver light And I can't get it out of my head No, I can't get it out of my head Now my old world is gone for dead 'Cause I can't get it out of my head Out of my head Bank job in the city Robin Hood and William telling Ivanhoe and Lancelot They don't envy me Sitting still I want to drown In my dreams the world keeps Going round and round And I can't get it out of my head No, I can't get it out of my head Now my old world is gone for dead 'Cause I can't get it out of my head, out of my head

Once I had my heros, Once I had my dreams. But all of that has changed now, The truth begins again. The truth is not that comfortable, no. Mother taught us patience, The virtues of restraint. Father taught us boundries, Of knowledge we must goal. I'm trying to protect my unity. That's when I reach for my revolver. That's when it all gets blown away. That's when I reach for my revolver. The spirit passes by this way. A friend of mine once told me, His one and only aim. To build a giant castle, And in it sign his name. Sign it with complete community. That's when I reach for my revolver. That's when it all gets blown away. That's when I reach for my revolver. Her spirit passes by this way. Now that the sky is empty, And that is nothing new. Instead they look upon us when they tell me, That we're nothing. That's when I reach for my revolver. That's when it all gets blown away. That's when I reach for my revolver. A spirit passes by this way. That's when I reach for my revolver. That's when it all gets blown away. That's when I reach for my revolver. The spirit passes by this way.

Once I had my heroes Once I had my dreams But all of that is changed now They've turned things inside out The truth is not that comfortable, no And mother taught us patience The virtues of restraint And father taught us boundaries Beyond which we must go To find the secrets promised us, yeah That's when I reach for my revolver That's when it all gets blown away That's when I reach for my revolver The spirit fights to find its way A friend of mine once told me His one and only aim To build a giant castle And in it sign his name Cry and whispers sing in muted pain That's when I reach for my revolver That's when it all gets blown away That's when I reach for my revolver The spirit fights to find its way Tonight the sky is empty But that is nothing new Its dead eyes look upon us And they tell me we're nothing but slaves That's when I reach for my revolver (...but slaves) That's when I reach for my revolver That's when I reach for my revolver That's when I reach for my revolver That's when I reach for my revolver That's when I reach for my revolver

The knife Has become dull I crave Something useful I hammer a nail Into the back Of your hand You say You're Messiah I say You're a Liar You set fire To the back Of my head My life's Never dull I crave Something stable I point a gun To the back Of your head I watch your body fold I imagine I'm in the middle I hammer a nail Into the back Of your hands You say you're my savior I dig the nail in deeper You set fire To the back Of my head My life's Never dull I crave Something stable I point a gun To the back Of your head

Vanity Vomiting Inside me Tyranny Vanity Of vanities Inside me So ungodly Vanity Vomiting Inside me Tyranny Vanity Of vanities Inside me So ungodly Vanity Vomiting All over me Vanity Vomiting Inside me Tyranny Vanity Of vanities Inside me So ungodly Vanity Vomiting Inside me Tyranny Vanity Of vanities Inside me So ungodly Vanity Vomiting All over me

Call down to me Our bodies hanging like your earrings Goddess of Fertility I bask in your cruelty Content with you giving them nothing Indebted to your holy eminence I want to know How much blood it takes to swallow Slitting their throats Our holy baptism Content with you giving them nothing Indebted to your holy eminence

There's pennies in the washing machine There's pennies in the washing machine There's pennies in the washing machine There's pennies in the washing machine There's pennies in the washing machine But who's in there watching me There's pennies in the washing machine But who's in there watching me They're ripping up my sheets They're ripping up my sheets They're ripping up my sheets They're ripping up my sheets There's pennies in the washing machine But who's in there watching me There's pennies in the washing machine But who's in there watching me There's pennies in the washing machine I see him as he's watching me There's pennies in the washing machine I see him as he's watching me He's ripping up my sheets He's ripping up my sheets He's ripping up my sheets He's ripping up my sheets

2018 Backing of the house Everyone's asleep I am walking I am walking You are breathing I am walking You are breathing Wake up Wake up I want to reassure you There is something wrong with you The closer you get to sanity The farther you are from the truth I am walking You are breathing I am walking You are breathing Wake up Wake up

We're in a room and in my mind you're undressing Rubbing yourself on my performance And thinking of different outcomes And what led up to this You can't tell and I'm sitting across from you You can't tell and I've spent hours picturing you under me You should see the map I've laid out for you Cauterized on the corners I use crosses as pens to keep the placement holy As reparation for my sin I punish myself You're clueless and the space between us absorbs you I nourished you with what you need for health and good condition And in your bedroom I saved a seat so I can experiment With my ideas and what I actually see I repeatedly erase the dreams I have of me carving an animal out of your body I want to be a part of your medical diary Preserving your trim As reparation for my sins I punish myself You're clueless and the space between us absorbs you You're clueless and the space between us absorbs you Confessing my compulsion to the priest He shivers in the booth next to me I tell him all about my ideologies He prays for me out of courtesy As reparation for my sin I punish myself You're clueless and the space between us absorbs you You're clueless and the space between us absorbs you I walk home to find myself filling up the sink I dip my head down deep but it's not me moving I'm forced to count down the last few minutes of my breathing Fortunate for you to be my perpetual aim As reparation for my sin I punish myself