The Bartender - Evan Honer & Julia DiGrazia

I remember all them summers Playing 'til my fingers bled You'd sing the songs, and I'd sing with you We'd get drunk and go to bed Looking back at all them memories Lord, I hate to sleep alone But if you ever get the notion That you need me, let me know 'Cause it's just two hours to get there, babe I can make it back 'bout an hour or so Hold you close against my skin I need a little warmth on a night so cold Singing songs you used to sing The one 'bout the lady in the long black veil Should've seen the warnings signs Lord, I love to hear you wail High and lonesome, hard and strong Even if it was a little out of tune Hotter than socks on a Jersey Giant Lord, I thought you hung the moon I remember all them winters Drinking Woodford 'til we drowned We'd get wind about a party Bundle up and go to town Never worry 'bout the police Never worried much at all I miss those nights of reckless glory I'd come back if you'd just call 'Cause it's just two hours to get there, babe I can make it back 'bout an hour or so Hold you close against my skin I need a little warmth on a night so cold Singing songs we used to sing The one 'bout the lady in the long black veil Should've seen the warnings signs Lord, I love to hear you wail High and lonesome, hard and strong Even if it was a little out of tune Hotter than socks on a Jersey Giant Lord, I thought you hung the moon I left town when we were over 'Cause it didn't feel the same Every back road held a memory And every memory held your name 'Cause it's just two hours to get there, babe I can make it back 'bout an hour or so Hold you close against my skin I need a little warmth on a night so cold Singing songs we used to sing The one 'bout the lady in the long black veil Should've seen the warnings signs Lord, I love to hear you wail High and lonesome, hard and strong Even if it was a little out of tune Hotter than socks on a Jersey Giant Lord, I thought you hung the moon

I'm throwing up on the sidewalk It's 2:00 am everybody left I just embarrassed myself for an hour Now I'm sitting in a neighborhood I don't even recognize I didn't even want to go out I kind of thought it would help just a little But I'm lying to myself 'cause I know in a weeks time I won't try to realize This ain't no way to live so why does everybody brag about it I guess it easier to fill yourself with poison While your holding on to moments you can glorify And I've been stuck for awhile now cause I've been saying this for three damn years Am I ever gonna change will a make it out alive or Will I crumble will I fall? Will anybody care at all? Am destined to be damaged? Am I too far gone? Believe me when I say It ain't fair to feel this way But I'll poison myself till I'm too far gone I'm driving home when I shouldn't I didn't even remember the drive How could I be so selfish every time that I feel helpless I crossed through every single line I'm not convinced that I'm living 'cause if I was I'd be able to feel something Maybe it's a part of me or maybe it's just hard to see What everyone else can find Theres gotta be a reason This lifestyle ain't meant for dreamers But they'll tell you its okay Waste your 20's away Cause your only young for a moment And I've been stuck for awhile now Cause I've been saying this for three damn years Am I ever gonna change will a make it out alive or Will I crumble will I fall? Will anybody care at all? Am destined to be damaged? Am I too far gone? Believe me when I say It ain't fair to feel this way But I'll poison myself Till I'm too far gone And how long will it take Till I'm beaten down Bruised then break Still you can find me in the evening I'll be too far gone Yeah I'm too far gone

I ain't one to have a plan I ain't ever been the man I'll fold ever single hand I don't know shit about cars Well I tend to drink a lot And I tend to get real lost I learned nothing from my pops I don't know shit about cars I bum one more cigarette The only spirit that I've met Runs straight through my head I don't know shit about cars I'm the last of my kind Isbell had it right I get lonely at night Filling up my dreams With steep gasoline Got up to $5.83 I ain't scared of the dark I still break my own heart I don't know shit about cars I ain't one to pick a fight I guess I'm never in the right I've fallen further than I'd like I'm a lost cause at best I get sad when it rains Singing songs out my range Lose my voice on the stage I'm a lost cause at best I'm the last of my kind Isbell had it right I get lonely at night Filling up my dreams With steep gasoline Got up to $5.83 I ain't scared of the dark I still break my own heart I don't know shit about cars I ain't one to have a plan I ain't ever been the man I'll fold ever single hand Still don't know shit about cars I'm the last of my kind Isbell had it right I get lonely at night Filling up my dreams With steep gasoline Got up to $5.83 I ain't scared of the dark I still break my own heart I don't know shit about cars

"Yeah, right there" (When we met) "That seems right, yeah" When we met I wasn't me I was so numb Yeah, I was so lonely Out on the run I wasn't free And you came along But you couldn't save me My hesitation and holding my breath I led you in to the garden of my loneliness Wish that you left Before it all burned down Oh, Julia I'm sorry what I do to you I push and pull and mess with your head Then get in your bed 'cause I'm weak, deep down Oh, Julia I wish I never lied to you I never meant to hurt you like that And if I could go back I'd leave you alone When I left I wasn't sure That I could love Love anymore But My hesitation and holding my breath I led you in to the garden of my loneliness Wish that you left Before it all burned down Oh, Julia I'm sorry what I do to you I push and pull and mess with your head Then get in your bed 'cause I'm weak, deep down Oh, Julia I wish I never lied to you I never meant to hurt you like that And if I could go back I'd leave you alone I won't lie to you no more I won't lie to you no more 'Cause I know I did before Hope you find what you looking for