Terkadang (feat. Leanna Morgan) - Rene Fisher

I've got a gambling addiction And I confuse love with attention So I keep betting everything that I have on people who don't stay I've got a gambling addiction But I don't raise, I don't call I go all in, all of the time On people who don't feel the same So, I keep losing to the house I'll never learn my lesson Losing to the house, because it's just a guessing game I haven't figured out how to play in moderation But with all of my losses someday, I'm probably gonna win I've got a gambling addiction And I place bets based off affection But I never stay when I should so I always catch 22 I've got a gambling addiction But I'm bad at bluffing and making predictions So love is a lottery where I always lose I keep losing to the house I'll never learn my lesson Losing to the house, because it's just a guessing game I haven't figured out how to play in moderation But with all of my losses someday, I'm probably gonna win I wanna be: pulling lucky numbers and praying to lucky stars Finding four-leaf clovers and counting all of my cards But I'm walking under ladders Seeing black cats Spilling table salt and stepping on every crack And yet I'm still trying to turn my thirteens into sevens So I'm crossing all my fingers and I'm pressing all my luck Cos I know misfortune just won't be enough To keep me from betting it all on love, again That's why I keep losing to the house I'll never learn my lesson Losing to the house, because it's just a guessing game I haven't figured out how to play in moderation But with all of my loses someday I'm probably gonna win, right?

Don't tell me you want me Don't tell me you love me Don't tell me all these things you think I should hear It's been some years Where have you been Got you a man Who is you fucking I gotta know Don't tell me you want me Don't tell me you love me Don't tell me all these things you think I should hear It's been some years Where have you been (Yeah) Got you a man Who is you fucking I gotta know We had some plans to do it big, but they fell through I know I'm to blame, I take my half, but it takes two Always to the grave I once said Now you telling me things that you don't mean I should do me You've said I made my bed You in my dreams and they haunt me and I can't rest Can you sleep, 'cause I cannot sleep girl Don't tell me you want me Don't tell me you love me Don't tell me all these things you think I should hear It's been some years Where have you been Got you a man Who is you fucking I gotta know Don't tell me you want me Don't tell me you love me Things you think I should hear Where have you been

Time doesn't really heal anything It just helps you forget the way that it hurt, when it hurt really bad What didn't kill me never made me stronger Sometimes it just made me wish it would have I'm not a fighter, i haven't been for a long time Lying and saying "i'm tired," when people ask me if i'm alright The morning and missing and grieving someone that wasn't mine to lose Turned into survivors guilt when i started moving on too My pains a testament, to how much you meant to me I know it wouldn't be this hard if it wasn't good grief I hope you know that I loved you more than anything And it wouldn't hurt this bad if it wasn't good grief No call, no text, no warning No reason as to why Good grief, good god, good mourning You never said goodbye No call, no text, no warning I'm still searching for signs Good god, good grief, good morning I'll never say goodbye Good good bye My pains a testament, to how much you meant to me I know it wouldn't be this hard if it wasn't good grief I hope you know that I loved you more than anything I hope you know that I love you more than anything And it wouldn't hurt this bad if it wasn't good grief

The worst of it is over now The storm becomes the calm The sun is slipping through the clouds Showing me the damage done To say that I've been beaten up Doesn't scratch the surface I'm past the part of acting tough We both know how deep my hurt is I've heard that You're the God who can restore what this world steals Well, I'm in a thousand pieces Would You show me how it feels When a fragile heart finds healing hands The places numbed by pain start to feel again Where You fell apart becomes where You begin When a fragile heart finds healing hands I'm sure there will be lessons learned And purpose from the pain But right now I don't even have the strength to turn the page So hold on to me, Jesus 'cause the more I feel You near me These jagged lines from every break are slowly disappearing When a fragile heart finds healing hands The places numbed by pain start to feel again Where You fell apart becomes where You begin When a fragile heart finds healing hands All the tears turn into memories And the chains, they fall down at Your feet right here, is where What was broken now is beautiful What was ash is not a miracle When a fragile heart finds healing hands The places numbed by pain start to feel again Where You fell apart becomes where You begin When a fragile heart finds healing hands

I told her that I loved her She would always be my little girl The hardest thing I ever did Was to let her go out in this big, ol', crazy world Fought her way through high school 'Cause them mean girls always put her down Guess she just wasn't cool enough For the kids here in this one-horse, beat-up town I always knew she would fly so far And she would find a place to help her heal her scars It's good to be a daddy's girl He calls you 'little squirrel', tries to kiss it all away But sometimes a daddy's love It just ain't enough to take away the pain She has to do it on her own And now that she is grown, there's bill she's got to pay But you can bet she ain't done yet Chasing out the dreams she hopes come true one day She always prays she can fly that far Far enough away to help her heal her scars We all have paid in our lives that makes us who we are I always knew she would fly so far She would find a place to help her heal her scars She always prays she can fly that far Far enough away to help her heal her scars

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