Something, Nothing, Everything - Josh Gilligan

Yea bitch I went from a nothing To something While these pussy assNiggas was bumpin I Don't care nothing Bout nothing your opinion My first mind Is to grind and go get it (yeah) I went from a nothing To something (aye) I came up From a whole bunches of losses But my mama nem Prayed for me nigga All that hating I can't even hear ya This shit started in Washington manor Shit got tough so I moved with my grandma Yeah my mama had too many kids Bad ass fuck so she did what she did Got my chance to go Try to be something While in fact We wasn't supposed to be nothing At least that was my Early consensus That I'd end up another statistic Just another nigga dead or in prison Wit high probability To die in my twenties I grew up around violence and killing Gang related all my cousins was crippin Don't go come round this bitch Actin all timid (what else) Boy I promise You don't want that attention All that friendly shit Make you a target Seen some shit in In lil bitty Port Arthur Told myself I was gone make it regardless Hit them streets And started going retarded They fucked up when They let me in college Hittin licks while I'm getting some knowledge From this bitch That was trying to know something Me and my niggas just trying blow something (we was) She got friends we should try to go fuck em Got em screamin befo' we even touched em They some freaks and they looking for trouble Swear fo God this the first time they done this Yea dats cool We just need some more condoms (Check) Or end up wit a whole baby mama And I ain't trying to deal with that drama I got mind fixed on these commas. We hadn't even got to the bag yet... So I guess it's no money, no problems. Checks I went from a nothing To something (aye) While these pussy ass Niggas was (be) bumpin I Don't care nothing Bout no (your) opinion My first mind Is to grind and go get it (yea) I went from a nothing To something (aye) I came up From a whole bunch of losses But my mama nem Prayed for me nigga All that hatin' I can't even hear ya Yea I went from a nothing To something (aye) While these pussy ass Niggas was (be) bumpin I Don't care nothing Bout no (your) opinion My first mind Is to grind and go get it (yea) I went from a nothing To something (aye) I came up From a whole bunch of losses But my mama nem Prayed for me nigga All that hatin' I can't even hear ya I dropped outta school and kept thuggin Making stupid mistakes on that young shit But time after time bro I swear it was God How I kept getting out of that dumbshit I hung wit some dangerous niggas A lot of em claimed to be killers Who would nickel and dime doing petty ass crimes And most of em No longer wit us (facts) I don't panic I don't get the jitters Don't let nothing get past my antenna Taking Adderall and popping Jiggas Manufacture so that we could deliver (racks) We get popped we going straight up the river Never wanted to be no cop killer (naw) No, My grandma didn't raise me like that So I'm better off writing these raps (no cap) I be hearing these ho niggas yappin They saying the game ain't the same I Make one of them young niggas slap you For fixing your mouth to be lame I ain't saying go jump on some gay shit I ain't telling you niggas don't say shit But you'd better adapt This reality rap We about to leave Earth On this space ship I swear I look just like my daddy Every day I thank God for my family For my sister Devora, Sonia, Latonia, Jakkiya, Markevia, and Ashley My big brother is Greg and lil Willie Cedathion, Chico, and Deekie But 2 of em died... and I'm still alive One day that shit got me to thinking Yea, I need me a ho and housewife Hold up... I don't think that came out right My point is... it might take a village To raise up my chil'en To not live a fucked life Reincarnate And get fucked twice But this generation Ain't nothing nice For whatever its worth I'm a get to that purse If you niggas gon eat You gon pay a price I went from a nothing To something (aye) While these pussy ass Niggas was (be) bumpin I Don't care nothing Bout no (your) opinion My first mind Is to grind and go get it (yea) I went from a nothing To something (aye) I came up From a whole bunch of losses But my mama nem Prayed for me nigga Now I'm making my way to a million Yeah yeah

Enemy Familiar friend My beginning and my end Broken truth Whispering lies And it hurts again What I fear And what I try The words I say and what I hide All the pain I want it to end But I want it again And it finds me The fight inside is Coursing through my veins And it's raging The fight inside is Breaking me again Still the same Pursuing pain Is it worth all I have gained? We both know how it will end But I do it again And it finds me The fight inside is Coursing through my veins And it's raging The fight inside is Hurting me again And it finds me The war within me Pulls me under And without you The fight inside is Breaking me again And it finds me The war within me Pulls me under And without you The fight inside is Breaking me again Oh, it's everything Oh, it's everything Yeah Oh, oh, it's everything Oh, it's everything Oh, it's everything Oh

Definitely not the things that I'm seeing Did I think I'd see so instantly I found a note on my grandfather's coat When I read it aloud I got cold 'Cause he said: I'm not complaining I was just saying I'm a man, I'm a lost one you see? Come down with me to a place We'll get clean And we'll meet with them eventually You mean everything I don't know much but a crutch is a crutch If it's holding you from moving on I don't know what to do Not anymore Not anymore I don't know what to do Not anymore Not anymore And you Well you mean Everything You mean everything to nothing You mean everything to nothing You mean everything to nobody but me

The eye to eye you've finally found is ruining my day. And all I've got is open time so I'm parking far away. I know the breaks in the logo on your sleeping shirt. He just learned your middle name. I'd live last year for a second time. But I'm thinkin' you're ashamed. You said, It's fair of you to feel, that what we had was real. But it's fair of me to free you from that notion. And if your metaphor rings true, Then I'll defer to you. But we can't stay this way for too long. We're dealing with an absent mind. Only one of us at the table. Absent mind. One saved and the other the savior. Absent mind. Oh it's long gone. Absent mind. The eye to eye you've finally found is ruining my week They're pushing me to talk it out but my heart can hardly speak I want to tie it up tight try to move Along because that's all that's left to do Then I read your name in a stack of mail in the corner of my room You know, It's fair of you to feel, that what we had was real. But it's fair of me to free you from that notion. And if your metaphor rings true, I'll defer to you. But we can't stay this way for too long. We're dealing with an absent mind. Only one of us at the table. Absent mind. One saved and the other the savior. Absent mind. Oh it's long gone. Absent mind. And we can't stay this way for too long. Absent mind. Only one of us at the table. Absent mind. One saved and the other the savior. Absent mind. Oh it's long gone. And we can't stay this way for too long.