Soldier for Christ - Var Anthony

Pull you in, push you away That's how I say I'm a little unstable Emotionless, like a machine Can't feel a thing with short circuits in my cables A brain built by every memory Of times I was not enough to make The ones I need most just wanna stay What's wrong with me? Love is a lie, hope is a hole Trust is the trap that took my soul Family is fake, hatred is home Getting abandoned is all I've known I have tried, I have tried to be perfect But I believe, I believe I deserve it I have tried, I have tried to unlearn it But I am wired, I am wired for worthless (worthless) Wired for worthless (worthless) Every act of kindness, every word of praise Makes the system malfunction Only hear the negative 'cause each mistake Is what feeds the combustion A brain built by every memory Of times I was vulnerable in vain That just proved I'm never worth the pain What's wrong with me? Love is a lie, hope is a hole Trust is the trap that took my soul Family is fake, hatred is home Getting abandoned is all I've known I have tried, I have tried to be perfect But I believe, I believe I deserve it I have tried, I have tried to unlearn it But I am wired, I am wired for worthless Less Love is a lie Hope is a hole Hatred is home It's a part of me that I can't let go I have tried, I have tried to be perfect But I believe, I believe I deserve it I have tried, I have tried to unlearn it But I am wired, I'm wired for worthless Less Wired for worthless (less)

Father, this is my confession Sending it from bloodied knees Save me from this sick obsession Of wishing you were proud of me Anything for your affection Overdosed on wine and bread The introspection's just a weapon And it'll be the cause of death I wouldn't blame you for pretending not to hear me pray I bet you're sick of watching me make all the same mistakes Know I've been distant, I'm not trying to take the easy way I just can't imagine any paradise that's worth this pain I've had my darkest thoughts Trying to get to Heaven Twisted my mind in knots Trying to be forgiven Counting all the reasons I could go to Hell but Can't think of even one why I should love myself 'cause I've never felt more lost Trying to be good enough for God Good enough for God All my deepest scars are mental From living with this quietly My body has become a temple For all of my anxieties My core beliefs are so judgmental I wish I'd been the church they've built If I can't let this go, I don't know If I can live with all this guilt I've had my darkest thoughts Trying to get to Heaven Twisted my mind in knots Trying to be forgiven Counting all the reasons I could go to Hell but Can't think of even one why I should love myself 'cause I've never felt more lost Trying to be good enough for God Good enough for God Some days I let myself get angry 'cause I try my best Then overthinking, hit the gas I swear just second guess The biggest question in my head, I don't know how to tell Am I a failure or did you just set me up to fail? Am I a failure or did you just set me up to fail? Am I a failure or did you just set me up to fail? I've had the darkest thoughts Trying to get to Heaven Twisted my mind in knots Trying to be forgiven Counting all the reasons I could go to Hell but Can't think of even one why I should love myself 'cause I've never felt more lost Trying to be good enough for God (Father, this is my confession Sending it from bloodied knees) Good enough for God (Save me from this sick obsession Of wishing you were proud of me) Good enough for God Father, this is my confession Sending it from bloodied knees (Good enough for God) Father, this is Father, this is Father, this is my confession

Uptown, uptown, uptown, hey (Come back, come back, come back home) I'm, I'm missing the view from my old hometown So I climb way up to the heights and I won't come down Now you, you always remind me where I belong So come through, yeah find me and play me my favorite song, so Saca los dominós Let all the homies know Tell everyone we know Yeah, she coming home Ey, sube el volumen Until the base is moving Until the place is moving Until the faces in the room are me and you What to do I'll be home all summer I'll be home all summer If you're gonna be around You can find me uptown (uptown, uptown, uptown, hey) I'll be home all summer I'll be home all summer If you're gonna be around You can find me uptown (uptown, uptown, uptown, hey) I, I know the view from the corner store So I, I wake up longing for so much more Then you, you're back in town You hold me down, you are my wandering star Come through, I'm not alone Thank you for showing me home is where you are, so Saca los dominós Let all the homies know Tell everyone we know Yeah, she coming home Ey, sube el volumen Until the base is moving Until the place is moving Until the faces in the room are me and you What to do I'll be home all summer I'll be home all summer If you're gonna be around You can find me uptown (uptown, uptown, uptown, hey) I'll be home all summer I'll be home all summer If you're gonna be around You can find me uptown (uptown, uptown, uptown, hey) Ladies and gentlemen, Mark Anthony! Let's go! Yeah, you can always come back home You can always come back home (Let's go!) Yeah, you can always come back home You can always come back home Oh, welcome home When the sun goes down Turn the music up (Turn it up, turn it up) I will hold you down (Turn it up, turn it up) I will lift you up (Turn it up, turn it up) When the power goes out (Turn it up, turn it up) And the rent goes up (Turn it up, turn it up) We'll survive uptown (Turn it up, turn it up) I will lift you up I'll be home all summer I'll be home all summer If you're gonna be around (If you're gonna be around) You can find me uptown (uptown, uptown, uptown, hey) I'll be home all summer I'll be home all summer (You can always come back home) If you're gonna be around (You can always come back home) You can find me uptown (Oh, welcome home) Uptown, uptown, uptown, hey Uptown, uptown, uptown, hey I'll be home all summer I'll be home all summer If you're gonna be around, around If you're gonna be around You can find me uptown, uptown