Sleeping Since Last Year - Alaskan Tapes

Maybe I've done enough And your golden child grew up Maybe this trophy isn't real love And with or without it, I'm good enough Maybe I've done enough Finally catching up For the first time I see an image of my brokenness Utterly worthy of love Maybe I've done enough And I finally see myself Through the eyes of no one else It's so exhausting on this silver screen Where I play the role of anyone but me And I finally see myself Unabridged and overwhelmed A mess of a story I'm ashamed to tell But I'm slowly learning how to break this spell And I finally see myself Now I only want what's real To let my heart feel what it feels Gold, silver or bronze hold no value here Where work and rest are equally revered I only want what's real I set aside the highlight reel And leave my greatest failures on display with an asterisk Worthy of love anyway

When I was young, I fell in love with story With the eleventh hour, with the blaze of glory The theatre lights dim and all goes quiet In the darkest of rooms, light shines the brightest When hands are tied and clocks are ticking An audience convinced, we're leaning in Holding our breath again Just when we thought the game was over The music lifts and our dying soldier lives And we breathe a sigh of relief We're leaving, we're leaving our shadows behind us now We're leaving, we're leaving it all behind for now But even dust was made to settle If we're made of dust, then what makes us any different? I guess we give what we've been given A family tree so very good at giving up When we've had enough The truth is heavier than fiction Gravity lifts as the projectionist rolls tape And it makes us brave again And it makes us brave again And it makes us brave So we're leaving, we're leaving our shadows behind us now Yeah, we're leaving, we're leaving it all behind for now And it makes us brave again And it makes us brave Yeah, we're leaving, we're leaving And it makes us brave And we're living unharmed Behind for now

Rows of houses Sound asleep Only street lights Notice me I am desperate If nothing else In a holding pattern To find myself I talk in circles I talk in circles I watch for signals For a clue How to feel different How to feel new Like science fiction Bending truth No one can unring this bell Unsound this alarm, unbreak my heart new God knows, I am dissonance Waiting to be swiftly pulled into tune I'll go anywhere you want Anywhere you want Anywhere you want me I'll go anywhere you want Anywhere you want Anywhere you want me I'll go anywhere you want Anywhere you want Anywhere you want me I'll go anywhere you want Anywhere you want me I know the further I go The harder I try, only keeps my eyes closed And somehow I've fallen in love With this middle ground at the cost of my soul Yet I know, if I stepped aside Released the controls, you would open my eyes That somehow, all of this mess Is just my attempt to know the worth of my life... Made of precious metals Precious metals Precious metals inside Made of precious metals Precious metals Precious metals inside Made of precious metals Precious metals (anywhere you want, anywhere you want me) Precious metals (anywhere you want) Precious metals (anywhere you want, anywhere you want me) I'll go anywhere you want (precious metals) Anywhere you want (precious metals) Anywhere you want me I'll go anywhere you want Anywhere you want me

A million miles, common sense Can't hide the reader, can't fill the trench And what you hide is what I sold And when you're next to me, the feeling's cold Don't tread lightly In the book at the age of stills You make congress, congress Up in the mount on the sea of chills You went tireless, tireless I will walk alone Take toll, take time, and turn your face Dismount your wall, disband your state The tides of thought are blowing in the wind We'll stretch our seed to the beaches of the fins The path is clear, we'll keep clear on the side And make our beds in the beds of others Don't talk lightly In the book at the age of stills You make congress, congress Up in the mount on the sea of chills You went tireless, tireless I will walk alone Through miles and miles of bones When you touch me I'm alone When you tease me I'm alone In the battle of the bones In the battle of the bones I'll be up and coming on I'll be up and holding strong We'll be holding up for long We'll be holding up for long You'll be hiding from our deeds On the whole and on your knees You will hide your women Hide your women, hide your women In the book at the age of stills You make congress, congress Up in the mount on the sea of chills You went tireless, tireless You've been running in for the kill Look down to the south and onto the fields I've been a rider, I've been a shill For conquest, conquest I will walk alone Through miles and miles of bones We'll up our highness off our shyness Bring it to your home