Sik-A - Junie Rey Bag-Ayan

I lost my mind, 'cause I need a friend I just hate life, 'cause I need a friend Last night I cried, 'cause I need a friend Alone this time, 'cause I need a friend Tired of being alone, tired of being at home Tired of feeling stuck, tired of feelin' low Tired of all this pain, tired of feelin' numb Tired of takin' blame, tired of givin' love Tired of gettin' played, tired of being attached Tired of havin' faith, tired of fakin' laughs Tired of losin' sleep, tired of lyin' awake Tired of what I've seen, tired of being replaced Wonder if she regrets it when she sees where I'm headed I'm dealing with the pressure, I'm dealing with depression Girls aren't really investing, I'm only an investment My last ex really told me, when I first sent a message She wasn't interested, but then saw my successes After I didn't trust her, hurts 'cause I really loved her Shortly after I left her, broken but it's whatever I just got a therapist, if she calls, I'ma tell her I lost my mind, 'cause I need a friend I just hate life, 'cause I need a friend Last night I cried, 'cause I need a friend Alone this time, 'cause I need a friend 'Cause I-I-I, it's 'cause I need a friend (Oh) 'Cause I-I-I, it's 'cause I need a friend (Oh)

Yeah, I stare at the clouds when i'm feeling down Reflecting on life and noticing how That during the silence, all my thoughts get loud So i block them out wish she was around But i guess life has a way of removing the people who do not deserve you And it has a way of you feeling connected to all those same people that hurt you I'll be the first to, say i made mistakes I know deep down, that i am not perfect Lately i been isolating myself & digging deep to re- discover my purpose, Strangers see me as an artist, but they don't see the pain I bury underneath the surface I know what i feel inside, I, I just don't know how to word it We love who hurts us, and hope they can change Until they hurt us, then hurt us again Then we start to change, and cause others pain The cycle repeats, and it doesn't break A product of trauma, oh god what a shame Now we hurt those who come along the way Leaving a trail of victims then complain How were to damaged and can't be saved My life ain't where it's suppose to be I'm losing people close to me Didn't know cuts were suppose to bleed What a lie that was sold to me Ooo and I' m standing by myself Staring at the clouds, but feeling hella down Feeling hella down Hurt people hurt people, I been hurt plenty Hurt people hurt people and i've hurt many It does upset me, knowing some resent me Life was unsteady, hope they forgive me I can't keep spending, my life with regret The way i was raised, it fucked with my head That's why i find it so hard to connect Maybe that's why i left every ex I only dated woman, so i didn't feel lonely And ignored the fact that they had all their issues And i self sabotaged our future, instead of acknowledging Everything that i been thru Know i forgive you, i wasn't perfect, cuz we both came from a past Mine made me fearful, yours made you hurtful And that's why we didn't last Some numb their feelings, by taking prescriptions But i numb my feelings by just sitting with them I'm wishing that there was a way i can rid them Cuz it's hitting hard like a 2 car collision This isn't me venting or looking for sympathy This is realizing i need to commit to me Cuz if i don't then ima keep living miserably These feelings, i'm feeling, are crippling and My life ain't where it's suppose to be I'm losing people close to me Didn't know cuts were suppose to bleed What a lie that was sold to me Ooo and i'm standing by myself Staring at the clouds, but feeling hella down Feeling hella down

Always workin' and I never kick my feet up 50 million views and haters try to act Like they ain't seen 'em But I'm grindin' till I headline And I'ma sell out areans I'm not stoppin' till I meet Drake And I get placed on a feature How could you ball If you're always sittin' on the bleachers Wake up, write, record, sleep That is the procedure There's too many followers And there's not enough leaders Said there's too much followers And there's not enough leaders Girls are tryna fuck me now Cause they thinkin' that I'm on But if my buzz diminished then I know she'll be gone I be rappin' 'bout my ex Now she thinkin' she the one Who can heal my broken heart But oh girl you're hella wrong, yeah I'm in a weird place But I'm stayin' strong Because the road ahead of me Lookin' hella long Everytime I'm in the room I feel like I don't belong I was feelin' insecure Right after I wrote this song Cause I hate I don't love myself I hate that I want you so bad I hate that I gotta be everything That everybody says that I can't And if you were inside my head Then you'd understand what I go through Imagine everybody Knowing who you are But nobody out there Really knows you Lately I feel like The world's tryna test me Lately it feels like my ex Tryna stress me Why does it feel like Everyone's against me Why does it feel like They're just tryna end me So many reasons to smile So why can't I do it They say it's in my mind Then why can't I get through it I heard that they criticise So now I question music And one day I feel alive The next I'm feeling useless I'm only human If I'm so handsome Why am I feeling self-conscious If I know I can't change Why do I make the promise If I am so popular Then why am I in my apartment Alone If I'm so real Then let me just be honest Cause I hate I don't love myself I hate that I want you so bad I hate that I gotta be everything That everybody says that I can't And if you were inside my head Then you'd understand what I go through Imagine everybody Knowing who you are But nobody out there Really knows you

I know you never had pictured me leavin' Breaking up is never easy We're dead now and I'm grieving I was there whenever you would need me Even all the times that you'd deceived me Every single night that you went drinking I would sit at home, feeling all alone Wishing you could see the way you treat me I feel so broken, I just wanna die I gave a second chance a million times I live my truth, you would live a lie 'Cause the same issues with different guys It's the same bullshit, just at different times This is your loss, girl, it isn't mine I am not perfect but I fucking tried You would make mistakes and then you'd fuckin' hide Now we're gone and it's dead and buried You lost forever just for temporary What were you thinking, you weren't thinking clearly All our memories rest in a cemetery My daughter ask about you, don't know what tell her I feel hella guilty when I say, "Forget her" I gotta be strong and hold it together You're a memory and it hurts to remember So I block it out, it's just to much My confidence tank, I'm in rut And lately I feel like I'm not good enough And you may be gone but the damage stuck I would of died for you, would of tried for you I would always try to make the time for you I would never ever tell a lie to you And even tho we split, I still feel tied to you and I never wanted to split, I never wanted to drift I never wanted another man to meet your mother all over again I never wanted to end, I didn't want any of this I wanted wrap a ring around your finger and maybe even have a couple of kids I guess it is what is, I lost my hope Who we love kills us the most I'm so afraid to get close We are just people until we all turn into a ghost A future we'll never know Yeah, something we'll never know And sometimes you gotta let go of what's kills you even if it kills you to let go, damn I been replaced I been replaced, replaced I been replaced I been erased I been erased, erased I been erased