Shouldn't Be This Hard - Zindee

We really shouldn't be doing this and we both know why Just being close enough to think like this, enough to make you need to lie This kinda talk will lead us to somewhere We're gettin' way too close to going there The farther off the better to resist, we really shouldn't be doing this Only an isolated incident, but the acquaintance left me stunned The first attraction was the hardest hit I thought I'd ever overcome This kinda situation has to pass, this chance encounter has to be the last To take it further we would be remiss, we really shouldn't be doing this We'd each be hurting somebody else if we don't say our good-byes real fast Won't even think about a farewell kiss, we really shouldn't be doing this Well... We really shouldn't be doing this and we both know why Just being close enough to think like this, enough to make you have to lie This kinda talk will lead us to somewhere We're gettin' way too close to going there The farther off the better to resist, we really shouldn't be doing this This kinda situation has to pass, this chance encounter has to be the last To take it further we would be remiss, we really shouldn't be doing this Won't even think about a good-bye kiss, we really shouldn't be doing this

You can always, you can always come home I know you've been out there, out there on your own Out there on your own I wake up in my own skin again Thinking all about me What shouldn't I be? What shouldn't I be? What shouldn't I be? What shouldn't I be today? Family ties Put them 'round my neck I'm walkin' 'round high A ghost by my side Challenges come Challenges come and they go I need someone to help me down You can always come home You can always come home A mother always knows I needed to grow Just, it's all about you now And what shouldn't you be? What shouldn't you be? What shouldn't you be? I should visit my brother But I haven't been there in months I've lost connection, signal To how we were What shouldn't I be? (What shouldn't I be?) It's not all about me (What shouldn't I be?)

A double line on the bathroom floor A kind of joy I'd never felt before I had so many plans for you The kind of news you never want to hear The doctors say that you won't make it here I had so many plans for you Nothing prepares, nothing prepares you for this And I didn't know that I could hurt like this How could something so small Leave such a big scar Is it selfish of me now To wish I'd never felt this pain Didn't even know your name So I'll hold you in my heart Even though I should be Holding you in my arms A quiet drive on the way back home There's no words that can fill this hole I had so many plans for you There's pretty flowers showing at our door Wish you could see how you were already adored I had so many plans for you Nothing prepares, nothing prepares you for this And I didn't know that I could hurt like this How could something so small Leave such a big scar Is it selfish of me now To wish I'd never felt this pain Didn't even know your name So I'll hold you in my heart Even though I should be Holding you in my arms Nothing prepared, nothing prepared me for this God I didn't know that I could hurt like this How could something so small Leave such a big scar Oh please Heaven help me now I know there's purpose in the pain And God knows your name So I'll hold you in my heart Even though I wish You were right here in my arms

I'd rather lay in bed Than face my problems Not good at promises I don't have answers Can't count how many times I've hit rock bottom But I still wear a smile Because of you You take me just as I am You take me just as I am I don't have to worry 'bout the future ahead Cause you take me just as I am Just as I am I'm good at failing friends I make a mess of things I don't apologize Not even when I'm wrong I try to change my ways I'm far from perfect But you still meet me here You're still here You take me just as I am You take me just as I am I don't have to worry 'bout the future ahead Cause you take me just as I am Just as I am I'm sorry for the times All the times I let you down I'm really trying to Be more like you I'm sorry for the times All the times I let you down I'm really trying to Be more like you You take me just as I am You take me just as I am I don't have to worry 'bout the future ahead Cause you take me just as I am Just as I am

I remember when I first saw you I said that you were pretty Never wanted that day to end I knew you were the one for me Never been so sure of someone Oh every word I said I meant it Girl when I said it Yeah I really meant it You, you take my hand And I, I start to dance You and me can make it through Forever and always I do I do, I do, I do I remember the day we met and You said that I was pretty First kiss on my tip toes we were Alone in the city Days flying by, I was falling so hard I could see it so clearly Boy I've never seen clearly But with you it's so easy You, you take my hand And I, I start to dance You and me can make it through Forever and always I do I do, I do, I do I don't wanna imagine What life would be without ya I don't wanna imagine What life would be without ya I don't wanna imagine What life would be without ya I don't wanna imagine What life would be without ya You, you take my hand And I, I start to dance You and me can make it through Forever and always I do I do, I do, I do, I do

Long as we don't think about it We can lie here happily This could all be complicated But it doesn't have to be Don't wanna be honest We don't wanna talk this out 'Cause we know it'll end when we do As long as the spark's there Then why should our hearts care that We've been running away from the truth We know what we're doing We know it's just fun We know we're not stupid We know it's not love, we know it's not love But we can play dumb We can play dumb We can play dumb Kiss me like we'll last forever Hold you like we'll die this way 'Cause we'll always be together If we keep up this charade Don't wanna be honest We don't wanna talk this out 'Cause we know it'll end when we do As long as the spark's there Then why should our hearts care that We've been running away from the truth We know what we're doing We know it's just fun We know we're not stupid We know it's not love, we know it's not love But we can play dumb We can play dumb We can play dumb We know we're not stupid We can play dumb

I've been sipping On the right kind of things to keep me Missing you I'm not sleeping I just lay awake at night and think of All we'd do I was holding on to something That wasn't right, wasn't healthy Why is it so hard to move on When I know it wasn't for me Why do I keep wasting time Tryna get you off my mind I could go and find somebody new But whatever I do I just can't forget you Whatever I do I just can't forget you Whatever I do I just can't forget you I've been looking At the right kind of thing to keep me Hooked on you I'm not feeling Strong enough to think of all the reasons We fell through I was holding on to something That wasn't right, wasn't healthy Why is it so hard to move on When I know it wasn't for me Why do I keep wasting time Tryna get you off my mind I could go and find somebody new But whatever I do I just can't forget you Whatever I do I just can't forget you Whatever I do I just can't forget you I know one day I won't feel this way But one day can wait 'Cause right now I just can't forget you I know one day I won't feel this way But one day can wait