Should I Call My Mom - Subpar

Long distance in the way of what could be Even when you're here, you're not with me She's having the child I should've carried I'll be damned if y'all get married How's the baby? How you adjusting? Ain't gon' work, you got problems trusting Let me stop, I'm supposed to be focused But these nights are the coldest Will you ever let her go? I don't know Will I ever be first? I hope But I ain't just sitting around Can't wait for someone to see my worth Damn, I can't compete with a baby Is there any room left in your heart for me? Ooh-whoa, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him Maybe I should call, maybe I should call I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him But I never call Maybe that's my flaw Maybe that's why I ain't got a man 'Cause I be doing too much thinking Tryna compensate for your absence But no drug can take me where you can No, I just want you where I am One thousand of them, just want one him Drowning in all of my excuses Heart is feeling useless Probably should've used it less Will you ever let her go? I don't know Will I ever be first? I hope But I ain't just sitting around Can't wait for someone to see my worth Damn, I can't compete with a baby Is there any room left in your heart for me Ooh-whoa, 'cause I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him Maybe I should call, maybe I should call I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him But I never call Maybe that's my flaw After the last time we talked (after we talked) Oh, I was a mess You had me stressed Oh, no-no-no-no-no I wrote the text, I didn't send it Dialed your number, but said "Forget it" Oh, what would it change? She's still in the way, but I I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him Maybe I should call, maybe I should call I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him But I never call Maybe that's my flaw

Yeah, yeah Jollof in an ice cream tub, that's the Af' in me, nigga Never on time, that's the black in me, nigga Balance out the lows by any means Know I stay high every day, keep a pack on me, nigga I eat, everybody eatin' Make fifty in a day and run it back to my niggas I know how to be selfless I know how to be the opposite, thin line in between Left made right when I'm in between Baby, show me somethin' I've never seen Guess we all tryna get by somehow Somehow, I'm finally livin' what I dreamed Somehow, I managed to reap what I sowed Somehow, I managed to see what I'm owed Young blood, old soul Can I die once and be born again? Rat race of who wants to be a millionaire If you ain't got the answers, call a friend Warnin' them Not everybody has pure intent We all on the same boat Keep your head up, stay afloat Man, it feels like the zeitgeist If this 2020, there ain't no hindsight If you see death is the next chapter, can you die twice? Guess life forced me to calm down, get my mind right Livin' day by day, sleepless night by night Bored out of my mind How many naps can I take? How many songs can I write? Minimize bullshit, get down to business Crabs in a barrel like everybody's in this Times we livin' in don't seem real But it was never a fairytale to begin with I just build my zoots and stay in tune Cook my meals and make my tunes Like there's fuck else to do, ain't that true? Though I've always appreciated solitude Yeah, I've always been cool with bein' low-key Don't see me out here much, not me I was on job, tryna get my coin You was runnin' on E, I was runnin' with ease That's facts, I handle beats, then I handle bars like you wouldn't believe Tryna maintain my sanity It's a blind fight, mmh Is anybody in they right mind? If this 2020, there ain't no hindsight If you see death is the next chapter, can you die twice? Guess life forced me to calm down, get my mind right Livin' day by day, sleepless night by night Bored out of my mind How many naps can I take? How many songs can I write?