Shall I Stay (11월의 Hidden Track) - EDEN

I saw a star beneath the stairs Glowing through the melting walls Who will be the first to begin their fall? Or will we become one? Am I the star beneath the stairs? Am I the ghost upon the stage? Am I your anything? I saw a star beneath the stairs Glowing bright before descent And in the morning there is nothing left But what's inside of me Am I the star beneath the stairs? Am I the ghost upon the stage? Am I your anything? Am I the star beneath the stairs? Am I the ghost upon the stage? Am I your anything? And I don't want to die tonight, will you believe in me? And I don't want to fall into the light Will you wish upon, will you walk upon me? I don't want to die tonight Will you believe in me tonight? Am I the star beneath the stairs? Am I the ghost upon the stage? Am I your anything? Am I the star beneath the stairs? Am I the ghost upon the stage? Am I your anything?

So tell me this is who you are, yeah They tell me, I've got something more And oh, you could be loved But I don't want the lights to Find me when I'm dark and lost, but never on my own 'Cause I just wanna swing like Sinatra Singing like I can't stop 'Cause I can never rock like a Rolling Stone I just want to live like the ones before, yeah And maybe I could play guitar like Hendrix Or save the world or end it, and And maybe they'll remember me when I'm gone That's all I could ever want That's all I want So I got ten minutes to be all or nothing to whoever wants to hear And I got ten weeks of talking bullshit on repeat 'til I'm burnt out and disappear But I owe you nothing And I own my luck So, they say you'll never be alone again But I don't think you understand me or what I fear And you could be loved But I don't wanna lie to Tell myself I'm more than all the mistakes I've outrun But I'm only here for a minute And I don't care what you say 'Cause I know you're only here 'cause I'm winning But I can be my own kind of rock and roll, I I don't really care if you say, you don't fuck with me And I can say what the fuck I want 'cause it's down to me and I got love for you even if you were doubting me Like, oh my God, I just can't stop 'Cause I just wanna sing like Sinatra With ethanol my soundtrack 'Cause I could never rock like a Rolling Stone And wonder how it feels to burn out young, ay 'Cause I just wanna die before my heart fails from heartbreak or cocktails, and Then maybe you'll cry once you know I'm gone That's all I could ever want Oh, that's all I want, yeah 'Cause I ain't scared of livin' (Does it get easier?) (No) No, I ain't scared of livin' (yes, it gets easier) (Oh yeah?) No, I ain't scared of livin' 'Cause it's all we've got What are we breathin' for if we ain't livin'? (No, I ain't scared of livin') And I don't want your love I just wanna feel like I'm still livin' (no, I ain't scared of livin') And if there is no God I'll know the day I die, I lived through heaven (no, I ain't scared of livin') And that I gave it hell And if it hurt, oh well, at least that's living (no, I ain't scared of livin') (The more you know who you are, and what you want) that's all I want (The less you let things upset you) That's all I want (I just don't know what I'm supposed to be, you know?) (Tried being a writer, but umf, I hate what I write and) (Uh, I tried taking pictures, ugh, but they're so mediocre, you know?) (And every girl goes through a photography phase) (You know, like horses?) (And take uh, dumb pictures of your feet) (You'll figure that out) (I'm not worried about you)

One, two, three Yeah, she's in love with the concept As if we're all just how she imagined 'Cause we're in love but just don't know it yet Well, tell me how I'm supposed to see the magic 'Cause I don't believe in it no more But I won't tell her 'Cause I always imagined It's easier if she thinks she won So Imma' let her And she said "I don't think I love you no more." "You never seem to call me lately" Girl, I don't think you know me at all 'Cause I never thought I'd have to say this No, I don't love you, and I never did Look at us burning down in flames for kicks But just know I'm not singing for your XO I'm just singing 'cause it's over, yeah (Uhh) (Yeah) Came and went like the summertime Is that a sunset or sunrise? Looking back like where'd the time go So much for trying to keep this moving slow 'Cause I don't believe in her no more But I remember How we talked shit like we knew what we wanted, and I still remember what she said "I don't think I love you no more" "You never seem to call me lately" But I don't think she knew me at all 'Cause I never thought I'd have to say this But I'm no liar And I never hid anything You should've seen it coming to this, just know I'm not singing for an EX though I'm just singing 'cause it's over Yeah, Yeah

And I said, "What's up?" "What you been thinking?" 'Cause you been staring at that roof so long I swear it's come alive And she spoke nine words And now we're sinking But I can't find it in myself to want to lie To keep this thing from going down 'Cause that girl took my heart And I ain't want it back No I'm laying down my cards 'Cause you said it meant nothing And I should've kept my silence But I guess I'm too attached to my own pride to let you know That all these words meant nothing And I've always been this heartless And we're just having sex No, I would never call it love But, love Oh, no I think I'm catching feelings And I don't know If this is empathy I feel Just hold on Remember why you said this was the last time? Woah, hey, yeah, yeah, yeah Woah So I guess it's Woah, hey, yeah, yeah, yeah Woah Let die to let it live And what's good? When both choices I've got Have us staring down the barrel To the bullets I can't stop? And so I stand off Like indecisions Kevlar 'Til this fear of feeling stops and I'm done But you No, I don't know how to forget you No, I don't know how to forget you No, I don't know how to forget you No, I don't know how to forget you (No, I don't know how to forget you) 'Cause that girl took my heart (No, I don't know how to forget you) And I ain't want it back (No, I don't know how to forget you) No, a bulletproof restart (No, I don't know how to forget you) Oh, no I think I'm catching feelings And I don't know If this is empathy I feel Just hold on Remember why you said this was the last time? Woah, hey, yeah, yeah, yeah Woah So I guess it's Woah, hey, yeah, yeah, yeah Woah Let die to let live No, I don't know how to forget you No, I don't know how to forget you No, I don't know how to forget you No, I don't know how to forget you

Breaking in with your new friend Think of me when you shut it down, down, down, down (oh) Hey, yeah Hey, yeah Heart breaking, we're so- And she said, "What you doing? Can you come through?" Certain things I wish I could undo Don't want to feel a way, so let it pass through Waist pressed on you in a past life She said undress her in the bathroom Give me head, I love a good attitude Falling for you in a vacuum Slipping past hundred on the dash soon When a call came, zoom Zoom, zoom, zoom, yeah (Comms check, one, two) I thought about you all of my night Found you outside, we had fun crimes Collapsed some time I'll cross your mind, call me next time Dilated eyes, quick death, brief life Crashing, crushing I lost all focus Blurring through these motions You don't give a fuck since Distance turned to oceans (I can't find my phone) Weaponize the timeline I've been here in real life Dodging all these airstrikes Anxious, but it's alright Martyrdom weather (yeah, oh) Breaking in with your new friend (ooh) Think of me when you shut it down, down, down, down (yeah) I read your message through the lines I just wanna cool it off She just loves crossing all these wires Hands getting tied up in 'em But don't you hate those clichés now? (Such a-, yeah) Almost killed to not get stronger The photos lasted longer And after all this time, we're not much taller, I know (ooh, oh) I lost all focus Blurring through these motions You don't give a fuck since Distance turned to oceans (I can't find my phone) Weaponize the timeline I've been here in real life Dodging all these airstrikes Anxious, but it's alright Martyrdom weather Breaking in with your new friend (ooh, ooh) Think of me when you shut it down (ooh, ooh) Fucking me out of your head (yeah) Heart breaking, we're solo, ah Breaking in with your new friend Think of me when you shut it down

I want to go (yeah) I was looking for your face in the prequels That keep running through my mind when it's idle I know you never had the time for my sci-fi's But, you loved shapeshifting And I know we were high, but I meant it I'm not tryna fuck about, if it looks it I told her, "Now is not the time" I'm just dancing and ghost-erasing Oh, but I remember That sunset like it was last night Fireworks blowing holes in the night sky She told me, "Baby, now or never" I didn't know what it was for a long time But it was you for so long on my mind I know we're breaking I just wanna hear your voice in the morning (yeah) 'Cause I been up waiting for something that's hopeless I don't really wanna break your heart when it's open Like finding out love's not a feeling, it's a choice, oh-whoa-oh (I miss home) You want me to tell you I've always hated dancing, but I would dance with you Whoa, and I can see right through you, babe Know you'd love me if I told you that I'm in love with you Oh, but I remember That sunset like it was last night Fireworks blowing holes in the night sky She told me, "Baby, now or never" I didn't know what it was for a long time But it was you for so long on my mind I know we're breaking, but I just wanna hear your voice in the morning 'Cause I been up waiting for something that's hopeless I don't really wanna break your heart when it's open Like finding out love's not a feeling, it's a choice, oh-whoa-oh You want me to tell you (ooh, ooh) I've always hated dancing, but I would dance with you Whoa, and I can see right through you, babe You would love me if I told you (ooh, ooh)

The morning light shines a lifeline Escape is what I need I should've listened last night, girl This is beyond belief That we keep falling for the lure of Liquid confidence and lies And we, skydive from walls we built Dying just to feel alive On the way down screaming Woah, oh, oh If all we have is time, then we'll be alright Woah, oh, oh It's not much, but it's better than nothing Woah, oh, oh We're running on fumes, but we'll make it through the night Woah, oh, oh It's not love, but it's better than dreaming Oh, I'm on fire There's a burning in my bones and in my eyes These dreams they're taking hold, I just need time Time Building walls to burn them down Cannonballs to watch me drown You've got me lost in here and now You've got me gone and lost and found We only hang in evenings and I don't know what I'm thinking But I know that I won't think it if I keep up with this thinking All these dreams and all these plans we shared under the moonlight They're dreams and plans that I have, I just don't know if you'll fit right When I leave in the morning, and I kiss you and say goodnight I kick myself until we kick it, should've told you goodbye Coming home so late at night with clothes covered in sand I don't know just what I'm missing, but I'm doing what I can And if all we have is time, then we will find... Woah, oh, oh If all we have is time, then we'll be alright Woah, oh, oh It's not much, but it's better than nothing Woah, oh, oh We're running on fumes, but we'll make it through the night Woah, oh, oh It's not love, but it's better than dreaming Woah, oh, oh If all we have is time, then we'll be alright Woah, oh, oh It's not much, but it's better than nothing Woah, oh, oh We're running on fumes, but we'll make it through the night Woah, oh, oh It's not love, but it's better than dreaming