Who I was three years ago would have a crush on me today She'd take secret videos from the back of the house while I'm on stage Ask, "Who did your tattoos?" and, "If you're ever in the mood I'd love to take you out so I could learn a thing or two" Who I am today would think that 21-year-old was sweet I'd indulge her bright-eyed inquiries and wouldn't tell her she's naïve And though she'd think I had it all figured out I'd let her know I'm full of headaches, fear and doubt But I'd say thank you for reminding me what this whole thing's about I guess I've grown a lot and you have showed me how I get caught up in the forward crawl I forget to see the beauty of it all They say just be yourself, but they forget that order's tall I'm still tryna find it But this slightly younger self helps me recall Who I'll be three years from now will have some shit to say to me Relax your furrowed brow, there ain't no reason to worry And if you feel like giving up You gotta remember that you're tough You'll find your power in the tears that line your cheeks Who I am today would ask that older person for some cheats But I'd secretly hope they wouldn't give any to me And in my fantasy they've got it figured out And all their confidence outweighs their minor doubts But I'm wise enough to know that's not what this whole thing's about I got some growing left and you've showed me how I get caught up in the forward crawl I forget to see the beauty of it all They say just be yourself, but they forget that order's tall I may never find it Don't really mind that Cause this scrappy band of all the different versions of myself They never fail To catch me when I fall