See Me I'm Smiling - Merrilee Rush

The sun comes up and you are all over my mind You're in my brain before I can open my eyes As I go on without you my heartbeat won't slow down I need you back like I need to air to breathe this out All I can do is keep you closer now 'Cause I know you're somewhere out there looking down Wherever you are (wherever you are) I hope you can see me smiling The sky gets dark, I watch the water here at home It's ten years now and I'm still learning to let go It's not the same without you, there's no one keeping time You were the rhythm that was bringing us to life All I can do is keep you closer now 'Cause I know you're somewhere out there looking down Wherever you are (wherever you are) I hope you can see me smiling now (i hope you can see me smiling) Sometimes I can't help but think that I had you right behind me all this time If only you could have a chance to see All the happiness you gave to me ... All I can do is keep you closer now 'Cause I know you're somewhere out there looking down Wherever you are(wherever you are) I hope you can see me smiling now (i hope you can see me smiling now) I hope you can see me smiling

I'm going away smiling, thinking about our life How we were good for each other, how we knew When I came to you, I was all black and blue You just smiled and said, your love was true We had a great time, didn't we? Never knew this is how it would be. Now the boat is slowly leaving, leaving the life I loved I see you standing at the pier, trying to hide your fear Thank you for the memories, thank you for the laughs I'm going away, this time, Remember... no tears

There's no need to fear me Darlin', I love you as you are When you're alone I never tried to change you As if I could and if I were to What's the part that I'd miss most? When you're smiling and astride me I can hardly believe I found you And I'm terrified by that I've got nothing to hide from you Kissing my brother in my dreams Or finding God knows in my jeans You see me as I am, it's true Aimless, fake drifter And the horny man-child Momma's boy to boot That's how you live free Truly see and be seen

You talking to me like we can't choose To live in the moment I refuse To stop trying to own it, like you always do I try, I wanna stay young, but it's old news Leave me alone in the rearview, I reminisce Will you notice me now Try to cut corners, try to fast-forward Try to get by preoccupied, you're making life shorter So why are you acting, always distracted Thought we were fine, that you were mine or did I imagine? Why can't we get it in the open Why can't you be here in the moment You love to give up, but I keep hoping You see me here, see me now You are looking for something to redo Nobody thinks more than we do Too many options to look through But I see you here Try to cut corners, try to fast-forward Try to get by preoccupied, you're making life shorter So why are you acting, always distracted Thought we were fine, that you were mine, or did I imagine? Why can't we get it in the open Why can't you be here in the moment You love to give up, but I keep hoping You see me here, see me now Why can't we get it in the open Why can't you be here in the moment I'm trying not to give up, yeah, I keep hoping You see me here, see me now Why can't we get it in the open Why can't you be here in the moment I'm trying not to give up, yeah, I keep hoping Why can't we get it in the open Why can't you be here in the moment You love to give up, but I keep hoping See me here, see me now Why can't we get it in the open Why can't you be here in the moment I'm trying not to give up, yeah, I keep hoping You see me here, see me now

Polarize me, sensitize me Criticize me, civilize me Compensate me, animate me Complicate me, elevate me Goddess in my garden Sister in my soul Angel in my armor Actress in my role Daughter of a demon lover Empress of the hidden face Priestess of the pagan mother Ancient queen of inner space Polarize me, sensitize me Criticize me, civilize me Compensate me, animate me Complicate me, elevate me Spirit in my psyche Double in my role Alter in my image Struggle for control Mistress of the dark unconscious Mermaid of the lunar sea Daughter of the great enchantress Sister to the boy inside of me Polarize me, sensitize me Criticize me, civilize me Compensate me, animate me Complicate me, elevate me My counterpart, my foolish heart A man must learn to rule his tender part A warming trend, a gentle friend A man must build a fortress to defend A secret face, a touch of grace A man must learn to give a little space A peaceful state, a submissive trait A man must learn to gently dominate Polarize me, sensitize me Criticize me, civilize me Compensate me, animate me Complicate me, elevate me Complicate me, elevate me