Season that doesn't exist - Jaehyun Lim

Cancel all my plans, I'm waitin' at the window Found that note you left me underneath my pillow Last night, you said that you missed me God only knows I've been missing you too All of the best of our history Loves all I could see when I was lookin' at you Talked about changin', you promised you did Guess I still believe in things that don't exist Set your phone face down, but I could hear it buzzin' Said that I should trust you, told me that's what love is You got me all in my head now Hope you're alone as the hours go by Bracin' myself for the let-down God knows we've been here a million times But I am waitin' just like a kid Guess I still believe in things that don't exist You're not gonna show up (you're not gonna show up) You're just gonna keep changing your mind (mind) And I'm not gonna grow up (I'm not gonna grow up) I'm just gonna keep letting you try (try) And anyone who knows us (and anyone who knows us) Knows that this is all a waste of time (it's all a waste of time) And I should be rollin' the credits (the credits) The movie's a lie, and you're not the one But that's not the fairy tale ending (ending) I've been imagining since I was young You're a ghost in the hallway where you're about to walk in Guess I still believe in things that don't exist

Baby please It's the way you speak Forming words so easily And I think of the way you think It keeps me from falling asleep In that grave I call a bed Until you called me up and said "I haven't stopped crying My father's been drinking I need a place to stay I don't want to be here He's saying the words that He promised he would never say That liquid he consumes Makes him speak the truth" And I said "No, it's not that at all It's that bottle of lies for a troubled heart It's standing on the edge of a mountain top Screaming anything he wants Like, "Look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me Because I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist" I remember the way you shook It's a shame that we're not soul mates 'Cause if I didn't know better I'd say this feels pretty good And how could I be scared? When I stretch and feel you're there So shut your mouth 'Cause these words will speak themselves I can feel them in these blankets And they're surrounding your figure Embraced in the quilts And I can't help but think You're my missing puzzle piece I wake up in the hallway, I'm looking for sunlight With rays that will cure me of the pain that keeps my lungs tight Ignoring the voices and feelings that tell me To get out of this house I can't make them stop I'm just like my mom And you said, "No, these demons will fall You're so precious to us all" And I said, "I, I can't do this alone I still need you to hold So don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go, don't let go 'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid"