Sad In Toronto - Lia Pappas-Kemps

I'm home with my family My father's having surgery And I'm ashamed so I've been thinking more About how maybe all of this would make A good excuse to call you, say "I just need emotional support", mm-hmm I just wanna hold you It doesn't have to mean anything I don't think that it cannot mean anything But I still wanna hold you I just wanna call you It doesn't have to mean anything I don't think that it cannot mean anything But I still wanna call you Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh It's 4:30 in Toronto and I don't know where to go Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh It's 4:30 in Toronto and I don't know where to go Home don't feel like home in a hotel room Home don't feel like home in a hotel room Passing all these memories Of all this life before you Driving to the house I grew up in But after I moved out Someone knocked it down Replaced it with a concrete piece of shit, mm-hmm It makes me wanna hold you It doesn't have to mean anything I don't think that it cannot mean anything But I still wanna hold you I just wanna call you It doesn't have to mean anything I don't think that it cannot mean anything But I still wanna call you Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh It's 4:30 in Toronto and I don't know where to go Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh It's 4:30 in Toronto and I don't know where to go Home don't feel like home in a hotel room Home don't feel like home in a hotel room I miss you still, it just feels different now Different like the streets in my hometown I'll reach for you when I get overwhelmed I miss you still, it just feels different now, mm-hmm Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh It's 4:30 in Toronto and I don't know where to go Home don't feel like home in a hotel room Home don't feel like home in a hotel room

The flight back to Atlanta is usually the best But only when I don't have to leave you alone in this bed I gather my things and lay a kiss on your forehead Then I start to believe that my heart still beats in my chest When I know that it doesn't, when you know I feel nothing When everyone around except you wasn't judging And what hurts me the most is that you couldn't be trusted And the world will turn with men like you who won't do it justice, but You made me see this world in New colors, a new lens And I'll fade back to black in the end But when I'm alone tonight, baby, I won't have to pretend We spent Christmas in Toronto, woke to the most handsome face Made memories no Audemar Piguet cannot replace And it was sweet, but leaves the most bitter taste Met your mother, she has the sweetest embrace But wouldn't it be nice if I could Put my feelings aside? Wouldn't it be nice If I hadn't let you eat me alive? And you can say that you don't miss me, but I won't listen Because I always find myself reminiscing You say that you don't want this, what do you want then? 'Cause we done been around the sun, and you and I still on the run You made me see this world in New colors, a new lens And I'll fade back to black in the end But when I'm alone tonight, baby, I won't have to pretend We spent Christmas in Toronto, woke to the most handsome face Made memories no Audemar Piguet cannot replace And it was sweet, but leaves the most bitter taste Met your mother, she has the sweetest embrace Wouldn't it be nice if we could both Share a piece? Then we'd be whole Sometimes, these feet get cold Could use a hand for me to hold 'Cause all I know is we're better together, thick or thin And I'm sold, I'm down for whatever Because if this world were mine, let our worlds combine Then we could be leaders for boys and girls alike And you made me see this world in New colors, a new lens And I'll fade back to black in the end But when I'm alone, love We spent Christmas in Toronto, woke to the most handsome face Made memories no Audemar Piguet cannot replace And it was sweet, but leaves the most bitter taste Met your mother, she has the sweetest embrace

The iron hand it ain't no match for the iron rod, The strongest wall will crumble and fall to a mighty God. For all those who have eyes and all those who have ears It is only He who can reduce me to tears. Don't you cry and don't you die and don't you burn For like a thief in the night, He'll replace wrong with right When He returns. Truth is an arrow and the gate is narrow that it passes through, He unleashed His power at an unknown hour that no one knew. How long can I listen to the lies of prejudice? How long can I stay drunk on fear out in the wilderness? Can I cast it aside, all this loyalty and this pride? Will I ever learn that there'll be no peace, that the war won't cease Until He returns? Surrender your crown on this blood-stained ground, take off your mask, He sees your deeds, He knows your needs even before you ask. How long can you falsify and deny what is real? How long can you hate yourself for the weakness you conceal? Of every earthly plan that be known to man, He is unconcerned, He's got plans of His own to set up His throne When He returns.

You look so good in your Thunderbird I feel so small Pretend that I'm your girlfriend Through the haze of alcohol Harsh words leave your lips But I just plug my ears Give into innocence Cause I can't stand souvenirs Oh I'll be blissfully wrong Hold your hand as I drown (You say my name) As you're watching me undress (What a shame) That this is something I'll regret (That's your game) Make every no turn into a yes (I'll take the blame) Cause I knew I was your object at best I'm loving myself to death My world's been painted rose I can't see you differently So I'll just bask in your glow And your lack of sympathy Kiss you as a friend Think of you as a god Everywhere I've touched you Pasted into my travelogue Every moment with you is a victory I'd live in misery (You say my name) As you're watching me undress (What a shame) That this is something I'll regret (That's your game) Make every no turn into a yes (I'll take the blame) Cause I knew I was your object at best I'm loving myself to death Kiss you as a friend Think of you as god