I thought you woulda called yesterday I said I didn't want you to but I still thought you would I don't know what I expected you to say But I turned 25 and had in my mind you'd be part of that in some way I'm halfway round the world with all these people Happy in a foreign language Where they don't know a thing about you I'm halfway round the world in Barcelona Trying not to think you'd love this This wasn't supposed to be about you This wasn't supposed to be about you I wonder how I crossed your mind I'm sure I did but I'm curious what the thought of me felt like Was it harder that you imagined it would be? 'Cause when I missed your 30th it almost fucking killed me I'm halfway round the world with all these people Happy in a foreign language Where they don't know a thing about you I'm halfway round the world in Barcelona Singing songs to you for strangers And trying not to think about you This wasn't supposed to be about you This wasn't supposed to be about you I'm halfway round the world with all these people Happy in a foreign language Where they don't know a thing about you I'm halfway round the world in Barcelona Tryna feel my world expanding Like none of it was built around you This wasn't supposed to be about you This wasn't supposed to be about you

Say no say no I'm tellin' myself But then I choose you over my mental health instead I know the reasons I know everything we said But pull me closer as you tell me them again You're looking less and less like a friend Friend But wait I'm scared you're scared But we're still going there Lady, I'm not prepared To need you everywhere I wish I wanted anybody else But don't stop Before I can't stop myself I say that I want to control this But deep down I hope that it's hopeless Don't stop I wish I wanted anybody else Say no say no I'm not ready for this So soon But maybe I don't know what ready really is With you Hips on my fingertips Lips getting used to this With your skin on my skin And your legs on my chest You look less and less like a friend Friend But wait I'm scared your scared But we're still going there Lady, I'm not prepared To need you everywhere I wish I wanted anybody else But don't stop Before I can't stop myself I say that I want to control this But deep down I hope that it's hopeless Don't stop I wish I wanted anybody else I've been fighting with myself But I lose every time I've been fighting with myself So I say something like "I don't know if I'm alright with this People say we could get hurt by this Don't you look at me that way Cause I'll forget every warning... Fuck let's just talk in the morning" I wish I wanted anybody else But don't stop Before I can't stop myself I say that I want to control this But deep down I hope that it's hopeless Don't stop I wish I wanted anybody else