Riverside Waiting - PennyLane

Night outside grows white I lie faceup in my shell Open my eyes Don't feel like falling into blank space Had allowed that life to drift For I've chosen a different trail When darkness fades Don't feel like falling into blank space Want to be your light Illuminate your smiles Want to be your cure Bridge between self and us Want to be your prayer Wipe the tears from your eyes When the night returns I won't collapse I'm set to rise

I've become resistant to myself To my weaknesses and pain I've become the one who wants to live And just feel alive again I've changed myself I've changed I've changed myself I've changed I've become addicted to being strong Started out my second life And the remnants of your tears and smiles Shift deleted from my mind Without knowing how it hurts I feel safe Without knowing how it hurts I feel safe Is this what I really wanted? Is this what I really wanted? (Without) (Without)

Lying here on the floor Starting to come around What you did Mr. Hyde What you got me into this time There's blood on my hands Emptiness in my mind I don't remember my name Don't recall who I am What's wrong with me now I'm shying from the light I start to realize Feel I'm falling down Every inch of my skin Feel the pain I saw The self - I was running away from - just back! Lost the light of day Lost my picture of you The nightmare I was afraid of Just becoming the truth Oh no What have I done Can't just put it all behind me Can't afford to lose my mind Oh no What have I done You don't know how much I need to Find a way to bring you back Find a way to bring you back You don't know how much I need to Find a way to bring you back Lying here on the floor Starting to come around What you did Mr. Hyde What you got me into this time Drugged from sleep In front of the mirror Shrugging off the darkest fear Keep asking myself the same question When did I turn to this side of me When did I turn to this side When did I turn to this side When did I turn to this side I need to find a way To bring you back again... To bring you back again... To bring you back again... Back again...

I told myself I don't need it Scrolling watching reading I told myself I don't need it To know what kind of world we live in I shut myself off from The whole broken world I told myself I don't need it That this is not any of my concern But the truth is that I cannot live without you And I should do something Cannot just stand and watch I told myself I don't need it And I can numb this feeling And I can hole up deep in the woods Far from everyone And then I realised I'd lived in self-denial And didn't even try To understand To recognise Just want to be close to you I want to feel you close to me I want to be close to you I'm sick and tired Of our fighting On a minefield Of the social distance warnings The future is in our hands But first Let's Unsubscribe the ones who make us hostile Unsubscribe the ones who make us hostile Unsubscribe the ones who make us hostile I want to feel you close to me Cause I still believe I will find the answer But I already know I need you for The feeling of Being complete for the first time But the truth is that I cannot live without you And I should do something Cannot just stand and watch I told myself I don't need it Scrolling watching reading I told myself I don't need it To know what kind of world we live in And then I realised I'd lived in self-denial And didn't even try To understand To recognise Just want to be close to you I want to feel you close to me I want to be close to you Being complete for the first time