Restart - Past Is Dust

See me at my desk Rested and well dressed Always there on time Funny how the clock That I used to watch Now never seems to mind Tried hard to collect interest and respect By cutting out some things I thought didn't matter Turned all of my whines into "doing fines" It saves me so much time I'm stuck in a square, becoming one too Three stories above I hear there's a view Long way to the ground But I'll probably stick around Now I've got a view Miles to the ocean But I can't see you and maintain devotion I wish I could say, "I'll be there" Slowly the stories start to unbind And tell me the years spent never were mine I'm always to owe a debt to my heart Unless I can find a way to restart and take control Slowly the edge gets closer to you You've got the most space with the greatest of views You've paid off the debt you owe to your heart You've paid off the debt, now go and restart

I don't know what's next, aye She ask me where my heart's been, it ain't nothin' left, aye Ring, ring, getting hard to press accept When she call my phone 'Cause there ain't nothin' left But I've been thinking 'bout you lately And I've been going crazy 'Bout wasting all my time I ain't tryna go and do this all again (all again) Actually, I've been tryna mind my business I ain't think I would've made it this far, but I did it, uh You was crying on me Now it's all diamonds on me (You was crying on me) (Now it's all diamonds on me) If we could go back, I'd do it over again I'm ridin' 'round with a TEC 'cause I don't know who friends (I don't know who friends) Snakes around me, it's so hard to trust again (hard to trust again) Everything we did, how I'm 'pose to love again? Rip up all them pictures, then we do it all again How we 'pose to be lovers? We was barely even friends But now this shit is over, watch me do it all again Again, again, again, uh I don't know what's next, aye She ask me where my heart's been, it ain't nothin' left, aye Ring, ring, getting hard to press accept When she call my phone 'Cause there ain't nothin' left But I've been thinking 'bout you lately And I've been going crazy 'Bout wasting all my time I ain't tryna go and do this all again (all again) Yeah, ain't no going back in time, I'm looking forward I just been thinkin' about what's important The memories can have your brain distorted Whoever thought that I'd be enormous? Whoever thought that I'd be a success story? Only one I spend more time with is this Glock-40 Only way you can understand us is to know the backstory But I can't tell them that story It's too close to my heart I write this letter sincerely to my dearly departed She don't want to start over, she don't want to do it again Even though that she traumatized, I bet that she'd do it again I sacrificed everything, just so you and me could exist We fight about the stupidest shit So I don't know where we go Just 'cause you plant a flower, it don't mean the flower gon' grow We did some freaky things your daddy and your momma don't know Put a bandage on my heart 'cause I ain't with that drama no more So I'm just lettin' you know I don't know what's next, aye She ask me where my heart's been, it ain't nothin' left, aye Ring, ring, getting hard to press accept When she call my phone 'Cause there ain't nothin' left But I've been thinking 'bout you lately And I've been going crazy 'Bout wasting all my time I ain't tryna go and do this all again (all again)

And you open the door and you step inside Where inside our hearts Now imagine your pain as a white ball of healing light That's right, your pain The pain itself is a white ball of healing light I don't think so This is your life, good to the last drop Doesn't get any better than this This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time This isn't a seminar, this isn't a weekend retreat Where you are now you can't even imagine what the bottom will be like Only after disaster can we be resurrected It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart This is your life, this is your life This is your life, this is your life Doesn't get any better than this This is your life, this is your life This is your life, this is your life And it and it's ending one-minute at a time You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else We are all part of the same compost heap We are the all singing, all dancing, crap of the world You are not your bank account You are not the clothes you wear You are not the contents of your wallet You are not your bowel cancer You are not your grande latte You are not the car you drive You are not your fucking khaki's You have to give up, you have to give up You have to realize that someday you will die Until you know that, you are useless I say let me never be complete I say may I never be content I say deliver me from Swedish furniture I say deliver me from clever arts I say deliver me from clear skin and perfect teeth I say you have to give up I say evolve, and let the chips fall where they may This is your life, this is your life This is your life, this is your life Doesn't get any better than this This is your life, this is your life This is your life, this is your life And it and it's ending one-minute at a time You have to give up, you have to give up I want you to hit me as hard as you can I want you to hit me as hard as you can Welcome to Fight Club If this is your first night, you have to fight

Hate you father For you have sinned Why did you love Let this life begin I'm not your savior I'm not your son A forgotten boy Abandoned creation With these final words, I pull the switch We turn to dust, dust to dust My name is like the kiss of death And when we embrace, we turn to dust With these final words, I pull the switch We turn to dust, dust to dust My name is like the kiss of death And we embrace, we turn to dust Turn to dust Ooh, oh Mother, father, you've answered me Your souless son, your thing that should not be A brilliant people, upons to doubt You gave me life, but took the soul away With these final words, I pull the switch We turn to dust, dust to dust My name is like the kiss of death And when we embrace we turn to dust With these final words, I pull the switch We turn to dust, dust to dust My name is like the kiss of death Ashes to ashes, dust to dust Dust to dust Now we belong dead We belong dead, we belong dead We belong Oh With these final words, I pull the switch We turn to dust, dust to dust My name is like the kiss of death And when we embrace, we turn to dust With these final words, I pull the switch We turn to dust, dust to dust My name is like the kiss of death And when we embrace, we turn to dust We turn to dust