I found my calling I feel it
I feel up lyrics with feelings
I found my calling I hear it
I let it ring for a minute
Afraid to answer
Too timid
Like who am I to be different
I let it ring for a minute
Them sixty seconds infinite
When you feel finished, diminished
My light was bright now it's dimming
Still I would fight not to end it
It's worth it all
The hardest part of me is learning my perfect flaws
The artist part of me is learning to love it all
I been battling some demons
Tryna keep myself in tact
And only put out good so I get back what I attract
I see the enemy in me, he point out what I lack
I know the life I want but what if it don't want me back
That's my doubt and fears
Pity party
Penny parties with a thousand tears
Really are we feeling sorry
Yo we'll make it outta here
Now it's clear see the path I'm headed on if I steer
May my ethics be my pedals and my prayers be my wheels
On the real I turn my words into art and let it spill
I gotta make it where I'm from
It's like nobody does
Cause dreams die faster than the body does
And this is me talking to me cause we don't speak enough
Love self if nothing else it's just a deeper love
Speaking of I care less about what people love
And if you listening you feel me turn your speakers up
Swear I don't care if this too long for a radio hit
Or you skip because it's boring and don't play it again
This really came from soul I really made it within
This really came from my heart this the makeup of Penn
I used to think the outfits prolly help me fit in
But I was cappin and I'll never wear that fitted again
I'm back to rappin I'm so glad I found this feeling again
And now I'm tapped in
Welcome yall to the spirit of Penn so here it is like that

In a house full of mirrors
I'm just tryna find myself
Myself
On the road to be winners I'm not tryna lose
Myself
Close my eyes all in hopes that I can see
Look inside, I have everything I need
All of the stress all of the burdens
All of the time that I spent hurtin
It was all worth it though
It always hurts to grow soul

Graduated college at that moment felt on top
I pass my last praxis right before I got to walk
My grandma got to see me, she said jbug you'll go far
I found myself that day, but by the next day I was lost
All alone with these loans thinkin how to pay em off
Cause Sallie Mae won't cut no breaks on what I owe she want it all
I feel the walls start closing
I never got the sleep I needed back in undergrad, but now my eyes wide open
And I question who I am
Did I pick the wrong major was it worth in the end
When we was laid up and I said I loved her was it genuine
Or was it only I was lonely and she phoned me
Cause she lonely and we happened to be friends
Humble experience life after college
Impact of kickback is slight alcoholic
Inside I'm tripping I'm dealing with all this
I tell myself mane go get it regardless of how I feel

On the real I turn my words into art I let it spill
I gotta make it where I'm from
It's like nobody does
Cause dreams die faster than the body does
And this is me talking to me cause we don't speak enough
Love self if nothing else it's just a deeper love
Speaking of I care less about what people love
And if you listening you feel me turn your speakers up
Swear I don't care if this too long for a radio hit
Or you skip because it's boring and don't play it again
This really came from soul I really made it within
This really came from my heart this the makeup of Penn
I used to think the outfits prolly help me fit in
But I was cappin and I'll never wear that fitted again
I'm back to rappin I'm so glad I found this feeling again
And now I'm tapped in
Welcome yall to the spirit of Penn so here it is like that

In a house full of mirrors
I'm just tryna find myself
Myself
On the road to be winners I'm not tryna lose
Myself
Close my eyes all in hopes that I can see
Look inside, I have everything I need
All of the stress all of the burdens
All of the time that I spent hurtin
It was all worth it though
It always hurts to grow soul

You ever wonder who you would be
If you wasn't doing what you doing
See that's where I'm at right now
Who is Malcolm with no Penn Davis
No album no apple playlist
No Al Covani just Alex
He never picked up a camera
I never picked up a pen and I never got decent at it
Mopp never showed me the ropes and YK never let me practice
If I never lost my father, if his death was never tragic
If I never went to foster care because he flipped a package
If I never forgave my mother for being young and passive
If I never just sat and watched as my father hit and slapped her
If I never just sat confused cause he sat and cried after
And if I never just sat and thought bout my life playing backwards
Who would I really be
That's how I know it's meant to be
See God sending me
All of these test they just make up my identity
And anytime I feel the pressure and it get to me
I tell myself who I deep down really be real

I turn my words into art and let em spill
I gotta make it where I'm from
It's like nobody does
Cause dreams die faster than the body does
And this is me talking to me cause I don't speak enough
Love self if nothing else it's just a deeper love
Speaking of I care less about what people love
And if you listening you feel me turn your speakers up
Swear I don't care if this too long for a radio hit
Or you skip because it's boring and don't play it again
This really came from soul I really made it within
This really came from my heart this the makeup of Penn
I used to think the outfits prolly help me fit in
But I was cappin and I'll never wear that fitted again
I'm back to rappin I'm so glad I found this feeling again
And now I'm tapped in
Welcome yall to the spirit of Penn so here it is like that

In a house full of mirrors
I'm just tryna find myself
Myself
On the road to be winners I'm not tryna lose
Myself
Close my eyes all in hopes that I can see
Look inside, I have everything I need
All of the stress all of the burdens
All of the time that I spent hurtin
It was all worth it though
It always hurts to grow soul