Reach For My Tears - Bob Evans

No more feelings in my brain No trouble, sorrows, no blazing pain The numbness it keeps my demons away A fortress solid to hold them at bay But something in the surge is boiling up The silence's been like poison here in my cup Tried to hold it down, make sure time moves slow But now the moment's creeping up, I think I know Cause ever since the last time you walked out that door I've been staring through our memories, my face down the floor I wonder if you'd stay if i kept my cards close I've not lost my fear I'm just waiting for my tears I've not lost my fear I'm just waiting for my tears No more sleeping with my thoughts in a race Contemplating if I need your embrace I've been walking with my head in the clouds these days I don't need no preacher to bend my way But as soon as the feeling grows you call my name From a restless dream you rise up like a flame Burning down the insides of my mind Only ashes in my soul is left to find Cause ever since the last time you walked out that door I've been staring through our memories, my face down the floor I wonder if you'd stay if i kept my cards close I've not lost my fear I'm just waiting for my tears I've not lost my fear I'm just waiting for my tears Cause ever since the last time you walked out that door I've been staring through our memories, my face down the floor I wonder if you'd stay if i kept my cards close I've not lost my fear I'm just waiting for my tears I've not lost my fear I'm just waiting for my tears

I am the demolition man, I am the smoking gun Why is my name in lights when my name is spelt wrong? Only needs an attitude, a longitude and latitude They will always find you when your cell phone is on The satellites in space that spy on us with charm and grace The middle man, the little man, the butcher and his dog Turned on my beady eye, no need to wonder why Go faster, young master You're breathing disaster 'Cause these human hands need a human touch 'Cause my demons don't get out that much (Hey!) The first world thinkers behind the blinkers The hand that always tinkers with the bullet and the vest Wait for the shake up, the make up and the break up The bursting of the vein that brings the blood to the chest Ain't got no appetite, full up on beans and rice A belly full of gasoline and a tongue that's turned black Don't leave me all alone, I threw your dog a bone Go faster, young master You're breathing disaster 'Cause these human hands need a human touch 'Cause my demons don't get out that much What a man to do, what a man to trust? We're not one of you, you're not one of us Grinding the bones, breathing the dust We're not one of you, you're not one of us What a man to do, what a man to trust? (Angels gonna burn their wings again) We're not one of you, you're not one of us Grinding the bones, breathing the dust (angels gonna burn their wings again) We're not one of you, you're not one of us Go faster, young master You're breathing disaster 'Cause these human hands need a human touch 'Cause my demons don't get out that much Go faster, young master You're breathing disaster 'Cause these human hands need a human touch 'Cause my demons don't get out that much 'Cause my demons don't get out that much

Once I had my heros, Once I had my dreams. But all of that has changed now, The truth begins again. The truth is not that comfortable, no. Mother taught us patience, The virtues of restraint. Father taught us boundries, Of knowledge we must goal. I'm trying to protect my unity. That's when I reach for my revolver. That's when it all gets blown away. That's when I reach for my revolver. The spirit passes by this way. A friend of mine once told me, His one and only aim. To build a giant castle, And in it sign his name. Sign it with complete community. That's when I reach for my revolver. That's when it all gets blown away. That's when I reach for my revolver. Her spirit passes by this way. Now that the sky is empty, And that is nothing new. Instead they look upon us when they tell me, That we're nothing. That's when I reach for my revolver. That's when it all gets blown away. That's when I reach for my revolver. A spirit passes by this way. That's when I reach for my revolver. That's when it all gets blown away. That's when I reach for my revolver. The spirit passes by this way.

Once I had my heroes Once I had my dreams But all of that is changed now They've turned things inside out The truth is not that comfortable, no And mother taught us patience The virtues of restraint And father taught us boundaries Beyond which we must go To find the secrets promised us, yeah That's when I reach for my revolver That's when it all gets blown away That's when I reach for my revolver The spirit fights to find its way A friend of mine once told me His one and only aim To build a giant castle And in it sign his name Cry and whispers sing in muted pain That's when I reach for my revolver That's when it all gets blown away That's when I reach for my revolver The spirit fights to find its way Tonight the sky is empty But that is nothing new Its dead eyes look upon us And they tell me we're nothing but slaves That's when I reach for my revolver (...but slaves) That's when I reach for my revolver That's when I reach for my revolver That's when I reach for my revolver That's when I reach for my revolver That's when I reach for my revolver

I think it's time to recognise these demons in my head They're killing me internally, I know they want me dead Let's take the time to analyse and get this off my chest By digging up the skeletons to finally confess Wait, am I losing it? There's an itch under my skin, is this pain another sin? Wait, am I losing it? Will this rope around my neck make it easy to forget? I got no more tears to cry Under the surface, there's No more strength to fight There's nothing inside of me So nothing seems to ease my mind, no matter what I try An endless vicious circle on a loop that won't rewind I'm outta luck, outta time, is this just all in vain? I've had enough, I'm giving up, I'm feeling so afraid Wait, am I losing it? With no hope, there's nothing left, and you're not afraid of death Wait, am I losing it? When you can't rely on faith, cut this cycle of self-hate I got no more tears to cry Under the surface, there's No more strength to fight There's nothing inside I got no more tears to cry Under the surface, there's No more strength to fight There's nothing inside Cut into pieces, pushed over the edge Feeling so worthless, God, when will this end? Every minute, a battle, an hour, a war Feeling so helpless, God, when will it end? Nobody's listening, does nobody care? I got no more tears to cry Under the surface, there's No more strength to fight There's nothing inside I got no more tears to cry Under the surface, there's No more strength to fight There's nothing inside There's nothing inside