Ptsd - dying in designer

Hungry for life And thirsty for the distant river I remember his hands Ayy, no one checked on me when I needed So I just stack my bread Stay in my bag and not in my feelings Overthink too much, I get distracted, start to deep it Ayy, me, I just deal with people exactly how they treat me On the block ain't nothin' but yutes Tryna be bad and hoes that act up I been obsessed with money, I knew I would get my stack up I ain't lackin' on my own, I got me, no back up They talkin' on me and none of it factual Meanwhile bro in the bando, hopin' fed don't raid his yard Ayy, she like, "Boy, you toxic, you ain't got no heart" You can get let down when you love too hard Hundred roses ain't gonna fix it, maybe a Chanel bag (I remember his hands) Ayy, no one checked on me when I needed So I just stack my bread Stay in my bag and not in my feelings Overthink too much, I get distracted, start to deep it Ayy, me, I just deal with people exactly how they treat me (I remember his hands) Don't blow up my phone, I'm busy, ayy Not right now, I'm busy I'm not outside, but after I make this play I go get litty Bad B still wanna link me, but guess what? Not today Try and block my shine, ayy, bro, get out the way You man beef, ain't got no income, that shit dead to me (Dead) I know that hoes still want a reaction, you lot be temptin' me (Temptin' me) I know that I hurt, I cut you off, now you wanna get to me (Get to me) Stop that separately, ask me how I am, don't mentally (I remember his hands) Ayy, no one checked on me when I needed So I just stack my bread Stay in my bag and not in my feelings Overthink too much, I get distracted, start to deep it Ayy, me, I just deal with people exactly how they treat me (I remember his hands) Ayy, no one checked on me when I needed So I just stack my bread Stay in my bag and not in my feelings Overthink too much, I get distracted, start to deep it Ayy, me, I just deal with people exactly how they treat me (ZEL, this shit crazy)

You gotta put it down (yup, yup, yup) You gotta put it down I just can't be with just anybody Captain Wish I could just pick up the phone (ooh, you know I can't do that) You know this blood is set in the stone (so no, I won't go back) Baby, save all that weak shit for your mama Baby, save all that weak shit for your boss at work Had one job, couldn't do it, you fumbled You was talkin' like you was gon' be something, ooh I gave it to you but you messed it up Wasn't good enough One thing I won't do is be with anyone 'Cause I'm not for everyone I can't let you give me PTSD (PTSD) I can't let you give me PTSD (PTSD) I can't let you give me PTSD (PTSD) I can't let you give me PTSD (PTSD) I can't let you give me- Save all that weak shit for your mama (oh, for your mama), I can't let you give me- Baby, save all that weak shit for your boss at work (boss at work, at work), I can't let you give me- Had one job, couldn't do it, you fumbled I can't let you give me PTSD I can't let you give me PTSD I can't let you give me- Post traumatic sex disorder, oh no (you gotta put it down) Post traumatic sex disorder (oh no, oh, oh) Post traumatic (you gotta put it down) Boop (yeah) You're all I think about, admit i You're not even here right now, I'm just thinkin' That booty, them thighs (what else?) Them lips (what else?) that head (ooh, especially the head) 'specially the head Good God almighty, good googly moogly (yeah) She gon' reign true for me (yeah) Girl, what you do to me? (Yeah) I lay the meat like charcuterie Flashback, bottle, late nights in the hatchback (yeah) Shawty from the '80s, tryna bring crack back She want me to kill that thing and I'ma smash that (yeah) She really tryna end up a hashtag Oh, no, no, no (no, no, no) I won't take it slow (slow) You gon' remember this, lay on the floor (floor) 'Cause I don't want your (your), neighbours to hear this shit This gon' be a win, win, win (win) Put it on this twinny, twin, twin (twin) You know what I do, give me round two Oh, I can't let you I can't let you give me PTSD (ooh, oh) I can't let you give me PTSD (woah, oh, oh, oh) I can't let you give me PTSD I can't let you give me PTSD (oh, no) I can't let you give me- Save all that weak shit for your mama (Save all that weak shit for your mama), I can't let you give me- Save all that weak shit for your boss at work (boss at work), I can't let you give me- Had one job, couldn't do it, you fumbled I can't let you give me PTSD I can't let you give me PTSD I can't let you give me- You so nasty, you so, you so classy (damn) You so nasty, you so, you so classy (damn) You so nasty, you so, you so classy (damn) You so nasty, you so, you so classy (damn) Yeah, you gotta have it, get it when I want it You got to have it, get it when I want it Yeah, you gotta have it, get it when I want it Yeah, you gotta have it, get it when I want it

My PTSD startin' to kick in so I gotta get high Uh, uh, ayy My PTSD startin' to kick in so I gotta get high Trey shot that nigga out my car, so now I gotta get low I ain't no city boy 'cause I love my bitch Nigga, but that don't mean that I don't love my hoes Niggas tried to smack me up so now I'm raising hell Don't try and dap me lil' nigga, you are not my bro Trey shot that nigga out my car, so now I gotta get low They know we bend blocks, welcome to the party Dot on the head of his only daughter Then I dunk her head in that holy water Niggas shootin', we gon' shoot back Sittin' at the table like Tha Carter V They know I'ma do you, aimin' for medulla Cooler than a cooler, shooter with a shooter AK on my shoulder like I'm Malcom X 'Cause I ain't goin' out like I'm Martin Luther Go open up the door, nigga, I know you home It's a hundred Crip niggas standing on your lawn Give up that cheese, give that Provolone And I ain't talkin' on the phone 'cause I ain't playin' with 'em I got a K for the cuz if he hit you If I call Nappy Blue, he come and get you Call Dread, that's the new Tom Brady 'Cause he be sendin' shots like it's missiles My PTSD startin' to kick in so I gotta get high Trey shot that nigga out my car, so now I gotta get low I ain't no city boy 'cause I love my bitch Nigga, but that don't mean that I don't love my hoes Niggas tried to smack me up so now I'm raising hell Don't try and dap me lil' nigga, you are not my bro Trey shot that nigga out my car, so now I gotta get low They know we bend blocks, welcome to the party Niggas always talkin' hot and runnin' they mouth Until I kick down they door and run in they house Have they mother on the floor with the gun in her mouth Like what's that shit up on the 'net your son was talkin' 'bout? I put that on my son that I'ma take it there 'Cause when you come from, where I come from, I ain't playin fair My lil' homie die and I ain't drop a tear I just rolled a spliff and put it in the air I'm big 092, niggas know I'm Woo I look a nigga in his face like "Who you talkin' to?" I need 25K or I ain't walkin' through I need 25K or I ain't walkin' through I spent 20 on my wrist and 20 on a chain I be spoiling myself so I can ease the pain Digital dash, I be switching lanes I was sitting on the bench, but now I'm in the game My PTSD startin' to kick in so I gotta get high Trey shot that nigga out my car, so now I gotta get low I ain't no city boy 'cause I love my bitch Nigga, but that don't mean that I don't love my hoes Niggas tried to smack me up so now I'm raising hell Don't try and dap me lil' nigga, you are not my bro Trey shot that nigga out my car, so now I gotta get low They know we bend blocks, welcome to the party

Had to go for a ride she drives me crazy Got a lot on my mind I just hit 80 She've been pissing me off a whole lot lately Think I'm ready to die, please lord take me Had to go for a ride she drives me crazy Got a lot on my mind I just hit 80 She've been pissing me off a whole lot lately Think I'm ready to die, please lord take me Take me away from her Take me far far away from her This was my worst fucking year I could drown in my own tears When I die who gon' come to my funeral Todays the day I should of done it sooner tho I been feeling way too low You told me that you loved me Then why did you go You bring the fucking worst out of me I ain't shit thanks for telling me You bring the fucking worst out of me I ain't shit baby I agree You drive me to drink You drive me insane I hate when we fight But I love all the pain You're my courtney love I'm you're kurt cobain Bought a Glock So I could blow my brains It's time to lay down I'm on my way down Tell my mommy That I'm sorry I'm sorry Had to go for a ride she drives me crazy Got a lot on my mind I just hit 80 She've been pissing me off a whole lot lately Think I'm ready to die, please lord take me Had to go for a ride she drives me crazy Got a lot on my mind I just hit 80 She've been pissing me off a whole lot lately Think I'm ready to die, please lord take me Take me away from her Take me far far away from her This was my worst fucking year I could drown in my own tears

I'm no good, I'm a fuck up You're like a gun to my head I might just Pull it, might pull it Fuck Russian roulette load the full clip I'm no good, I'm a fuck up You're like a gun to my head I might just Pull it, might pull it Fuck Russian roulette load the full clip Load the full clip, load the full clip Sick and tired, sick and tired of your bullshit We did a full split always on that bullshit I'm pissed off, you make me wanna throw shit Trash my room, I don't give a fuck Crash my car, I don't give a fuck Fuck your friends, I don't give a fuck Fuck it all, I don't give a fuck I'm no good, I'm a fuck up You're like a gun to my head I might just Pull it, might pull it Fuck Russian roulette load the full clip I'm no good, I'm a fuck up You're like a gun to my head I might just Pull it, might pull it Fuck Russian roulette load the full clip You're the pill I take to never wake You pull me in I can't escape Bullet to the brain cell You traded in a lover for a partner in hell Trash my room, I don't give a fuck Crash my car, I don't give a fuck Fuck your friends, I don'tgive a fuck Fuck it all, I don't give a fuck I'm no good, I'm a fuck up You're like a gun to my head I might just Pull it, might pull it Fuck Russian roulette load the full clip I'm no good, I'm a fuck up You're like a gun to my head I might just Pull it, might pull it Fuck Russian roulette load the full clip

Suck the life out of me Drag me down I feel better when you're not around Used to love you I despise you now I feel better when you're not around Devil's callin', baby, not today Sun is shining right on my face Used to love you I despise you now I feel better when you're not around Devil's workin' against me (against me) Got me feelin' so empty (so empty) I'm used to having you next to me I'm used to having you next to me She said, "Baby, we could just be friends You're gonna break me the more I bend" I knew it was all pretend I knew it was all pretend When I was down, you would lift me up When I got too drunk, you would pick me up Now when I call, you don't pick it up I guess you got sick of us You were like a dark cloud over me Eye to eye, we could never see Suck the life out of me Drag me down I feel better when you're not around Used to love you I despise you now I feel better when you're not around Devil's callin', baby, not today Sun is shining right on my face Used to love you I despise you now I feel better when you're not around

In and out of sleep, you've been missing Lying in this bed, it feels different Hearts were so damn close we got distant Wasn't worth fixing living in fiction You make nightmares worth my while Can't you tell by this broken smile? How could I be so in denial? But you make nightmares worth my while Sleeping through the weekend And I'm dreaming about you over and over again Life was perfect and then We fell apart, it's the end You said we're better off friends I guess we're better off Sleeping through the weekend And I'm dreaming about you over and over again I don't wanna wake up without you What's the point of life if there's nothing to prove? I don't wanna miss out what I can lose I don't wanna wake up Wanna wake up without you Without you here beside me Having these dreams, these dreams I'm dying Dying alone, without you You're not, you're not here You make nightmares worth my while Can't you tell by this broken smile? How could I be so in denial? But you make nightmares worth my while Sleeping through the weekend And I'm dreaming about you over and over again Life was perfect and then We fell apart, it's the end You said we're better off friends I guess we're better off I don't wanna wake up without you What's the point of life if there's nothing to prove? I don't wanna miss out what I can lose I don't wanna wake up Wanna wake up without you (You make nightmares worth my while) (You make nightmares worth my while)