Panic Attack - Scotty Sire

Why'd I have a panic attack? I don't know where reality at She say I'm goin' nowhere Tryna talk to the devil Tell him meet me at the crossroad? In the days from the hazes And this stupid shit back to back Yeah Take a shot Take a drag everyday's like Russian roulette (Why'd I have a panic attack) Gotta move gotta work Tell my shawty that she gotta relax (Why'd I have a panic attack?) I'ma spend all this bread but she know That I'm makin' it back (Makin' it back) And I can't seem to catch my breath I know that tunnel visions next My heart is beating out my chest Panic attack And I can't seem to catch my brеath I know that tunnel visions next My heart is bеating out my chest Panic attack Have 'em every night can't sleep right Lives on go with the green light I be getting money in the meantime Heard the world's on fire through the grapevine Have 'em every night can't sleep right Lives on go with the green light I be getting money in the meantime Heard the world's on fire through the grapevine You and I are not the same I guess God's the one to blame What will make it go away? Mary Jane I drift away Chemicals runs in my brain Lost in the void, I don't feel safe Every single risk I take brings me closer to the grave Why'd I have a panic attack? I don't know where reality at She say I'm goin nowhere Tryna talk to the devil Tell him meet me at the crossroads Have 'em every night can't sleep right Lives on go with the green light I be getting money in the meantime Heard the worlds on fire through the grapevine In the days from the haze And this stupid shit back to back Yeah Take a shot Take a drag everyday's like Russian roulette (Why'd I have a panic attack?) Gotta move gotta work Tell my shawty that she gotta relax (Why'd I have a panic attack?) I'ma spend all this bread but she know That I'm makin' it back

169 Look, I bet them boys think I'm panicking Itching to see how I handle it When snakes start rattling, calm I can show you about harm Put blades in the palms, half the length of my arm I end up in a station and I'm staring into space like a mannequin in Clarks I ain't panicking, I ain't had a random change of heart Cash points and cannabis You cocaine snort, if you think I got caught I'm kicking like a stallion I lived in a yard where my mummy tried hard For all the things that I wanted but my money was inadequate Probably be killed by my cousins back in Africa If they knew I risked my free water, hot food and resources Every day to dress nicer on a camera I don't need your input, fuck you and your manager Fuck him and his lame job It's been two years, you're sitting in the same spot Chilling in the same blocks Me and you are different You talk about beef While I plan your route home bruv I run up in your safe spot and leave the place taped off It's deeper than the name drop Real problems don't need discussions I fear God and not repercussions Look, I'm only angry at the choices that I didn't make I don't regret what I did but what I didn't say And for this money I'm on a different wave It's why I ain't written in this will when I say I'm on his estate It comes arms well I've got an entourage like Vinny Chase This ain't Chiraq, we don't need a .38 Just two young g's, one Nike pouch and his little blade And if you live that day, give thanks to your God 'Cause there isn't one prayer mummy didn't say Still wonder what my dad would say And it's fucked 'cause I just wanted us to bond Like Sean Connery and Daniel Craig No first steps, nah, my daddy couldn't see me cry I'm still searching for the reason why I was 6 months old at a bus stop My mum, no home struggling to ketamine like a legal high When so volatile, look over the reasons why People die, man this beef never sleeps or slides Man are dying over minor violations So I keep the beef and the bread separate like TGI's They touch us and we pay 'em back like it's PPI Fuck it, let's ride, get animated like CGI Dead being a hype man Can't find my man and then I'll settle for his right hand You can't buy heart remember Hawk eye, you think these undercover cars could get us Or that I can't spot the bacon in the passing Vectras Don't you find it funny that I study law And still recruit young fraud stars like I'm Harvey Specter Hot headed, I swear that I had a dream though A young fire before I had spoken with Avelino And nowadays music's got my schedule looking hectic I ain't got a timeline, I'm Travolta with Tarantino Look, I ain't slacking, it's money over passion I mean passion over money, hate this money with a passion Money is just a paper I got value of my assets, I got value of my mental It's me, Fraser or 169 on an instrumental I swear that'll make it rapping Even if that kills me I swear that'll make it happen On my digital piano until my hands bled literally I was smashing keys 'til my fingers grew callus How could I fear rappers? I feel words, hear colours, defeat challenge Give thanks to my synaesthesia I ain't a rapper I'm a fucking genius So when I see you don't panic Remember what you said on the roads, there's no lacking I don't wanna see you draw for your boot, there's no time I'll jump out the passenger side like there's no traffic Catch you with your girl or your mum, you'd do the same So we'll take you to an inch of your life for all your chatting Shut your fucking mouth and make p's I used to let disrespect slide to make peace Now it's like I'm stuck in two minds in my reaction 'Cause my pride and my ego turned giant like James Dean I'm a mess right, and if that catty doesn't fuck me the third time With no strings attached like a test drive I'm telling her I'm cutting in the next five All communication breaking down like an enzyme My second's the most precious commodity I invest time I was late every day straight for three years Guess that's two ways that I could never make a deadline I was out in Powerleague Norbury in my north face camo In the rain, hail, sleet, with my football in a deadline Scraping by on pennies, trying to link a jezzy On my 8520 and I couldn't link one Squares was a game Had me all stressed Got finessed by my main And he didn't get touched Had me sitting there pissed Thinking 'bout my people All the times that we missed Like have you ever lost love? Have you ever had a guy that would die so you live in a cage Kept away from your brother and your mum In my world you're unsure to the people you can trust And when you lose the only person that was there from the jump I'm as humble as they come And I ain't changed from the knife and the cypher To the shotgun shells in the party with a pump Ask Edem, ask Paddy With squares I had strikers but I'm more like Ibra Over Vardy when it's beef Because I hardly ever run I've got pride I've seen man running for their life Get caught, now they're covering their heart and their lungs With their arms on his ones 'cause his right hand panicked And I don't even blame him Seen a man scream while he bleeds on the pavement Guts in his hands, civilians with tissue putting pressure where the pain is The panic as you fade in, blocking out sounds Like your body shuts down when your organs start failing Knife crime dangerous, next day famous Give it six years they won't remember what your name is Everything changes when your case isn't relevant And all the guys who claim they would ride in your name Looking lost, them boys don't have half the heart to settle it I've seen a whole class end up dead or in jail Ask Scales about times he was chilling with my brother In a chicken shop opposite the entrance to Tennyson's Everybody's dying, but nobody is rising up a Remington We've got shanks, and false hope everybody's selling it You ain't getting rich quick trying to sell big bits Too lazy to work so you want to own a business Or a clothing line, no vision You can't cut corners in a line of life Karma's like the tightest vice, I'm running on my own CCTV's in your hands bro, they've got it in your phone If they catch me going home Looking for another young rapper to expose I'm probably cutting from the scene 'Cause with the evidence they gain I'm getting more than just assault I ain't living for the 'Gram, man are snitching on the cam If I hit him then I'm dumb, but if he dips me he's the man I can't win, there's no way I'm handling that If I run then I'm a neek, but if I don't then I'm a fool So on road I'm looking happy But I'm screaming in my head having panic attacks They got me anxious I'm two wrong responses from a shanking at any given time I been there and done that on many different nights It's probably the reason, I got many different rhymes I'm really livin' life

On the inside, I'm sick about it Choking on nothing but air I don't know if I will make it out of this Living is too much to bear And why is it so hard to breathe? And why can't I feel anything? Trying my best but it's feeling The world is crashing on me Don't know what to do I don't wanna think about it Losing myself in it all To tell you the truth There's no hope when I'm in it I'm drowning alone in my arms And it's too loud for me to fight it So I give in to me giving up And I'm not proud when I try to hide it But the colder the more I feel numb And why is it so hard to breathe And why can't I feel anything Trying my best but it's feeling The world is crashing on me Don't know what to do I don't wanna think about it Losing myself in it all To tell you the truth There's no hope when I'm in it I'm drowning alone in my arms Don't know what to do I don't wanna think about it I'm losing myself in it all To tell you the truth There's no hope when I'm in it I'm drowning alone in my arms Don't know what to do (do) (Think about it) I'm losing myself in it all To tell you the truth (truth) (In it) I'm drowning alone in my arms

Thought I could fake this thing alright Thought it could somehow get me by Watching the doctors as they slide Needles into my eye Thought I could finally get around Laughable symptoms keep me down Faces I see, all keep me blind And now they're redemption's mine Now that I can't exchange actions for words Now that I found these inside fears the worst Now that I know, there's no place left to hide Can I become all I thought I might? As the leaders who follow the path of whoever was standing round them Call to say what I'm missing and into a detail, they always go Don't believe them but offer condolences under the circumstances All too often, I'm missing the spirit to fit in, so call me out Call me out Thought I could soundly sleep tonight Positive clear and breathing right Panic attacks, panic attacks me now Seems like a fair redemption Now that I can't exchange actions for words Now that I found these inside fears the worst Now that I know, there's no place left to hide Can I become all I thought, I might? As the leaders who follow the path of whoever was standing round them Call to say what I'm missing and into a detail, they always go Don't believe them but offer condolences under the circumstances All too often, I'm missing the spirit to fit in, so call me out Call me out Now that I can't exchange actions for words Now that I found these inside fears the worst Now that I know, there's no place left to hide Can I become all I thought, I might? As the leaders who follow the path of whoever was standing round them Call to say what I'm missing and into a detail they always go Don't believe them but offer condolences under the circumstances All too often, I'm missing the spirit to fit in, so call me out Call me out again Thought I could fake this thing alright Thought it could somehow get me by Watching the doctors as they try Slipping a needle in my eye My eye A needle in my eye My eye A needle in my eye

Alright there's something truly magnificent about being sad And that is that everyone can be sad Some people are sad sometimes Other people are sad all the time And this is just a song about being sad Whoopdie-doo, let's get to it, haha I've got a problem, I'm always so sad The littlest things get me pissed off or mad My life's pretty good, no, I don't have it bad So it's hard to explain all these feelings I have I'm just a baby, I think that explains it I burnt up my toast got so sad that I fainted I played a great song on repeat, now I hate it And nobody likes this picture I painted My only messages come from my mommy I spend my life feeling like nobody wants me You're kinda cute, but your friend is a hottie His shiny white teeth and his muscular body I wear a cool outfit and try to look edgy My underwear rides up and gives me a wedgie My pants are too tight, now I wish they were stretchy Why do these small things always upset me? Little things make me wanna cry sometimes But that's just life It'll be alright If you're really sad Everything just turns out wrong If you're really sad Let me hear you sing this song If you're really sad Everything just turns out wrong If you're really sad Let me hear you sing along What's a party? I've never been Well, I went to one once, but I couldn't get in I bought a lottery ticket, but I didn't win So I bought two more and I lost again My phone's plugged in but it isn't charging I wake up in the morning looking like a Martian I'm crying on the daily, you could call me Carson Could you please the door if you're gonna barge in? My shoes are too small and can't fit my foot in Went back to the mall and I stepped in some pudding I tried to return them, they said that I couldn't Here are some things that upset me that shouldn't My coffee's too bitter, got stains on my shirt I popped my balloon, and my dog is a jerk I stepped in some gum then stepped in some poop I feel like a hamster, I'm stuck in a loop Little things make me wanna cry sometimes But that's just life It'll be alright If you're really sad Everything just turns out wrong If you're really sad Let me hear you sing this song If you're really sad Everything just turns out wrong If you're really sad Let me hear you sing along If you're really sad Everything just turns out wrong If you're really sad Let me hear you sing this song If you're really sad Everything just turns out wrong If you're really sad Let me hear you sing along

I've been feeling so down on myself I've been losing my mind and my health Think that it's time that I try and see life a new way I needed advice so I called up my dad He answered the phone with a joke and a laugh He said to me, "Son, it's your attitude you need a change" I'm a ray of sunshine I fuckin' love life, yeah, that's me Never home being lonely, got plenty of homies calling me up Well, I was crying on the bedroom floor They told me, "Don't be sad anymore" And I said, "Holy shit, that's it, I'm cured" No good moods ever last too long Snap my fingers and it's all gone You can almost see in the wind it's drifting away Sunday night all alone with my thoughts Thinking of someone I've loved and I've lost It's hard but it's right and I knew it was time for a change I'm a ray of sunshine I fuckin' love life, yeah, that's me Never home being lonely, got plenty of homies calling me up Well, I was crying on the bedroom floor They told me, "Don't be sad anymore" And I said, "Holy shit, that's it, I'm cured" Tryin' to fight all the feelings I'm havin' Why not just cave in and let all the feelings I'm feelin' just happen? It's so hard to function when you let a bad thing get you down Don't let a bad thing I let myself cry for a little, then I let the happiness come back around Can I be happy 'bout one thing but sad overall? Choosin' the way that I feel isn't always my call Yeah, this isn't a switch you can turn off and on at your will This is a lever that you've gotta crank Until you feel the way that you wanna feel (wanna feel) Like a ray of sunshine Someone who fuckin' loves life They say I should just decide To look on the bright side I'm a ray of sunshine I fuckin' love life, yeah, that's me ('cause I never) Never home being lonely, got plenty of homies calling me up Well, I was crying on the bedroom floor They told me, "Don't be sad anymore" And I said, "Holy shit, that's it, I'm cured"

Let me speak, let me spit out my bitterness-- Born of grief and nights without sleep and festering flesh Do you have eyes? Can you see like mankind sees? Why have you soured and curdled me? Oh you tireless watcher! What have I done to you? That you make everything I dread and everything I fear come true? Once I was blessed; I was awaited like the rain Like eyes for the blind, like feet for the lame Kings heard my words, and they sought out my company But now the janitors of Shadowland flick their brooms at me Oh you tireless watcher! What have I done to you? That you make everything I dread and everything I fear come true? (Antagonists: Man is the sire of sorrow) I've lost all taste for life I'm all complaints Tell me why do you starve the faithful? Why do you crucify the saints? And you let the wicked prosper You let their children frisk like deer And my loves are dead or dying, or they don't come near (Antagonists: We don't despise your chastening God is correcting you) Oh and look who comes to counsel my deep distress Oh, these pompous physicians What carelessness! (Antagonists: Oh all this ranting all this wind Filling our ears with trash) Breathtaking ignorance adding insult to injury! They come blaming and shaming (Antagonists: Evil doer) And shattering me (Antagonists: This vain man wishes to seem wise A man born of asses) Oh you tireless watcher! What have I done to you? That you make everything I dread and everything I fear come true? (Antagonists: We don't despise your chastening) Already on a bed of sighs and screams, And still you torture me with visions You give me terrifying dreams! Better I was carried from the womb straight to the grave. I see the diggers waiting, they're leaning on their spades. (Antagonists: Man is the sire of sorrow Sure as the sparks ascend) Where is hope while you're wondering what went wrong? Why give me light and then this dark without a dawn? (Antagonists: Evil is sweet in your mouth Hiding under your tongue) Show your face! (Antagonists: What a long fall from grace) Help me understand! What is the reason for your heavy hand? (Antagonists: You're stumbling in shadows You have no name now) Was it the sins of my youth? What have I done to you? That you make everything I dread and everything I fear come true? (Antagonists: Oh your guilt must weigh so greatly) Everything I dread and everything I fear come true (Antagonists: Man is the sire of sorrow) Oh you make everything I dread and everything I fear come true