Not My Only - Benjamin Russell

Looking all around the room I see the clutter in the gloom I'm not only back, I'm not only numb Changing shades within the evening In a day then I'll be leaving I'm not only back, I'm not only numb When the air at home is thin Getting out then looking in Yeah she knows, she knows, she knows It ain't awful hard to tell What it's like, my little hell Yeah she knows, she knows, she knows I'm now familiar with the tone I hear in bed when I'm alone I'm not only back, I'm not only numb In the shade below the eaves Think I could chain smoke anything I'm not only back, I'm not only numb When the air at home is thin Getting out, then looking in Yeah she knows, she knows, she knows It ain't awful hard to tell What it's like, my little hell Yeah she knows, she knows, she knows She knows, she knows, she knows She sees all the cars around the parking lots Of bars we've played and stayed Started laughing, looking down Upon the bed that we've made We've made, we've made, we've made The air at home is thin When getting out, then looking in I'm not only back, I'm not only numb Changing shades within the evening In a day, then I'll be leaving I'm not only back, I'm not only numb I'm not only back, I'm not only numb I'm not only back, I'm not only numb

I was screwed up I was angry at the world I felt like I was a loser I had a chip on my shoulder then In a low place Wishing I was anywhere else but there On a California highway I was broke, but I always had time to spare You know, hard times always come easy But they never last long If you feel alone when you're down, just know You're not the only one You know, hard times always come easy But they never last long If you feel alone when you're down, just know You're not the only one You're not the only one You're not the only one Uh, I used to wanna run away, back when I was young Couldn't wait to go a couple times around the sun Now I wish that I can take it back When the only thing we cared about was nothing And I'm not the only one Yeah, I got demons But so does everybody else When it's cold, we turn the heat up Just to feel what it's like in hell Tired of everybody preaching That ain't doing shit for themselves Talking to me like I need it Maybe 'cause I said that I needed help You know, hard times always come easy But they never last long If you feel alone when you're down, just know You're not the only one You know, hard times always come easy But they never last long If you feel alone when you're down, just know You're not the only one You're not the only one You're not the only one Uh, I used to wanna run away, back when I was young Couldn't wait to go a couple times around the sun Now I wish that I can take it back When the only thing we cared about was nothing And I'm not the only one Not the only one Not the only one Not the only one Oh, you're not the You're not the only one You're not the only one, you're not the You're not the only one (You're not the) You're not the only one (You're not the) You're not the only one

Don't make me, shake me Break me down again to explain myself I hurt you again, yeah, I'm listening And you're crying, the reason why won't help You think my heart's buried Breathing barely under some dirt I'm losing sleep, it's killing me You're not the only one that hurts You said if I just would've tried, just give us time And I'd never leave So love was black and white, we were doing fine, and all was right Is that what you believe You wish you'd never kissed me Never miss me, doesn't get worse Life's breaking down, all around but You're not the only one that hurts I didn't go out of my way It wasn't by design To crush your world or mine Holding on for way too long The fight in me is gone It don't work, no, it just don't work, no And you're not the only one that hurts This battered soul, this letting go Can't let it show, would barely recognize myself So I'll lose my mind, maybe in time I'll realize It couldn't have been helped, no Oh, what we lost and what it cost We watched it all burn Nothin I could do to pull us through You're not the only one that hurts I didn't go out of my way It wasn't by design To crush your world or mine Holding on for way too long The fight in me is gone It don't work, no, it just don't work, no And you're not the only one No, you're not the only one that hurts

Let me out Say you love me, yeah Say you love me, yeah I know that I'm not the only one Struggles I done overcome I killed that nigga for my dog and now he owe me one Labor a brick layer slangin' weight Fell in love, made a new mistake Baby momma arguin', askin' where was I Instead of asking "how we do today?" Breakin' through the safety pin with solid ye I most likely blew through 28 Women shady, how come I ain't choose to hate? Loyal to 'em how come I ain't see the plate? Couldn't see no wrong in people tryna help 'em Wanna see my youngin's really eatin' Gold tinted blocks glisten for no reason One bedroom apartment watchin' killer season Had my share, funny tell you a lil secret People that you love and they not sharin' nothin' See you pockets ugly, won't reach out for nothin' I can't wait to catch you bitches out in public Flyin out the mouth, fuck your bitch in front you Okay too aggressive, other women love it I don't kiss and tell, lot of artists wonder Caught the broad, punch her longer in the stomach Went from rugged, took some losses, money doubled Toilet bowl, think it's shittin' on 'em, fuck it Playin' chance and the bishop on the muscle You would never love me like my daughter love me I can't be the one you love And I can't be the one you love Struggles I overcome Killed that nigga for my dog and now he owe me one Say you love me, yeah Say you love me, yeah Say you love me, yeah I know that I'm not the only one Say you love me, yeah Say you love me, yeah Say you love me, yeah I know that I'm not the only one Actors got stripes they ain't never earned Not a freak for fame, rather wait my turn Say he tell it, tell it put him in the dirt Fuck his family members, they can wear his shirt Every rapper talkin' cookin' dope Flippity flip, break-break your wrist I desire I would be alone, no attention if it's ignorance To say it frankly, I don't give a shit Breathin' hard, come on say what's in your thoughts Somethin' on your mind, I could take it off Money mean nothin', I want my respect Different focus on tatted on my flesh Hoes in my clothes, underarms smellin' Million man march this ain't Malcolm X Where I'm fair receivin' government assistance Get up out the bed, spend up on a check How you don't know that, you ain't never gagged What you mean by ye, talkin' sellin' crack I'm a fluid (?) Montana Thinking going back and peddle where (?) Renegade hoes settin' up the hoes Junkies usin' H, it's a better feel I can't be the one you love And I can't be the one you love Struggles I overcome Killed that nigga for my dog and now he owe me one Say you love me, yeah Say you love me, yeah Say you love me, yeah I know that I'm not the only one Say you love me, yeah Say you love me, yeah Say you love me, yeah I know that I'm not the only one Ain't been havin' no dreams Don't be gettin' no sleep How can someone call me those things They don't even know me I lost everything I love and we could go Loyalty which probably mean the most Heart played on every time I gave Makin' me afraid of being close Big dog, mouth full of gold Big loud, ounce getting rolled We died out 20 shows Radio stop playin' songs I ain't really feel like I was wrong Southside finest get it on Right back grindin', teeth grittin' Ship sinkin', cry about it? No Catch 'em with the lyrics on a whim The one who spoke the laws I am him Started out, we wanted us some ends Late night discussion of a Benz Late night we fussin' bout the rent Eviction notice posted, I ain't notice Focused tryna get another flip Wasn't makin' half of what I spent (?) passenger, we lit I just got one more but that's a lick Conversation with the boss man, look We was talkin' signin' him again Women wanna clown in front they friends Like you was not respectin' what it is Listen when I tell you what it is To be around you signin' a consent You know I just got married to your friend I done threw a ring around the dick Diamonds dancin' every time I spit Had to throw some bling up on a bitch Self made stand up guy God first, hands to the sky All I do is ride nigga, yeah I don't even argue about the break The money that you owe me, you can have I can't even see me gettin' mad I can't even see me goin' backwards Know you wanna see me on my ass Cuttin' up with Dreka fine ass Swagger matchin', where'd you find that? I just rode a (?) with mad ass Please me let me enjoy the ride back Please me let me enjoy the ride back Could you please me let me enjoy the ride back? I just rode a (?) with mad ass Cuttin' up with Dreka fine ass Swagger matchin', where'd you find that? See I live my life like you know I'm Gonna enjoy this bitch cause you never know When this gon' be over. I can't be the one you love

Oh yeah, wooh Oh yeah If lovin' was money, how much you think we'd make? If kisses were cash, we'd never stop making it rain, no The way that I picture it our pockets thicker than Bill Gates If lovin' was money, we'd make it all the way to the bank Rakin' it in by the billions Cash stacked up to the ceiling Livin' on champagne and chocolate, somewhere exotic Kissin' on a beach, alone, 'cause we bought it Talking gazillions Drop a fortune, 500 jillion, yeah Girl if loving was dollars, you know we'd be ballers Rakin' it in by the billions, wooh Oh yeah If lovin' was money, then we'd never clock out of work, nah Girl, we'd stay extra hours, after all the lights have been turned off Oh, if all my attention was benjamins, you'd have 'em all to burn If lovin' was money, there's no telling what we'd be worth Rakin' it in by the billions Cash stacked up to the ceiling Livin' on champagne and chocolate, somewhere exotic Kissin' on a beach, alone, 'cause we bought it Talking gazillions Drop a fortune, 500 jillion, yeah Girl if loving was dollars, you know we'd be ballers Rakin' it in by the billions Wooh Oh oh oh Hey, wooh Ah Make a little love, make a little money Make a little love, make a little money Make a whole lotta love, and a whole lotta money, oh oh Rakin' it in by the billions Cash stacked up to the ceiling Livin' on champagne and chocolate, somewhere exotic Chillin' on a beach, alone, you know we bought it Talking gazillions Drop a fortune, 500 jillion, yeah Girl if loving was dollars, you know we'd be ballers Rakin' it in by the billions Oh yeah Just rakin' it in by the billions Oh yeah, girl If besos were pesos, no telling how much we'd make girl You know we rakin' it in, rakin' it in, rakin' it in, yeah Rakin' it in by the billions Haha