I wish you were the monster under my bed And not the one I want in it I wish you were the bad guy inside of my head Though it's hard to admit it Want you to be everything that's wrong with me Not the one who could fix this I wish you were everything I hate in the world Not the best person in it Don't wanna love, 'cause then I'll misbehave Don't wanna think of you and feel safe Don't wanna drown if there's another way So at the end of the day I hope you're in my nightmares 'Cause to dream of you is unfair I hope one day I don't care 'Cause to dream of you is unfair I want to wake in a cold sweat Want to feel chills on the back of my neck Want to feel like I need space Want to feel all of my love is misplaced Don't wanna dream 'Cause everything's not as it seems And I'm so tired of waking Don't want to feel this ashamed, and Just want to know that there's someone to blame Don't wanna love, 'cause then I'll misbehave Don't wanna think of you and feel saved Don't wanna drown if there's another way So at the end of the day I hope you're in my nightmares 'Cause to dream of you is unfair I hope one day I don't care 'Cause to dream of you is unfair