NF - My Life

Yeah, look I mean this with love when I say it I wanna answer the phone when you call me The problem is, it's 10:00 a.m. and you're already drinkin' You're probably already wasted What's the point in having conversation with somebody that Won't remember we had conversation, yeah We always talk about the same things, we just say 'em different Try to fix it, crazy, isn't? You say, "Mom was always proud" and played the videos of us as kids I get it I think that both of us live in the past So we take for granted the present Maybe next time I'm in Michigan, I'll come and visit We ain't got a lot in common but both of us miss her We could sit inside your smoke-filled livin' room And tear up together, that's real I might do some things you don't like We all make mistakes, that's just life They might say I changed, that's alright That's alright, that's alright That's just my life, my life, my life, my life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life My life, my life You know my patience is very thin Wish I was there again I'm not embarrassed to say that we've always had issues I'm embarrassed to say that we never took care of 'em, yeah Pain will always find its way to the surface No matter how deep you bury him Growin' up, I felt like no one ever really got me, eventually I took that out on relationship (woo) I put my arm around you, and I mean it, I love you to death These are the moments I know I'ma always hold onto and cherish 'em, yeah Life's about taking chances, making moves Not about what you did, it's what you do Build on what you got and learn from what you lose And never let people distract you from being you I might do some things you don't like We all make mistakes, that's just life They might say I changed, that's alright That's alright, that's alright That's just my life, my life, my life, my life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life My life, my life That's just my, that's just my, that's just my That's just my, that's just my, that's just my That's just my, that's just my, that's just my (Oh no, no, no) yeah That's just my, that's just my, that's just my That's just my, that's just my, that's just my That's just my, that's just my, that's just my Life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life That's just my life, my life, my life, my life My life, my life

Yeah (oh) Some days, I just wanna leave the negativity in my head I just want relief from my stress I just want relief from my stress (oh) Some days, I don't wanna see or Have a bunch of people to impress I just want relief from my stress Yeah, I just want relief from my stress (oh) Late nights (late nights), starin' out the window doin' 85 Got my state of mind Yeah, walkin' on that gray line Hopin' that my stress dies It's like I hate it but I love it at the same time (oh) (same time) Pressure pushin' me from all sides Insecurities of all kinds (all kinds) Yeah, I'm a hostage to my own pride Most important things in life to me are things I know I can't buy (oh) Ayy, yeah, it's me in phases I'm not in the mood, yeah, to meet another stranger I'm not in the mood, yeah, to have a conversation And talk about a bunch of things that I don't feel amazed with Gettin' too close to me (oh), woo, could be dangerous I don't like the energy, I leave the situation All this negativity that I can't get away from All this negativity, I think I need a break from I'm thankful, but- (oh) Some days, I just wanna leave the negativity in my head I just want relief from my stress I just want relief from my stress (oh) Some days, I don't wanna see or Have a bunch of people to impress I just want relief from my stress Yeah, I just want relief from my stress (oh) Yo, this life got my head spinnin' Wonder what I'd do if I knew these were my last minutes Wonder if I had a week to live, would I stay trippin'? Wastin' every day that I had left tryna sell tickets Or maybe call my dad (oh), say I love him and laugh with him Take a couple days and get away from this fast livin' I don't love my work the way I did Man, this whole business has got me feelin' jaded Friends I had, now they act different, it's all switchin', whoa (ayy) (oh) Yeah, it's pretty hard to watch Those things you used to love turn to things that you wish you forgot Real moments that make you question the things that you want Got me growin' mentally, but stressin' me out 'til I drop Over the top (oh), that's where I live on a daily basis I always find a way to find the bad in good situations It's sad, huh? Yeah, I live my life on the edge, don't want the meds I'm just tryna get relief from my stress, you know? (Oh) Some days, I just wanna leave the negativity in my head I just want relief from my stress I just want relief from my stress (oh) Some days, I don't wanna see or Have a bunch of people to impress I just want relief from my stress Yeah, I just want relief from my stress (oh) These stress levels are not healthy I'm waitin' for that call sayin' records are not selling I wonder when this all disappears and they forget me Will I feel like I found who I was or be more empty? I wonder was I wrong thinkin' this is where God led me Or did I get involved with somethin' that was too heavy? I drive until I'm lost and just sit in my car yelling My inner critic talks, I'm just hopin' that God helps me to stop stressin' Yeah (Oh) Some days (some days) I just wanna leave the negativity in my head (I just wanna leave it) I just want relief from my stress (yeah, I just wanna leave it) I just want relief from my stress (oh) Some days (some days), I don't wanna see or Have a bunch of people to impress (yeah) I just want relief from my stress Yeah, I just want relief from my stress (oh) Yeah Yeah, some days Yeah, some days I just wanna leave, yeah I just wanna leave, yeah

(Happy to be-) (Happy to be here) Ayy Yeah On, even on my off days Right, even when I'm off base Life, live it like tomorrow ain't Promised to me, gotta get it today Why wait? Too late, never heard it Always on time My way or the highway Mind state, not safe, need grace Need love, need God, need faith Betray, cut ties, first time, first take Worst case, wordplay, my home My stage, my place, less you, more Ye More Drake, more Em', more Dre More Cole, more Kendrick, more names Cordae, Sean Black, my list My names, my picks, my taste My faith in my own hands Hand it over to you? No chance Wanna get the job done, right? I do it myself, oh yeah I am what they wanna be Who they wanna see? The big man God's plan, got a problem with the boy? Take it up with Him, then, ah Iconic, who want it? Heard that you was looking for the smoke, huh? Catch me on a bad day and you might find it (right?) Fine dining, flying private Couple things that I can easily afford to do Couple things that you don't know a thing about You might've read about it, heard about it, thought about it Dreamt about it, played it out inside your head But what I'm doing for a living, isn't somethin' I was taught You either got it or you don't got it, and you don't got it I'm the co-signer, you the broke artist I'm the captain and you in coach, flying I'm the lead role, you in the background Yeah, I'm the star player, you the mascot Yeah, I'm the future, you the past, old timer I'm the truth and you the boldface liar I'm the CEO and you the customer I'm the frontman and the ghost ghostwriter I'm the creator, I'm the director I'm the hitmaker, I'm the empire I'm the shot caller, I'm the showstopper I'm the real one, you the fake knockoff, ooh Jaw drop, headliner, top gunner, head honcho Eye-catcher, real stunner, y'all got it? New topic Ye's documentary was inspirational to me, I love watching Lames try to keep stars in the dirt, just 'cause they afraid of you Funny how they switch up quick When they realize that your name buzzin' Funny how they all wanna hop on board When they see the wave comin' Funny how they wouldn't put me on the tour And now they hit me up and say "I hope you're doing well, we should do a tour or somethin'" Man, stop We ain't doin' nothing, got my own thing going That's the way I like it Too many cooks in the kitchen, that's a problem I ain't never gotta worry 'bout Twelve people on the song, man, to each his own But for me, that's a little wild Got enough people in my business I don't need another hand dippin' in the pot I don't need nobody showing me the ropes I don't need you, tellin' me to do my job I don't need to hear you say that I'm the goat I don't need you askin' me to switch style I don't need you laughing, when I tell a joke I don't need you faking, tryna crack a smile I don't need you (I don't need you), I don't need you I don't need you tellin' me it's been a while (been awhile) I don't need the label breathing down my neck (neck) I don't need the venue tellin' me it's loud (loud) I don't need you talkin', when I'm tryna rap (woo) I don't need my name comin' out your mouth (whoa) I don't need you using me to get respect I don't need a picture with you, for some clout I don't need you, I don't need you I don't need you tellin' me you got some doubts Worry 'bout yourself, yeah I don't need your help, yeah What's your name? What's your name? What's your name? Doesn't ring a bell Every time I look down and Your number pops up on the cell Shake my head, threatenin' me Trying to get me to respond, well If you really knew me, you would know that that's the Quickest way to make me turn my back on you and-

Say you're there when I feel helpless If that's true, why don't you help me? It's my fault, I know I'm selfish Stand alone, my soul is jealous It wants love, but I reject it Trade my joy for my protection Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back Say you're here, but I don't feel it Give me peace, but then you steal it Watch them laugh at all my secrets Scream and yell, but I feel speechless Ask for help, you call it weakness Lied and promised me my freedom Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet?

Wait, wait, wait Don't leave me Wait, wait, wait Don't leave me Where you going? Where you going? Why you leaving? (Wait) I can't lose you, I can't lose you Girl I need you, girl I need you (Wait) And don't you love me? Don't you love me? Guess you don't want me, you don't want me (Wait) We back and forth, yeah, this ain't working, this ain't working Love ain't perfect, love ain't perfect I'm holding on to pieces of us That I just can't let go I know this is a desperate kind of love But it feels like it's home Where you going on? (Where you going?) I'm holding on to pieces of us 'Cause I just can't let go Wait, wait, wait Don't leave me Wait, wait, wait (wait me) What you thinking? What you thinking? Where's your mind at? (Wait) Don't you miss us, don't you miss us 'Cause you don't call that, you don't call that (Wait) Are you happy? Tell me are you happy? Are you smiling? Are you smiling? (Wait) Girl what happened? Tell me, girl what happened? 'Cause I am dying, I am dying I'm holding on to pieces of us That I just can't let go I know this is a desperate kind of love But it feels like it's home Where you going on? (Where you going?) I'm holding on to pieces of us 'Cause I just can't let go We don't wanna have a conversation We don't wanna think about it, we wanna just fake it We just wanna act like everything is great Go back to the day watchin' movies in the basement And the problem is now I'm feeling like everything is changed And I'm trying to make a livin' on the music But I feeling every time I look at you I'm in a place It's hard to be the man of the house when you ain't gotta house (I hate this) It's complicated, it's complicated We don't wanna talk, it's complicated I'm sitting in the hotel room like, "Why?" Call your phone and apologize There's gotta be a way we can make this right We can make this right I'm holding on to pieces of us That I just can't let go I know this is a desperate kind of love (I know this), (I know this) But it feels like it's home Where you going, (I'm going), (Where you going) I'm holding on to pieces of us 'Cause I just can't let go I'm holding on to pieces of us That I just can't let go I know this is a desperate kind of love But it feels like it's home Wait, wait, wait Don't leave me Wait, wait, wait Don't leave me