Notmorgn You hate it when I leave, I wish that I could stay I wish that we could fly to somewhere far away Sometimes I'm feeling good, but never feeling great If our love is so golden, why'd it fade to grey? Still feeling like an outcast, I got some close friends But we don't even talk anymore And recently I learned that the older that I grow I care less and less than before Can't tell if I'm numb, or I'm just growing up I'm getting so good at covering it up It's like a full-time job at being in my head I'm my own boss, I got the needle and the thread I'm getting so good I'm getting so good So good, I'm getting so good I'm getting so good Feel lonely when you leave, but, girl, I gotta go I wish that we could fly out to somewhere on the coast Right now I'm feeling good, I wouldn't call it great Why am I so lonely, but lock myself away? And I hate that it got brushed off when I was just a kid It made me so sad when I was young 'Cause anxiety grew with me, it's hard to talk about it What I'm feeling when I'm 'lone Can't tell if I'm numb, or I'm just growing up I'm getting so good at covering it up It's like a full-time job at being in my head I'm my own boss, I got the needle and the thread I'm getting so good I'm getting so good So good, I'm getting so good I'm getting so good Tell me what's so good about living with the pain If I got one life, why don't I wanna feel a thing? If you love me now, I don't think you'll feel the same 'Cause the weight on my head really damaging my brain Tell me what's so good about living with the pain If I got one life, why don't I wanna feel a thing? If you love me now, I don't think you'll feel the same 'Cause the weight on my head really damaging my brain Can't tell if I'm numb, or I'm just growing up I'm getting so good at covering it up It's like a full-time job at being in my head I'm my own boss, I got the needle and the thread I'm getting so good I'm getting so good So good, I'm getting so good I'm getting so good