My Role - cdukes

I know that it's over But I don't know how to start To try and start over And just mend my broken heart It keeps getting colder Voices tell me I'm too far I want to get closer And just mend my broken heart Never told you how I really felt Now I'm seeing you with someone else And I'm here so angry at myself I do that too much I think I need help (Yeah) But I tried to show you how I felt I wish I was more fun to hang around I don't feel like I'm enough now And now that it's over I've gotta rebound (Yeah) But every time I see you again I want to feel something But I don't let myself cuz then The pain rushes back in I wish I could go forget And act like we never met But my feelings linger instead (Yeah) I have so many bad thoughts My broken hearts broken I wish I wasn't angry I hide all my emotion I really need to detox My feelings unspoken So I'll just write a sad song This is how I'm coping I know that it's over But I don't know how to start To try and start over And just mend my broken heart It keeps getting colder Voices tell me I'm too far I want to get closer And just mend my broken heart I'm lacing up some old shoes and even they have memories They were the only ones I wore when we would always see Each other, you said you liked them, that's why I remember these Now I just wrote a whole verse about my old shoes I remember the old days sitting next to you That's when I would feel things instead of just refuse Even if we weren't together I would definitely choose The days when we were best friends and my heart felt so brand new But now Feels like everything's been put on hold My feelings vanish and my heart grows cold I'm trying to move on and just be more bold That's what my name means but it just won't enfold (Yeah) I can't act on my desires Cuz I felt things in denial So many days I feel lower Remember when I felt higher Tryna read more of my Bible And get strength from my Provider I'm searching for healing To wake up to a new horizon I know that it's over But I don't know how to start To try and start over And just mend my broken heart It keeps getting colder Voices tell me I'm too far I want to get closer And just mend my broken heart (Yeah, yeah) Please mend my broken heart (Yeah, yeah) Won't You mend my broken heart (Yeah) I thought too much on what we could be And not what we are I dreamt so much and thought it should be I still think you're a star But dealing with feelings that would be Is just really hard I'm left with all these scars Please mend my broken heart

Hello, you probably don't know who I am Acting like I've got it figured out's a scam I'm not afraid to be me, just take it As I am. I do not like to fake it But lately these days, I've been putting on a mask How I feel ain't how I act Feels like all my joy is snatched, yeah Feels like music is my only friend The only one that's listening The only one that understands I'm not the person out to tear people down, that ain't the deal Wish people knew that I don't mess around, I keep it real Wish they'd accept me for who I am, I express how I feel Why do I feel like I have to change me? That has no appeal Come on, give me a chance Please don't judge me at first glance Just cuz I moved here and I'm new here Doesn't mean I don't advance My friendships, want to enhance But I feel friendless, small expanse Now depression has ascended My connection's all but ended I've lost my senses Tryna care for others interests But it gets so much harder when Nobody pays attention Ain't no tension, no distension Except in third dimension My heart gets the mention I wish I could put this in detention Just let me be me Just give me a chance I'm looking for somebody Who sees who I am Somebody who sees Who I really am Not what I am, no I'm tryna dwell on His love The only thing that fills my well For all that I can tell That's all that's keeping me well Want others who can tell When I'm low and don't feel swell Wish somebody'd pick me up But I'm feeling underselled I wish people wouldn't look at me based off all my talents Looking at my balanced behaviors but not my heart that's pounded Drowning in the lies and all the voices that are howling I'm surrounded by so many but they keep on walking right around me When I say something I mean it I don't like people who conceal it When I say I love you believe it Means if a bullet comes at you I'd receive it Just let me be me Just give me a chance I'm looking for somebody Who sees who I am Somebody who sees Who I really am Not what I am, no I'm lonely You don't see The real me Guess He's all I have I'm lonely Only He Really knows me Guess He's all I have Just let me be me Just give me a chance I'm looking for somebody Who sees who I am Somebody who sees Who I really am Not what I am, no You're all I have (woah) You're all I have All I have All I have, all I have, all I have (woah) You're all I have All I have

I have so many bad days I just want to get by Going through this sad phase I don't even get why I feel this way Don't know what to say I have this weight That I can't explain I have so many bad days I just want to get by Going through this sad phase I don't even get why I feel this way Don't know what to say I have this weight That I can't explain Wake up every day it feels like I'm drained I don't even know why I feel all this pain It's so hard to describe it just feels like a strain If it keeps it up, I think I'll go insane It feels like I go through this on my own, all alone Wish I was still with you but that's something I can't control Keep on hoping that I'll feel better but I just don't I need help to stay afloat I suppose I'm so drained here in this desert And my life was so much better When I'd call on you whenever Miss the times we spent together Now I miss your presence I need shelter in this weather And I can't ease all this pressure It's so hard to forget her Feels like there's no one left My feelings all repressed Now all I feel is stress And this weight on my chest Sick of unrest and depression Nothing left and I'm investing I'm requesting for some resting, yeah I have so many bad days I just want to get by Going through this sad phase I don't even get why I feel this way Don't know what to say I have this weight That I can't explain I have so many bad days I just want to get by Going through this sad phase I don't even get why I feel this way Don't know what to say I have this weight That I can't explain Oh I miss you You had the prettiest of smiles Oh I miss you Girl I need you right now Oh I miss you Had me losing myself I miss the way we used to be when everything was going alright Alright, alright When you're in my arms and I'm holding you tight Got a hole in my heart where you left it Did I really go and waste that time spent? Now my timeline is missing the pictures of you Cuz my future is dying, I planned it on you All the things we could do they were all meant for two But I guess I'm not stuck with somebody so rude I don't mess with ya I would take a hundred shots to the chest If you told me we could get back together I don't really wanna see you Hope you're having pretty weather I guess it's my mistake God I'm stuck in the cycle I have so many bad days I just want to get by Going through this sad phase I don't even get why I feel this way Don't know what to say I have this weight That I can't explain But even through the bad days I know I can get by Going through this sad phase But I'll get through the night I can't erase What the past became But I'll be ok I've just gotta keep pressing on (Better days are ahead) I'll just gotta keep pressing on (Better days are ahead) Gotta keep pressing on oh yeah (Better days are ahead) I'll keep pressing on (Better days are ahead, oh yeah)