Monsters - Zimm

Trapped up in my mind man. I think I'm losin' it They think I beat depression but I'm still Goin' through it and I Probably will Forever, Cause whenever the weather Seems to get a Bit better my happiness Gets severed it's been. Months and I Have no motivation I been starin' At the Ceiling from the mornin' till the day end. Hoping that this pain ends don't know if I could take it Lately feel like chasin' Dreams only ever chasin' pavements. Prescription pills, just so I don't have to Feel. I been drownin' in this lake or I don know If I could chill guess I Got a lot of voids That I really need to fill cause After Everything I've gotten I just feel so Empty still. It's another day I feel exactly the same, Trapped in a daze, holdin' on for happier Days Wonder why they hella had it goin' Happen this way. My happiness fades And then it's right back to the pain That's another Rillo that gets ash in the Trey. I'm gettin' so sick and tired of Always actin' okay. Afraid to go and ask for help, they say It's all in my brain. If it's been ten years How the fuck this a phase? I swear that no one really gets it. And I know that life is precious, I'm still Breathin' for a reason I'm just tryna Spread my message It's for every single Person that says that they're feelin' Helpless, I swear that you're not Alone Just know that I really get it. All these people say they love me I just Wish I loved myself. I been bottlin' my Problems I don't trust enough to tell And Even if I did I doubt there's someone That can help. I been livin' with my demons feel like I Been stuck in hell. And I don't know when everything will Change, I hope I see a time I don't feel Hopeless everyday. Life is moving fast, I watch it pass and I Just ask, How can I enjoy the ride when I'm too afraid to crash?