Mad Apology - Bloody Civilian

Starting to believe you All the things you've been through I don't even want to Knowing what the truth is Hating what the truth is Scared of what the truth is You're right so I'm just gonna say it I can feel your eyes are on me This is my apology tonight I don't wanna fight about it This is my apology and I I just wanna say I'm sorry It's so hard, takes too long When we both stay strong Tryna keep this pain alive Oh, can we let it be tonight? Can we let it be tonight? Looking for the reasons I didn't need them Free me from the treason I wanna start it over Can we start it over? Let me start it over You're right so I'm just gonna say it And I hope these words set you free This is my apology tonight I don't wanna fight about it This is my apology and I I just wanna say I'm sorry It's so hard, takes too long When we both stay strong Tryna keep this pain alive Oh, can we let it be tonight? Can we let it be tonight? Oh, the truest words are never wasted I'm letting go just show me how I'm getting closer I can taste it This time, our time This is my apology tonight I don't wanna fight about it This is my apology tonight and I just wanna say I'm sorry

I'm trying to fit this letter in a bottle I only hope the message can sail to you safe Someone said turn to The Bible But I don't know what God's gonna say Cause I broke his angel's heart So it's kinda hard to pray tonight Cause you're not here You say you don't want nothing to do with me My biggest fear Is you'll never hear my apology (apology) Woah-ooh, my apology (apology) Woah-ooh, my apology (apology) Woah-ooh, my apology (apology, apology) Woah-oo-ooh I'm sorry I couldn't be everything you wanted me to be, Oh, yeah And if this is how you remember of me Oh, yeah Then, girl, let this be the most beautiful letter That you'll ever read in your life I'm leaving my heart on this page Cause I should be there with you tonight Cause you're not here (your not) You say you don't want nothing to do with me (don't want nothing) My biggest fear Is you'll never hear why I only want you to be Sitting here next to me I'll hold you close, look in your eyes Promise, girl, I'll make it right I only need a piece of you That still wants to be in my life Forever Cause you're not here (no you're not here) You say you don't want nothing to do with me My biggest fear (oh, oh) Is you'll never hear my apology Cause you're not here You say you don't want nothing to do with me My biggest fear Is you'll never hear my apology

Your light It radiates But the shadows are so long I never thought That the bleeding would go on I am here I am here I've been here I've always been here Reaching forward No No styptic sweep Of the minute hand The hour glass It only filled With the quickest sand I am here I am here I've been here I've always been here Reaching forward I gave you everything But I couldn't give you my life

I am nothin' without pretend I know my thoughts Can't live with them I am nothin' without a man I know my faults, but I can't hide them I still keep my baby teeth In the bedside table with my jewelry You still sleep in the bed with me My jewelry and my baby teeth I don't need another friend When most of them I can barely keep up with Them perfectly able to hold my own hand But I still can't kiss my own neck I wanted to give you everything But I still stand in awe of superficial things I wanted to love you like my mother's, mother's, mother's did Civilian Civilian

From my feet to my goddamn head top Long haired Samson deluded cash got My neck and my worries in a proper handful Bashful kinfolk as for road block (What?) We just speak slow and side step Might fetch precaution I proceed, we're honest, my niggas in Onyx Too many holes in my sweater Told my mom I'll do better On their hands and knees, got people beggin' me please, they said "Why you always walkin' with your head down?" (What?) "And why can't you just give us what we need?" Another week, week, tell me please, what'll it be? Another week, week, tell me please, what do you need? Another week, week, tell me please, what'll it be? Another week, week, tell me please, what do you need? Black tint civilian, might try to make me a million My niggas hand me my armor and make my blood turn reptilian, uh Black tint civilian, might try to make me a million My niggas hand me my armor and make my blood turn reptilian, uh Black tint civilian, might try to make me a million My niggas hand me my armor and make my blood turn reptilian, uh Black tint civilian, might try to make me a million My niggas hand me my armor and make my blood turn reptilian, uh I remember feelin' odd But never meant to let it get between us Yeah, I remember feelin' flawed And hoped that you could let it go It couldn't have been too long 'Cause my name's the reason I wake up and feel like a king Dreamin' of something that's bigger than Him So no man can tell me what I need now Might hang out the side, whatever's called for (Might hang out the side) Neck place on line, that's what I signed for (My neck placed on line) Bleed out on guillotines, these niggas spiteful I can't associate, a nigga prideful Black tint civilian, might try to make me a million My niggas hand me my armor and make my blood turn reptilian, uh Black tint civilian, might try to make me a million My niggas hand me my armor and make my blood turn reptilian, uh Black tint civilian, might try to make me a million My niggas hand me my armor and make my blood turn reptilian, uh Black tint civilian, might try to make me a million My niggas hand me my armor and make my blood turn reptilian, uh We based on line (Make place in line) Clean out our mind Get out, get out, get out, get out Get out, get out, to leave Black tint civilian, might make me a million My armor from them is gon' make me a million Black tint civilian, might make me a million My armor from them is gon' make me a million Black tint civilian, might make me a million My armor from them is gon' make me a million Black tint civilian, might make me a million My armor from them is gon' make me a million