Lying to myself (feat. sy) - Dab

Head underneath my pillow Melting fast like April snow I try to breathe, but it comes slow So I make do with what I know I lament in the pouring rain I'd rather wash away my pain Can't spare the time to entertain Afraid of loss, afraid of change So I keep lying, lying to myself Tell myself I don't need help Lie myself right into hell Oh, I keep lying, lying to myself The moon is laughing at me now Voices echo in and out I made my peace with a war of doubt So I tilt my head back underground My brother took the brunt of it While I found weakness in my grip Took nine years to see what I missed Afraid that I'm too late for this So I keep lying, lying to myself Tell myself I don't need help Lie myself right into hell Oh, I keep lying, lying to myself

And I can see in your eyes that you mean it And I can feel in your arms that it's true And though I just heard myself say it Baby, I'm lying to you Baby, I'm lying to you All of these years you've been lonely And knowing not what you should do And though you are right, I've been looking as well Babe, I'm not looking for you Babe, I'm not looking for you And I'm just as damn disappointed as you Only I just do better to hide it And the one thing that keeps me from falling for you Is I'm truly alone and I like it I'm truly alone and I like it And as we lie in bed I feel lonely Though we're young, I feel eighty years old And your arms around me are keeping me warm But baby, I'm still feeling cold Baby, I'm still feeling cold And girl you must know you are lovely You're kind and you're beautiful too And I feel in some way I do love you But babe, I'm not in love with you Babe, I'm not in love with you And it may seem strange that I still stay with you If it's true you're not really the one And why don't I just keep on looking for her? 'Cause I found her but now she is gone 'Cause I found her but now she is gone 'Cause I found her but now she is gone 'Cause once I found her but now she is gone