Love Matter

Mmm, what's it like To not have to think about it? It seems nice Not a care, so quiet Maybe I'm consumed by my mental Does it hurt me? Maybe, oh, well If I medicate, would it help me? 'Cause I'm hurting, I feel unwell You know how I feel You've told me before Although my fears are real The things I fear are not I know it doesn't matter I know it doesn't matter None of this even matters I know it doesn't matter I know it doesn't matter None of this even matters Check that Have to check that the oven is off This happens every night Sometimes you tell me off Maybe I'm consumed by my mental Does it hurt me? Maybe, oh, well If I medicate, would it help me? 'Cause I'm hurting, I feel unwell You know how I feel You've told me before Although my fears are real The things I fear are not I know it doesn't matter I know it doesn't matter None of this even matters I know it doesn't matter I know it doesn't matter None of this even matters You say "Why are you thinking these things?" (These things) How do I even explain? (Explain) "You're scared of almost everything" (everything) I know and it's really a drain (a drain) Hide under a pillow (pillow) Something's at the window (window) I'm too scared to check though Now I'm crossing my fingers Flicking off the switches Is my house filled with witches? What is my mind? What is it like To unwind? What's it like?

Burning bridges as I cower beneath Trying to salvage the debris My devotion tied around your waist lest you fall No one seems to sense the strain No one seems to know Burning bridges as I cower beneath Trying to salvage the debris My devotion tied around your waist lest you fall No one seems to sense the strain No one seems to know I don't Begin to proclaim That I know I can't continue down this road Dwelling on what has come to pass No force alive will bring it back I would know I can feel the pressure getting steeper with every life lost You hope that I won't see the light of day in time to come With no conviction founded Just Judgement contorted based on lust Give me strength Your assumption brings to a conclusion of no consequence and I refuse to play into your hands for your appeal Inadequate, Inadequate I know I know I know I know I've hoped I've hoped You'll see me

Turn back time Reason why Break neck speed History Waiting (waiting) Waning (waning) Exasperating Unstrung Tethered Hoping forever No I tried to settle bets with my own soul Bless My lips for the first time before you don't Gripping to The last touch of your hand I grow to loathe Hope That you remember just how far I'll go I'll spend The rest of my life wishing I'm enough Resist Resist Resist Resist Resist Resist

I'm a surrogate I'm archetypal and itinerant I'm your excuse to long for a superior I will undertake, I will overcome Imperfection you will find Look close enough, tear off the mask I need This endeavor is not mine You subject me to the daggers you conceive I'm stronger than I was before Thus you reinforce these walls, I can't fight you anymore Threatened by the open door All the chances I ignore, I can't stand still anymore The day is done, nothing left to say Resting head in hands, wishing I had known my place To take a stand, the errand of a fool I'm not to reprimand, I'm here to help you through Is nothing like it seems? Living in this sequence, a dream Is nothing like it seems? Gather broken shards of self-esteem

The impact of this is gonna fun Reckless behavior, get ready to run Bleed me dry to get that answers you want I like the pain, it makes me feel calm Bitter and broke and I'm fucking bored Nothing to lose so watch me transform A butterfly but with devil horns Dark matter Nothing ever felt the way it's supposed to Call my dealer If I sober up, I'll leak my own future I'll be, I'll be the darkest soul you've ever seen Dark matter Nothing ever felt the way it's supposed to Self-sabotage, it's all that I know Dirt to my lips, another episode Losing my grip, someone hand me the phone 'Cause I'm calling God, tell him that I'm not going home Bitter and broke and I'm fucking bored Nothing to lose so watch me transform A butterfly but with devil horns Dark matter Nothing ever felt the way it's supposed to Call my dealer If I sober up, I'll leak my own future I'll be, I'll be the darkest soul you've ever seen Dark matter Nothing ever felt the way it's supposed to The devil on my shoulder, she's telling me it's over But I don't even really wanna go If God is a woman then so is the devil So the devil is someone you know Criminal behavior, I am my own savior A monument to who I've become I'm overly aggressive, the biggest of messes That's probably why I'm always on the run Dark matter Nothing ever felt the way it's supposed to Call my dealer If I sober up, I'll leak my own future I'll be, I'll be the darkest soul you've ever seen Dark matter Nothing ever felt the way it's supposed to The devil on my shoulder, she's telling me it's over But I don't even really wanna go If God is a woman then so is the devil So the devil is someone you know Criminal behavior, I am my own savior A monument to who I've become I'm overly aggressive, the biggest of messes That's probably why I'm always on the run