Loose Ends - Loyle Carner

Sinkin' Don't know what i'm feelin' Bleedin' But i don't think i'm healin' One thing that can't stop me from bleedin' out No way to get it back, i'm dead no doubt Can't win I'm controlling the damage Almost healed needa rip off the bandage My wounds just need some space to breathe Needa make obvious so you can see I'm sorry for losing faith Please give me some space to breathe I can't make more obvious I don't wanna hear your voice you ain't invested in me Loving you just isn't the same Cause i guess you aren't in love with me I can't make it more obvious I can't ever be the man i was pretending to be Fall back There is no more valid reason to fight Saw that I don't think there's any reason to hide All the things that you haven't been telling me Cause you wanna see how i'd keep on hitting your line Fuck that I'll take it as a sign Make feel like loving you's a god damn crime Cause lately loving you has been breaking me I really hope that there's an end to this god damn fight I'm sorry for losing faith Please give me some space to breathe I can't make more obvious I don't wanna hear your voice you ain't invested in me Loving you just isn't the same Cause i guess you aren't in love with me I can't make it more obvious I can't ever be the man i was pretending to be

Wanting me to change my ways Now I'm in a better place Wanting me to change my ways I cant Promise that I cant promise that Tying all the loose ends I question my reality I question who really are all my true friends How you gonna let them say how you feel How you letting them confuse how you feel How you letting them convinced how you feel Its Obvious you're guilty When i saw you with him last night He aint what you really want really want really want And somehow i feel bad for ya Different women mixing thought mixing thoughts Thoughts all my thoughts When i think of getting back at you But honestly I don't wish you happiness if its without me I tend to loose control Its hard for me to just pick up the phone Don't worry id just rather be alone I cant take it no more I cant take it no more I cant take it no more I cant take it no more How you call yourself a friend When jokes are always made at my expense Sometimes i get a little way too dramatic And think to myself can i really make it to the end Who the fuck am i to take over your life If i say i love you once you'll never hear it twice You wanted to be my muse now I'm here stuck on you Studying all my moves Like who the fuck are you The More you're hurting me The more i see you don't love Yourself Oh Oh And why you never believe When i told you there was no one else I care for no one else but myself And you made sure i knew that I tend to loose control Its hard for me to just pick up the phone Dont worry id just rather be alone I cant take it no more I cant take it no more I cant take it no more I cant take it no more I cant take it no more I cant take it no more I cant take it no more I cant take it no more

Dive down deep in the bottle Gotta get to the bottom We both know that you ain't coming up for air Who beats the drum that you follow? It's a hard pill to swallow But we both know that I ain't going anywhere Light a match, I'll find the spark Connected by our jaded hearts Watch the flames go up in waves Oh, baby, how we burn We're a cause no one can save It'll only get 'em hurt Cause we're on again and off again And no one ever knows what we're doing With all these loose ends Feels like we're losing, losing I take my shot at your ego Always go for the low blows But I know in the end that you'll be standing there Cause you're always in trouble Face down in the gravel But I know in the end that I can't help but care I want to go where you can't see me But my biggest fear is that you'll leave me Watch the flames go up in waves Oh, baby, how we burn We're a cause no one can save It'll only get 'em hurt Cause we're on again and off again And no one ever knows what we're doing With all these loose ends Feels like we're losing, losing Oh we're on again and off again And truly I don't know I give in even when I should let you go Watch the flames go up in waves Oh, baby, how we burn We're a cause no one can save It'll only get 'em hurt Cause we're on again and off again And no one ever knows what we're doing With all these loose ends Watch the flames go up in waves Oh, baby, how we burn We're a cause no one can save It'll only get 'em hurt Cause we're on again and off again And no one ever knows what we're doing With all these loose ends Feels like we're losing, losing

Dum Da ra da da da dum Da ra da da da dum Da da ra dum Da ra da dum Da ra da dum Da ra da da ra dum Da da ra dum Da ra dum Doing everything by halves Got a real flair with excuses Meeting someone at the bar Where loose ends still have uses It's complicated This time I think it could be Triangulated It could be just what we need So what you say we give it up and walk away? (Whoa, oh-oh) We're overrated anyway Dum Da ra da da da dum Da ra da da da dum Da da ra dum Da ra da dum Da ra da dum Da ra da da ra dum Da da ra dum Da ra dum We're kissing without kissing And got it down to a fine art Love's supposed to keep you young and frisky But we grew up and wide apart (Tick-tock, tick tock) Not now, not ever, no, it's never a good time (Tick-tock) How will the good times ever roll on? (Tick-tock) Comparing photos then and now, now and then Just wondering (Wondering) Where it all went wrong It's complicated This time I think it could be Triangulated It could be just what we need So what you say we give it up and walk away? (Whoa, oh-oh) Nothing to salvage anyway Want to? Oh Need to? Oh Try to? Oh None of the above Want to? Oh Need to? Oh Try to? Oh None of the above Want to? Oh Need to? Oh Try to? Oh None of the above Want to? Oh Need to? Oh Dum Da ra da da da dum Da ra da da ra dum Da da ra dum Da ra dum It's complicated This time I think it could be Triangulated It could be just what we need So what you say we give it up and walk away? (Whoa, oh-oh) We're overrated anyway It's complicated This time I think it could be Triangulated It could be just what we need So what you say we give it up and walk away? (Whoa, oh-oh) Nothing to salvage anyway

Trying not to be the man I didn't want to be To be the person that you want to see, aye The night falls, I'm the one you meet Stopping at the shops and buying something sweet, aye Yo, I was willing, we was able Yeah, put a living on the table, aye The little image that I cradle To empathise with the villains in the fable That we relate to, because it shapes you I started doing everything that they do Visions of a father that would taint you Yeah, shatter like the glass that I was chained to Becausе I made you, anyone could make you Yеah, but it's your father that could raise you Ah, only a mother that could save you We never had enough, still we make do Yeah, to break the chains and the cycle The days that are vital, the place as an idol Yeah, see the name's in the title The days, a disciple, this pain, it was my fault Yeah, 'cause wide awake from the chains in the thread All the pain that could stays in your head Yeah, I understand, yo, I'm wildin' No man is an island, but you know I've been trying Yeah, but is it good enough? Yeah, shiver through my hoodie as I pull it up Cycle through the city, thinking stupid stuff Acting like I'm quiet but I could erupt And I did Flashing back when we was kids, I see my father blow his lid Yeah, I used to say I hate the crib Hate the doors, hate the fridge, hate this fucking house I live 'Cause there's holes in every wall and now there's holes in every wall When it was me and I've been taken for a fool I hold my son, yo, I've been trying to play it cool But I'm the villain in the story, the exception to the rule Did the pressure bussed a pipe, build a diamond? Aye The anger puts a fella on an island Yeah, you hear the bang, feel the silence Ah, but you know I've been trying Yeah, to break the chains and the cycle The days that are vital, the place as an idol Yeah, see the name's in the title The days, a disciple, this pain, it was my fault Yeah, 'cause wide awake from the chains in the thread All the pain that could stays in your head Yeah, I understand, yo, I'm wildin' No man is an island, but you know I've been When I was younger, yo, I wanted to be famous Now that I'm older, yo, I wish that I was nameless The world's aimless, no one gives a fuck Time's of the essence, I was running out of luck Getting stuck for a couple bucks, tryna bust a nut Filling up my plate, but wasn't filling up your cup Yo, I say it's fucked, they even killed the Wolverine That was the only father figure that I'd seen I was lost, trying to find something to believe All them aches and the pain, yeah, from crying on my knees I was saying please, all this air that I breathe Weren't a waste, the glass chin staying on my feet I close my eyes and I listen to you sleep Yeah, find some peace

This is for Eliza Mother told me to bring some flowers But I was running late Didn't wanna rush it, bought something safe Shit, left it on the train in the fucking rain Strange, I'd do it all the same just to come again The pain, I know your girl's being strong for you Telling me the world ain't long for you I'm tryna make her laugh any way I can Press her head into my hands, but I'm feeling quite responsible So I'ma keep her safe, don't you worry 'bout it And keep that smile on her face 'til the summer clouded And this ain't nothing to replace all the love that's shrouded But I can see it on your face, you'd be fucking proud And everybody else is too 'Cause your Eliza's a reflection of you So when you're rested in the setting to soothe Remember every single blessing is true, trust And so I'm saying everybody else is too 'Cause little Harvey's a reflection of you I'm saying everything you say rings true Even Alex a reflection of you And I can see it in the way you move That my Eliza's a reflection of you I'm saying everybody else is too 'Cause everybody else is too No-one makes a better bagel, some'll come close But the way you make the bacon is the bun toast It's something special, couldn't sum it up in one quote So these first four lines devoted to that one dose Everybody else is too 'Cause little Harvey's a reflection of you I'm saying everything you say rings true Even Alex a reflection of you And I can see it in the way you move That my Eliza's a reflection of you I'm saying everybody else is too 'Cause everybody else is too Everybody else is too 'Cause little Harvey's a reflection of you I'm saying everything you say rings true Even Alex a reflection of you And I can see it in the way you move That my Eliza's a reflection of you I'm saying everybody else is too 'Cause everybody else is too

Must be a fly in here somewhere Well not anymore, heh heh Face this Like water, never taste this Evil, white rose to a racist They used to hype 'cause my mothers face was white and my fathers face blacker than the scene outside a spaceship Flooded with rocks and jewels, crystals shine and shimmer He never let me use their words, "due time my jigga" Never called me nigga, said it's the master's tongue But being black and white, the trouble never asked for none But they all passed me some, fuck it, I grabbed it Both hands in the darkest sun, scribbled 'til the parker's done Grabbed another pen and scribbled where the parker's spun Following in footstops of fathers that were asked to run But not the one who wanted out and so they disappear All caught up in the fam and feeling like they interfere I'm thinking that my great grandfather could've owned my other one And yo, that shit is weird I'm lost (I'm) Wondering my cost (I'm) Telling you, it hurts, (I'm) If you don't know your worth So we run from the maker like sons in Jamaica Heart break, breaker like the sun's an equator We wasted it, before we even tasted it Cities on fire Quite literally The reason nobody's talking remains a mystery My brother's lost, telling him do it differently I wanna take the blame but we don't share the same history I'm lost Wonder my cost up in this space Mixed race, colour on my face, feeling misplaced A waste Ain't tryna tell you how my shit taste Pack a couple days in this thin case, make a move Write everyday and night 'til I say the truth Lose looking for some proof that I'm still in news See, I got it all to lose, nothing to prove Promise the day I get paid, I'ma pay my dues Uh, find the karma Told me I'm from Ghana but really it's Guyana Uh, I'm Coyle Larner to Carner, the birth place of my father's father I don't know the answer I'm lost Wondering my cost Telling you it hurts If you don't know your worth So we run from the maker like sons in Jamaica Heart bait breaker, duh, whatever Wasted it, before we even tasted it Fuck Ay, yeah, can I just get uhhh. You got chicken soup? Nah, only goat soup for today Uh, can I get one goat soup... erm... And then some curried chicken with, Only plain rice Yeah, can I just get plain rice then, And some, er, steamed veg as well please Only plain rice? Yeah

It's weird, man, I feel like I can't play. It's weird, man Every now and then like I'm like playing and it's like what? I'm actually I ain't seen you for a minute, wonder what for Only really chilling when we're on tour Even then there's something different I feel unsure If you look at me and still believe I should've done more Before your brothers on the top floor Or before another show is just a dumb chore We'd lay awake at yours dreaming of an encore And laugh at all the things that we would say when we won awards Course money was the source I've never known nothing like the force To rip a bond apart, shred it out its course Now two best friends who shared the torch barely talk And if we do it's mostly money not remorse And yo, I know there's nothing funny 'bout divorce But if this shit has really run its course I want you to know that all of mine's all of yours Uh, all of yours Still remember your mum buying me the flat pack mattress? Sleeping on your floor? It's supposed to be Ben and Krispy And anywhere I went I said I'd take you with me Tour around the world and give a fuck, you'd miss me Get another city, yo, I cried when that sentence hit me Ben and Krispy, 'til the feet stop Reminisce like CL and Pete Rock or Blue and Exile 'Cause every time the beat drop I start to tell a story and you follow with the beat box Tell 'em, get up on your feet like the seats hot Common and Dilla started spinning from the T tops But Rebel B was all I need and all I see Drop the rythm on repeat and I would spit it 'til the beat stopped But the beat stopped So now what? Yo, I can't wait another hour boss Give a fuck about the money or the e-track I Just Want My G Back Trust I just want my G back Ayo listen, I got a lot more to say But I reckon I leave this next bit blank, So you wanna write something You can write something I love you, G

I was sat up on the train Staring out the window at the rain (aye) I heard this little lady must've felt the pain Ask her mum if the blazing sun'll ever shine again I felt ashamed feel the same not her mother though Nah, started to laugh got her son involved (aye) Mention the past like a running joke And told her without all the rain, there's no stunt in growth Close, ah, to everything and nothing Picture past the honeymoon and bluffing Where the wooden spoon is only cuffing Shorter the discussion but the roots can't maneuver out of nothing I've been suffering these dreamy days (ah) Remedy and lust don't hold any memories of us Rather hold you every day until the memories are dust Yo, we only caught the train 'cause you know I hate the bus Never get enough Born and raised Made attempts to crawl away Find a way to exist and hide your face some relate Leave everything in yesterday They ask about the bible I was reading Told them that the title was misleading labelled it Jerusalem but really it's for cooking Middle-Eastern I could see your mind was changing With the seasons shady for a reason (ah) They will start decreasing, leaving like the orange in the evening It was creeping through the clouds but Now I'm proud to see the images releasing I just wish the little lady could've seen it but she was dreaming (ah) Reckon she's standing with her mum saying to her 'look Mother, here's the sun rooted in the moment 'til the memories are done So I sit and start to wonder on the woman she'll become Wonder if I'll have a son or a daughter Ones that I brought up never strong never telling me to run Never tried to find a sum Tryna get it done, yo, I wonder if she'll ever be as clever as her mum, one Born and raised Made attempts to crawl away Find a way to exist and hide your face some relate Leave everything in yesterday Born and raised Made attempts to crawl away Find a way to exist and hide your face some relate Leave everything in yesterday Life can be bad, it can turn bad in a second So remember what I'm tryna show you this life can Be good one minute and next minute, it can turn bad So don't look down on nobody 'cause That's how life can turn for everybody So remember, it's love everybody and I'm gonna look for that for mine Thank you