Life In Reverse - Jonnybegood

"Do I know you?" "Yes, you do" "This seems so familiar" "You're in a dream" "Who are you?" "I am your reflection, you've been asleep for a very long time" I lay awake every night, looking back on my life Will apologies to the people I love for the things I've done really make it right? I guess it might, just then I realized My past is the reason I'm here right now as a matter of fact, I won't apologize You bitches always pissed 'cause I am constantly changing Think of how far that I've made it from my incarceration, it's amazing, ain't it? But I'm in the zone, I'm a rolling stone, I'm coming home, but I'm not alone Do I really gotta let another motherfucker know? I won't surrender, surrender No, I won't let you bring me down So, where the hell do I go from here? Who do I believe, who do I believe when everyone Feels so insincere? Like everyone's out to get me Who will save my life? How do I believe, how do I believe in anyone? Please, don't mind me I just kill myself sometimes "Uh, daddy?" "Yes, honey?" "Why did you go to jail?" "Uh" I'm a lot smarter than you think, everything I did was planned To get you to listen, to get your attention so you post an opinion and it gets me bigger Are you triggered? Haha, figures Here's the kicker, with every trigger, I'm getting richer from offended, bitter, little Twitter bitches all up in my mentions, looking for attention 'cause they're starved of it You wanna call me king of the music scene? I got news for you, I'm the god of it Like the second coming I respawn like I have a reset button, hated more than Trump is Ronnie Radke's back to rapping, acting ratchet, release the Kraken, delete your asses I'm not the rapture, I'm the motherfucking morning after No, I won't surrender, surrender No, I won't let you bring me down So, where the hell do I go from here? Who do I believe, who do I believe when everyone Feels so insincere? Like everyone's out to get me Who will save my life? How do I believe, how do I believe in anyone? Please, don't mind me I just kill myself sometimes I need a miracle I'm falling way too fast, I'm sinking in too deep I need an angel now, that's watching over me If I could just wake up, if I could make you see I'm all alone, all alone with your sickness in me "Dad, Dad, Dad, wake up" "Ah, fuck, what the.?" "You were having a bad dream" "Where am I? Turn the fucking music off, who the fuck are you?" "I'm your daughter" "Oh, no, no, you're too old to be my daughter, what year is it?" "It's 2033, Dad" "Oh, no, no, it's not, no, no, no, no" "You've been asleep for a very long time" So, where the fuck do I go from here? Who do I believe, who do I believe when everyone Feels so insincere? Like everyone's out to get me Who will save my life? How do I believe, how do I believe in anyone? Please, don't mind me 'cause I'm really trying I just kill myself sometimes I'm falling way too fast, I'm sinking in too deep I need an angel now, that's watching over me If I could just wake up, if I could make you see I'm all alone, all alone with your sickness in me Who will save my life? How do I believe, how do I believe in anyone? Please, don't mind me I just kill myself sometimes

My words cut just like razor blades And I'm just like a hand grenade You pulled the pin, now you're too late Excuse me while I detonate You live the life of luxury Deep down inside your misery Subsides and thrives for company Now morally you're crumbling Goddamn, need some help, I can't help myself 'Cause my girlfriend's in love with someone else Goddamn it's too bad, really wished it would last Always wanting what I'll never have, so goddamn My nerves are right on edge today And I just might cave in and break I must forgive, I hesitate Excuse me while I separate You lived the life and lied to me I gave you almost everything I wore my heart upon my sleeve I gave you almost all of me Goddamn, need some help, I can't help myself 'Cause my girlfriend's in love with someone else Goddamn it's too bad, really wished it would last Always wanting what I'll never have, so goddamn Goddamn, need some help, I can't help myself My girlfriend's in love with someone else Goddamn it, what the fuck? Goddamn, need some help, I can't help myself 'Cause my girlfriend's in love with someone else Goddamn it's too bad, really wished it would last Always wanting what I'll never have, so goddamn So goddamn So goddamn So goddamn

Brother why'd you have to go? You left us all so soon Remember that song I wrote about your family years ago? Well, they're waiting for you to come home What do I do? What do I say? And dad tells me to pray So I've prayed and prayed, but the hurt won't go away The pain gets worse, it never stops And I've asked the Lord for us to swap I beg and plead 'cause you have kids to feed Why is it always stormy weather? And brother, tell me if it all gets better Why did you leave? Why did you die? You finally made your brother cry I know you're watching over us tonight And I hope you're watching over us tonight I'm sorry I missed your call I wasn't there for you at all And know I thought it through, maybe if I answered you That you would still be here, all along Now no more calls, can't you see? I took for granted family And once they're gone, you'll never get that back No more laughs, no more hugs So hold on to the ones you love Your soul is free, I love you Anthony And why is it always stormy weather? And brother, tell me, when does it get better? Why did you leave? Why did you die? You finally made your brother cry I know you're watching over from above So hold on to the ones you love