Killing Time - Nell Mescal

Get in my heart Get in my eyes Open the door Into the light Open your arms Open your eyes Open your heart What will there be left When you're not here to carry me home What will there be left When you're not here to steady my shaking bones What would there be left? I'm killing my borrowed time I'm killing my borrowed time I'm killing my borrowed time What will there be left When the tide rolls in and swallows you whole What will there be left When the light within Hey, I'll cut your throat How little your money's worth Like a bird into a jet plane I'm bringing you back to earth Killing my borrowed time I'm killing my borrowed time It's been a long time coming Don't look so surprised It's the death of all loving Let's go out on a high I'm killing my borrowed time, yes

Why do I feel Like I'm constantly scratching the surface I hate how I deal With myself when I don't have a purpose I have been killing my time I've been in my bedroom losing my mind Trying treat a head wound that I can't find That I can't find Where is it? Yeah I've been killing my time Put me in a grave, bury me alive I don't wanna lay down, no I won't lie No I won't lie In the blink, of an eye Of a storm, I feel nothing Is it me, or am I Falling off, into nothing I have been killing my time I have been, I have been killing my time Killing my time, killing my time I have been, I have been killing my time I have been killing my time I have been, I have been killing my time Killing my time, killing my time I have been, I have been killing my time Straight to the core Cut the chase, set the pace, let me face it With my face to the floor And my teeth biting down on the pavement I have been killing my time Spinning these plates up inside my mind Gotta keep up never fall behind, never fall behind No slipping yeah I have been killing my time Put it on a tombstone after I die No I wasn't perfect but I still tried To lead a good life In the blink, of an eye Of a storm, I feel nothing Is it me, or am I Falling off, into nothing I have been killing my time I have been, I have been killing my time Killing my time, killing my time I have been, I have been killing my time I have been killing my time I have been, I have been killing my time Killing my time, killing my time I have been, I have been killing my time

Sat in a hotel lobby, rich kids with all the trimmings Their outfits hurt my feelings, oh, well I should probably send you a postcard from this room without a window But I haven't made my bed since last year and nothing's changed I'm a little bit homesick But I don't wanna go home yet 'Cause I don't think that I'll come back You said there's no shame in that, oh I'm a little bit homesick And haven't made any friends yet 'Cause I don't think that I'll come back You said there's no shame in that, oh Wish I could find a pay phone Credits costing fifty-something I'm not introverted It's just roaming charges I'm a little bit homesick But I don't wanna go home yet 'Cause I don't think that I'll come back You said there's no shame in that, oh I'm a little bit homesick And haven't made any friends yet 'Cause I don't think that I'll come back You said there's no shame in that, oh I, I am falling I have hoped for more than this I, I am falling I have hoped for more than this (I, I am fallin') this place is not my home (I have hoped for more than this) I've got nowhere to go (I, I am fallin') this place is not my home (I have hoped for more than this) I've got nowhere to go I'm a little bit homesick But I don't wanna go home yet 'Cause I don't think that I'll come back You said there's no shame in that, oh I'm a little bit homesick And haven't made any friends yet 'Cause I don't think that I'll come back You said there's no shame in that, oh I'm a little bit homesick But I don't wanna go home yet 'Cause I don't think that I'll come back You said there's no shame in that, oh