Isabella (with Lucy Dacus) - Hamilton Leithauser & Rostam

You threw your books into the river Told your Mom that you're a non-believer She says she wasn't surprised but that doesn't make it ok You say nobody loves a city Nobody loves what can't love 'em back One-way ticket in your pocket What happened to the charm of a small town? If you find what you're looking for Be sure to send a postcard You promised you'd never forget The little ones when you got big You deal an unspoken debt No kindness without wanting something back What do I owe you? What did I forget? Are we even after all of that? You shook my hand and said goodbye You'll never let me see you cry again What good has come from learning to pretend? You said I could've been a better friend If you find what you're looking for Be sure to send a new address And if you find what you're looking for Write a letter and tell us what it is, and tell us what it is Everybody else, everybody else looks like they've figured it out Everybody else, everybody else looks like they've figured it out Everybody else, everybody else looks like they've figured it out Everybody else, everybody else looks like they've figured it out

And I'll get old And I'll get tired And I won't run Into the water You gotta let me go down Will you remember me as I am now? And I know you're strong I know you're a manmade fortress But we're alone And I'm so willing to be proven wrong And I fight time It won in a landslide I'm just as good as anybody I'm just as bad as anybody You talk like you know the walls are thin And I don't mind if you don't mind me listening And I'm tired of all these wires If I go far enough Will they not follow us? And I fight time It won in a landslide I'm just as good as anybody I'm just as bad as anybody And I fight time It won in a landslide I'm just as good as anybody I'm just as bad as anybody

You said "Don't go changing I'll rearrange to let you in And I'll be your historian And you'll be mine And I'll fill pages of scribbled ink Hoping the words carry meaning" Then one day, the motorcade Covered in flower wreaths First in a big parade Will come to take one of us away Leaving the other with plenty to read This is what I want to talk about But somehow the words will not leave my mouth Was I most complete at the beginning? Or the bow? If past you were to meet future me Would you be holding me here and now?

Being back here makes me hot in the face Hot blood in my pulsing veins Heavy memories weighing on my brain Hot and heavy in the basement of your parents' place You used to be so sweet Now you're a firecracker on a crowded street Couldn't look away even if I wanted Try to walk away but I come back to the start Led me to the floor even though I'm not a dancer Ask me all the questions that your parents wouldn't answer How could I deny a diamond in the rough? You let me in your world until you had enough You knew that I wanted you to bend the rules How did I believe I had a hold on you? You were always stronger than people suspected Underestimated and overprotected When I went away, it was the only option Couldn't trust myself to proceed with caution The most that I could give to you is nothing at all The best that I could offer was to miss your calls Being back here makes me hot in the face Hot blood in my pulsing veins Heavy memories weighing on my brain Hot and heavy in the basement of your parents' place You used to be so sweet Now you're a firecracker on a crowded street Couldn't look away even if I wanted Try to walk away but I come back to the start And it happens over and over and over and over again Over and over and over and over again I wish I was over it, over it, over it, over it A hidden gem, my own goldmine You had the wide and wild eyes You were a secret to yourself You couldn't keep from anyone else Now you're the biggest brightest flame You are a fire that can't be tamed You're better than ever, but I knew you when It's bittersweet to see you again

Your clothes in the dryer Your hair on the shower wall Your toothbrush is too much Your shoes empty in the hall Your keys on the counter Your dirty dish in the sink Please, don't make me see these things The books on your shelf that you never read The hunting knife you kept by your bed The flowers you dried and tied up with twine Suspended from the ceiling You tell me you love me like it'll be the last time Like you're playing out the end of a storyline I say, "I love you too" because it's true What else am I supposed to do? Maybe bar the door when you move to leave I think you mean what you say When you say you wanna die I think you mean what you say When you say you want to stay alive Quit your job Cut your hair, get a dog Change your name Change your mind Change your ways, give them time Go back to school, go back to sleep Tell the secret you can't keep Begin, be done Break a vow, make a new one Call me if you need a friend Or never talk to me again But please stay But please stay But please stay But please stay

I'm a ghost, walking in a boring dream You are there, talking and I'm not listening I am busy doing nothing And you're rudely interrupting It's a myth and now I see it clearly You don't have to be sad to make something worth hearing Now I'm calm and content One more burden off my back You don't wanna be a creator Doesn't mean you've got nothing to say Put down the pen, don't let it force your hand I'm a ghost, walking on an empty street No name anymore, no need to call for me I'm a long-lost hometown hero Late to legendary past lives within me If I had the offer to do it again Make me invincible, invisible, or brain dead If the body and the life were two things that we could divide I'd deliver up my shell to be filled with somebody else You don't wanna be a creator Doesn't mean you've got nothing to say Put down the pen, don't let it force your hand You don't wanna be a leader Doesn't mean you don't know the way Hold your own hand, walk on without a plan

Listen The summer's coming Slow down Don't chase the crowd 'Cause I'm right here Do you ever wonder why I sing these love songs When I have no love at all? Is the life you seek made of sins, their schemes? Do you need someone just to cool your blood? Or could you ride away from the regrets baby? Could you dream away all your restless blues? Could you hide away in the peaceful hours? Could you dream away in the summer haze? Promises I never fail Never fail to never make Nothing taken, nothing spent He'll thank me in the end

I don't think back I don't need to When I'm always Thinking of you Alexandra Oh, my roots are Always stronger Dug deep and Hard as marble Alexandra So I tuned out All the voices Telling me its Time to swing again Alexandra Oh there must be Some signal Some green light Left in your life Will you whitewash Your memory When I call you From a crazy sleep? Alexandra Well I took a Happy hour And I ran it Through your heart Don't you lose me To those blue skies I still miss you When we swing apart Alexandra Yeah there must be Some signal Someone lonely Or a green light Alexandra Alexandra

Kids are scratching up the walk Across the street and down the block I wish you'd stuck around to watch the night fall Smack your hands against the wall Louise Bogan and Robert Frost Popped off the shelf when you went through the door, singing "Years from today When your name is just a name And my love is a couple candles Twinkling on your cake That burn won't hurt you anymore, no But I'll still keep your picture lying in a drawer" Kids are scratching up the walk Four letter words in rainbow colored chalk Sweeping dust under the rug Oh, if only we could talk "Years away When your name is just a name You'll be counting up your pennies 'Til I'm laughing in my grave Oh, I know (Years away) Years away (When your name is just a name) When your name is just a name And my love's a couple candles Twinkling on your cake That burn won't hurt you anymore, oh But I'll still keep your picture lying in a drawer" When I was a boy, I could laugh at it, laugh at it Now I wonder how I got that hold on me, hold on me When I was a boy, I could laugh at it, laugh at it When I was a boy, I could laugh at it, laugh at it

The lights are coming on And all your candy's gone Spinning through the previews Flipping through the seats Popcorn in your loafers Sugar in your teeth You say, the lovers in your life Should listen to you more But you can tell that to the usher Showing you door "All the lights are on And all my candy's gone" I was a fool, I was blind I kept my eyes shut half the time All the lights, one by one, here they come On a sparking subway train Breaking through a tunnel underneath broadway With one arm waving wild At some kids on the other side And one arm on my shoulder Wrapped around my shoulder I was a fool, I was blind I kept my eyes shut half the time All the lights, one by one, here they come Take the hand that's reaching towards you When the shadow stands before you Arm and arm with a uniform Gonna swing you, right through the front door I was a fool, I was blind I kept my eyes shut half the time All the lights, one by one, here they come I was a fool, I was blind I kept my eyes shut half the time All the lights, one by one, here they come

I live in a nameless town No need to wander around I live in a nameless town In a black out Many friends have said goodbye Paraded out in one proud line I say they all just lost their minds Midnight where we used to dance Underneath the ugly halogen lamps Oh, it all went away so fast In a black out We'll wait for the year When the tide comes Rolling over the rails From here 'til the end Of the island Washing away I rent a room with all our stuff When you come home I'd lift you up And there's only the two of us In a black out Now you're sleeping in the back Of a speeding yellow cab Throw a kiss goodbye to all of that

I had a dream that you were mine I've had that dream a thousand times A thousand times, a thousand times I've had that dream a thousand times I left my room on the west side I walked from noon until the night I changed my crowd, I ditched my tie I watched the sparks fly off the fire I found your old house, I didn't even try They closed the shutters, they pulled the blinds My eyes were red, the streets were bright Those ancient years were black and white The 10th of November, the year's almost over If I had your number, I'd call you tomorrow If my eyes were open, I'd be kicking the doors in But all that I have is this old dream I've always had A thousand times, a thousand times I had that dream a thousand times A thousand times, a thousand times I had that dream a thousand times I left my room on the west side I walked from noon through the night I changed my crowd, I ditched my tie I watched the sparks fly off the fire I found your old house, I didn't even try They closed the shutters, they pulled the blinds I had a dream that you were mine I've had that dream a thousand times But I don't answer questions, I just keep on guessing My eyes are still open, the curtains are closing But all that I have is this old dream I always had A thousand times, a thousand times I've had that dream a thousand times A thousand times, a thousand times I've had that dream a thousand times A thousand times, a thousand times I've had that dream a thousand times A thousand times, a thousand times I've had that dream a thousand times