In Spite of Me - Morphine

I know that there's nights I stay out too late And times I forget to call It's true I might argue at the drop of a hat Or make a big deal out of nothing at all I'm not much for rules but I'm faithful and true She knows on the inside I'm good What she sees in me ain't half as important As what she overlooks And I wouldn't blame her if she said goodbye Cause she ain't like nobody else And I must be the luckiest man alive Cause she loves me in spite of myself I know she must wonder if she made the right choice And sometimes I wonder too It must be hard watchin' a man like me Trying to make all of her dreams come true I promised the moon and the stars in the sky On the night that she promised her love And I haven't come through though I'm trying to She says that's more than enough And I wouldn't blame her if she said goodbye Cause she ain't like nobody else And I must be the luckiest man alive Cause she loves me in spite of myself In spite of myself

I trapped myself here with all eyes locked on me Except for the ones I adore (that I adore) I can't speak, I lash out Find me convulsing on the fucking floor Stare at the wall and strain until my head explodes 'Cause no ones coming through that fucking door Fuck No, God dammit, no! (No!) Don't give a fuck how you're feeling (No!) Don't give a fuck about what you have to say Don't care if someone has it worse than me Tomorrow does not hold a better day I'll do whatever it takes to make you look at me that way again (Just look at me) To make you lost in me like I'm lost in you I'll do whatever it fucking takes To ruin you, to ruin you To haunt you, to haunt you To make you lesser, lesser To break you the fuck down Irrelevant, isolate Last night I put my belt around my neck But I'm still here, still a fucking wreck I guess I'm just selfish I needed something permanent I'll no longer be degraded I'll just decompose (decompose) Terrible memories in once wonderful places I can't seem to find the the beauty in anything anymore Drown me in the ocean you hold in your eyes Drown me Drown me, yeah, yeah Drown me Drown me, fucker Drown me Drown me Drown me Yeah this is how I'll fucking die Hold my head under wet lying lips Kiss me goodbye (goodbye) Kiss me goodbye Kiss me goodbye