I Wish I Missed My Ex - Mahalia

You broke my heart once Ain't gonna let you break it twice Even though I still think That you're really kinda nice You shut me out, it's as simple as that Then you showed up in the evening and wanted me back I'm confused, I'm so sorry, it's too late to rejoin the party I could write a song that's sweet enough to tell you All the things I didn't get to say You never got to read the letters that I wrote for you Such a shame, that all my beautiful words went to waste Such a shame You had it so easy You had me wrapped around your finger Am I stuck in your thoughts? Or are you hoping I don't linger? I still dream every night and you're always there Yes you're haunting me, doesn't seem very fair I could write a song that's sweet enough to tell you All the things I didn't get to say You never got to read the letters that I wrote for you Such a shame, that all my beautiful words went to waste On you, but you probably don't care Four letters sit there in a drawer Collecting dust, just like my record player was And I tried to recall a time Before I sang the blues and the music felt alive Thank you for being kind For giving me the best time of my life Thanks for the memories I really kinda wish that you didn't wanna leave But you can, and you did Now you're crying 'cause you took me for granted I could write a song that's sweet enough to tell you All the things I didn't get to say You never got to read the letters that I wrote for you Such a shame, that all my beautiful words went to waste On you, but you probably don't care I hope you're happy anyway I hope you have a smile on your face I hope you're happy anyway What I would give to see that smile on your face

[Chorus X 2] I missed I must admit But girl you're much too much for me to quit I saw you standin all alone And suddenly this thought crossed my mind You and I Sharing love we've never known This feeling is oh so good to me Baby And when I said hello You looked at me Oh so sweet It's you I'd like to know But when you turned away and walked out the door [Chorus X 2] I missed I must admit But girl you're much too much for me to quit Tell me what can I do To make you see the way I feel is real If only I Could talk to you Girl I know You'd realize that I am the one for you Can't get you off my mind You totally Stole my heart Girl it's worth a try To find out if there's a chance [Chorus X 2] I missed I must admit But girl you're much too much for me to quit Give me one minute of your time And I'll make it worth your while It seems to me that you've been hurt by other guys Cuz when I say hello you say goodbye [Chorus X 3] I missed I must admit But girl you're much too much for me to quit My baby My baby The girl the girl the girl is fine Wish that you were mine Oh girl I missed But girl you're much too much for me to quit I missed I must admit But girl you're much too much for me to quit And when I said hello you looked at me, oh so sweet It's you I'd like to know Girl you're much too much for me to quit But then you turned away and walked out the door I missed Girl you're much too much for me to quit I missed I must admit But girl you're much too much for me to quit

Like I met my girl when I was 18 years old And she was just turning 23 I really love her from my heart And even though I don't deserve it fam I hope she loves me So I just done this private show I'm doing Footlocker promo And judging from the postcode it was Shoreditch or Soho Did six or seven tracks, made six or seven racks A couple days later on twitter I saw This photo of myself and I was grinning That 4K camera of quality had got me tripping So I'm checking out who did it When I stumbled on this girl And I could tell that she was different A couple hours later now I'm liking all her pictures I ain't finished I typed her twitter name into my Insta' So I could check on every single little digit Why didn't I just message her? Trust me I was thinking But I'm a self-centred rapper too concerned about my image The truth So when she hit me first I'm pretty shocked I didn't burst I'm calling Josh, Jack and Juss who am I ringing first? Man I was so excited That I replied a minute later that's that bro I think that you just let her know excited Too excited, no clue on what I should do excited So I'm just typing, rambling like a fool, excited Look Look And we were talking for hours over some minor things Ignoring everyone else to her I'm replying quick This type of chick she got a spark like you were lighting spliffs You know you like her when you're thinking about your words She got me typing, deleting my messages then re-writing In the hope that there's a smile when she's replying The highlight of my day Them phone calls in the night it's the little things The girl, she had a vibe and I liked it and She's into photography and she's got a passion for it And she respects that I'm rapping but she ain't catting for it See that's the perfect balance There's nothing better than a girl with talent Drive, ambition all of them things above She's showing an abundance I ain't even met her yet She works around the corner but lives just outside of London I ain't fronting, I'm a sweet boy Intentions are in question so my compliments are decoys If that even makes sense? The first time I met her, I'm surrounded by my friends Random ends on some staircase So much for a first date I just had a show And I asked if she could meet me after Maybe we could chill, you never know where things could go No problem she down to roll Travel in the cold So I went across the road, grey hoodie under a coat If I'm remembering correctly It's always kind of weird when the person that you were texting Is the person you are obsessed with I was on her from the jump I think she was wearing pumps or Vans when I first met her, no, it's either either one She was looking so attractive I barely saw Skin 'cause she was covered like a mattress Man, I think that she's the one I was stuck for twenty seconds trying to give the girl a hug And all my friends were drunk so fuck it, I'm about to kiss her Any complications, I'm blaming it on the liquor Changing my name on Twitter and blocking her on my Insta I saw her skin blush the moment that our lips touched She pulled my bottom lip until it stretched Kissed me on my cheek until she reached around my neck And had me moaning like a bitch Even though I'm wearing jeans I had to re-arrange my dick so she don't see that I'm erect It's the first time we met, got me feeling like a creep And that strawberry flavour gave her tongue a kinda sweet little taste And we could speak about anything we were friends first I dropped her to the station I remember Cuz we had a conversation for ages about our dreams And the things that we hadn't seen and all that we intended to do I bet she's hoping my intentions are true And as months went by we both got into it, and intimate And I'ma spare you the details cuz Both of our parents are probably listening But really we were into it Into us, into this Into everything about each other we were lovers And I love her 'cause she knows me And that's probably why she told me you ain't ready for a girl You're still a little kid that's getting ready for the world And you don't need that kinda burden But I told her that I want it And I'm just being honest Yes I know that girls exist but I don't see them as a problem I meant every single word And I ain't gonna lie and say DM's have Been absurd but out of every single girl This is the weirdest of positions It's usually the girl that's asking where I see her fitting or a place on her position But I'm telling her I need it And I don't think she sees it so I'm being ever sweeter When we're speaking and we're meeting I've got affectionate messages, you could read them You gotta tell a girl that she's beautiful until she sees it Believes it, understands it more than physically Mentally, and the way that I'm feeling I could talk 10 years about the moment that we shared The jokes that we had running The places that we've been The music we made together producing next to my bed Then making my minor changes in reference to what she said I think I start to getting tired, my shcedule's a mess Replies are gettin' lazy and my lady knows it's crazy But she's there if I'm in need While I'm at shows getting tempted by girls that are on their knees You know I'm only a teen, it's like my eyes started drifting Not as easy as I pictured to give your all to a woman Ignoring all this attention that's been getting to my head The sex is so accessible One message or text and girls will get in your bed She's tryna make it happen with photos and her events I mentioned it's her passion, photography is her thing And I don't know if it's the pressure Where paper meets the passion and the pleasure We all got a work to survive So now she's popping up at shows Taking pictures on her own And at first it wasn't cool But fuck it we let it go Until I saw her in some rapper's tracksuit, I felt a way She told me it was work and she was in some studio Taking pictures and I just sighed Some halfway wannabe rappers that fed her lies He ain't looking for no pictures I know it's your profession But read their intentions They ain't paying male photographers to shoot that same session And that felt so disrespectful, standing on our dreams And crushing 'em, I just told her it's nothing do what you need to do If I ain't feeding you Then my opinion's all I'm giving when I speak to you 'Cause I don't have the right Why should girls be punished for a male's dirty mind? When I think about it now, I'm ashamed to the core I mean how many men stop their women From achieving what they can because In secret they've been feelig insecure And I can't handle my emotions, it's probably why I didn't see her Talent when I shoulda been supporting and promoting Like I didn't have a platform, a voice and a following With everyone I knew I really coulda do a lot of things to help chase her dream But instead of me to grow into the person that she needs I acted like I couldn't see And I don't mean to say this like I don't trust the girl But how can I trust her if I don't trust myself? And even girls can get tempted you know how it goes What if she meets a bigger rapper when she's at a show? What if he sees her backstage? What if he selling lots? What if he's got a bigger car, got a better watch? That doesn't bother me, she really ain't material It's all the little things they do that put the fear in you What if he actually replies? What if he phones her too? What if he's doing all the things that I'm supposed to do? What if he's listening, laughing, relating? What if he even cares to ask her how her day's been? What he's trying to give her everything she needs And expects from the one damn person that she's dating? I shoulda helped her follow her dream But instead I held her back and had her following me And boys got a brave face so you'll never know That hurts just as much when you let them go

(Can anyone live with a kid? That's not for me to decide That's for someone who decide to live with me to decide, not for me But you willing to compromise in a relationship To compromise? What is comprising? Compromising for what? Compromising for what reason?) You don't have to call me, you don't gotta say it I already guessed, love You been playin' I don't need to know where you are now I don't see no reason for a blowout I was here the whole time, you were busy chasing You don't know what you had, I'm amazing I was all in and you was all out I'll get back up after this fall-down Look me in my eyes and tell me you never loved me, yeah Babe, it's no surprise, if I was you I'd feel lucky, uh, uh Yeah, you striked out All the times, thought that I didn't know 'bout All the lies you denied, but I know now 'Bout your hideout I can't believe you thought I'd never find out (Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha) (A man comes into my life and I have to compromise) You said all these things (You must think about that one again) I ignored the rumours, there's my lesson Clearly I'm the humour, and you been messin' Always talkin' 'bout the future when you not even present Well, I'm the prize, uh, I'm the blessing I was cool to slow down, you were busy racing Had it all figured out, you knew I'd cave in I was all in and you was all out I'll come back up after this comedown Look me in my face and tell me this ain't bravado, hey I let you set the pace, all I did was just follow, yeah, yeah Well, you striked out All the likes, thought that I didn't know 'bout All the times you denied, but I know now 'Bout your hideout Well, I can't believe you thought I'd never find out, no (I think, if you were to think about it in terms of analyzing) You said all these things, ha ha (Yes) ha ha (I'll fall in love with myself) La la la la la la la (and I want someone to share it with me) I can't believe you thought I'd never find out About your hideout, uh

I wanna love you like in movies A ticket for two, please You could've been that man If this was really showbiz, you would give me roses And I would take your hand, ah Hollywood made it look easy Why'd it have to tease me? I don't understand I tried to love like in the movies But, all I got was plastic plants (All I got was plastic plants) (All I got was plastic plants) I've got something inside me That I wanna confess (Wanna confess) You've been cutting your ties and I don't wanna be next (Wanna be next) I've (I've) got (Got) something inside me That (That) I (I) wanna confess (Wanna confess) If your roses are dead and your violets ain't true I don't wanna grow next to you I thought that our love would be a series Always have you near me Yeah, that was the plan You were meant to call me on the daily Link me like a daisy chain up on my hair Hollywood made me think it was simple I took it too literal Now I understand, huh I thought you were growing up Thought we'd have a real romance, huh (Thought we would) But all I got was plastic plants I've got something inside me That I wanna confess (Wanna confess) You've been cutting your ties and I don't wanna be next (Wanna be next) I've (I've) got (Got) something inside me That (That) I (I) wanna confess (Wanna confess) If your roses are dead and your violets ain't true I don't wanna grow next to you You're gonna know what you did when I don't holla back, babe Look at me (Look at me) I was your girl, but you never gave me jack, babe Can't you see? (Can't you see?) Now we've grown apart (Yeah, huh) Didn't even try, so the love ran dry Now we're back at the start You had your chance, you just gave me plastic plants I've got something inside me That I wanna confess (Wanna confess) You've been cutting your ties and I don't wanna be next (Wanna be next) I've (I've) got (Got) something inside me That (That) I (I) wanna confess (Wanna confess) If your roses are dead and your violets ain't true I don't wanna grow next to you (Baby, uh) Next to you, next to you, babe, ah

Once a cheat, always a cheat Once a cheat, always a cheat You swear you're innocent, but that's not the case, uh You've got the guilt written all over your face You busybody, you can't stay in one place You were out romancing and now asking for one more chance I'ma give you one more, one more minute Get up out here, take all your shit I'm about to reach my limit, boy, please, oh Tell me that girl is just a friend Make me believe in you, and then You do it again, you hurt me again and again, oh Once a cheat, always a cheat, yeah That's why I don't believe in what you're saying to me, uh, no, no, no, no Once a cheat, always a cheat, yeah I should've used my mind I should've left you last time, oh Now did you really think I wouldn't find out 'Bout all your late night escapades on the town? (Yes, I know) What happened? You said you'd be holding me down (me down) 'Cause you call me your lover, but there's others doing that My love is not a record, I'm not tryna run it back One more, one more minute Get up out here, take all your shit I'm about to reach my limit, boy, please, oh Tell me that girl is just a friend Make me believe in you, and then You do it again, you hurt me again and again Once a cheat, always a cheat, yeah That's why I don't believe in what you're saying to me, uh, no, no, no, no Once a cheat, always a cheat, yeah I should've used my mind I should've left you last time I (I) just can't believe You'd cheat on me (on me) Tell me one thing Was it worth it, baby? 'Cause it's over, I'm never looking back now It's the past, what we had is ruined It's time that I focus on me So I threw out your stuff, 'cause your ass for the streets Once a cheat, always a cheat, yeah (always a cheat, oh) That's why I don't believe in what you're saying to me, uh, no, no, no, no Once a cheat, always a cheat, yeah I should've used my mind I should've left you last time Oh Should've left you last time Always, baby, oh Once a cheat always a, always a cheat Baby