I Was Only Temporary - my head is empty

What I thought was love has me falling apart Don't know if I can heal from this broken heart Didn't think my partner would ever give up on me Guess I made it hard when I wouldn't give in Looking back on all my selfishness and all my sin You were drowning in the darkness that made it so I couldn't see I wanna go back to the days when I wasn't afraid The good life with my wife and the family we made There was once a time when everything seemed alright So take me back to the time when I was a boy Before innocance was lost and police destroyed But that was all in the past and it was only temporary Now I gotta move, I gotta play my part Focus on my children and my music and art Life ain't gonna stop and wait for shit like me Learn from my regrets and I'll try to be A good man working hard with integrity I'm changing my perspective and that's what's gonna set me free I wanna look now to the world that I'm living in Time to stand up on my own and it's time to begin I'm only bound by the limits I set for myself I gotta have hope for the future no matter the case Looking forward with my dreams until I reach that place It doesn't matter if I fail cause life is only temporary And why do I have to do this on my own I cry, Lord why don't you just take me home Could you hand me the instructions please I've been pleading to you on my knees Yeah, you just tell me what to do I'll do my best to follow through Bam! I wanna look back on my life and let it all go Death is coming for us all but we'll never know When he's gonna catch us and take us to the other side I wanna have faith that I loved and I did my best Give me open arms or eternal rest But I know that day is gonna come I know that day is gonna come I know that day is gonna come Cause life is only temporary

Ever since I was a kid at school I messed around with all the rules Apologised then realised I'm not different after all Me and the boys thought we had it sussed Valentinos all of us My dad said we looked ridiculous But boy, we broke some hearts In and out of jobs, running free Waging war with society Dumb blank faces stare back at me But nothing ever changed Promises made in the heat of the night Creeping home before it got too light I wasted all that precious time And blamed it on the wine I was only joking my dear (my dear) Looking for a way to hide my fear (my fear) What kind of fool was I? (Was I) I could never win (never win) Never found a compromise Collected lovers like butterflies Illusions of that grand first prize Are slowly wearing thin Susie, baby, you were good to me Giving love unselfishly But you took it all too seriously I guess it had to end I was only joking my dear (my dear) Looking for a way to hide my fear (my fear) What kind of fool was I? (Was I) I could never win (never win) Yeah baby, whoa Now you ask me if I'm sincere That's the question that I always fear Vers e seven is never clear But I'll tell you what you wanna hear I try to give you all you want But giving love is not my strongest point If that's the case it's pointless going on I'd rather be alone 'Cause what I'm doing must be wrong Pouring my heart out in a song Owning up for prosperity For the whole damn world to see Quietly now while I turn a page Act one is over without costume change The principal would like to leave the stage The crowd don't understand

Mom and Dad and Denny Saw the passing out parade at Puckapunyal With a long march from cadets The sixth battalion was the next to tour And it was me who drew the card We did Canungra and Shoalwater before we left And Townsville lined the footpaths as we marched down to the quay This clipping from the paper shows us young and strong and clean And there's me in me slouch hat with me SLR and greens God help me I was only 19 From Vung Tau riding Chinooks to the dust at Nui Dat I'd been in and out of choppers now for months And we made our tents a home, V.B. and pinups on the lockers And an Asian orange sunset through the scrub And can you tell me, doctor, why I still can't get to sleep? And night time's just a jungle dark and a barking M.16? And what's this rash that comes and goes Can you tell me what it means? God help me I was only 19 A four week operation When each step could mean your last one on two legs It was a war within yourself But you wouldn't let your mates down 'til they had you dusted off So you closed your eyes and thought about somethin' else And then someone yelled out, "Contact" And the bloke behind me swore We hooked in there for hours, then a God almighty roar And Frankie kicked a mine, the day that mankind kicked the moon God help me He was goin' home in June And I can still see Frankie, drinkin' tinnies in the Grand Hotel On a thirty-six hour rec. leave in Vung Tau And I can still hear Frankie, lying screaming in the jungle 'Til the morphine came and killed the bloody row And the Anzac legends didn't mention mud and blood and tears And the stories that my father told me never seemed quite real I caught some pieces in my back that I didn't even feel God help me I was only 19 And can you tell me, doctor, why I still can't get to sleep? And why the Channel Seven Chopper chills me to my feet? And what's this rash that comes and goes Can you tell me what it means? God help me I was only 19