I Wanna Get Better - Bleachers

I was afraid I was gonna drown I don't feel at home in my own hometown Stuck in this skin, someone get me out Six feet underground I got strung up in the fire Flames grow higher But you can't burn me down I felt the weight on my shoulders Pulled me over But I wanna get better now I wanna get better now I-I-I-I wanna get better now Broke down and cried on the side of the road I'm covered in ashes I'm lost in the smoke But I wanna turn these ashes These ashes to gold Light me up, put me under the pressure You know I'll hold I got strung up in the fire Flames grow higher But you can't burn me down I felt the weight on my shoulders Pulled me over But I wanna get better now I wanna get better now I-I-I-I wanna get better now I-I-I think I wanna get, yeah, I think I wanna get I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now, oh I got strung up in the fire Flames grow higher But you can't burn me down I felt the weight on my shoulders Pulled me over But I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better now I think I wanna get better

You guys are here, the band's here And we're essentially celebrating Um, music that we, we both care about And uh, that's so, that um- So making the records can be really harsh and And very intense and kinda pull you apart but, um I look forward to celebrating it with you guys Which is the story of this song This is a song about loss and depression, anxiety and etc., etc. And we got to spend the last three years shouting it together It's called "I Wanna Get Better" Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room Calling my name and I follow just to find you I trace the faith to a broken down television, put on the weather And I've trained myself to give up on the past 'cause I Froze in time between hearses and caskets Lost control when I panicked at the acid test (I wanna get better) While my friends were getting high And chasing girls down parkway lines I was losing my mind because the love The love, the love, the love, the love That I gave was wasted on a nice face In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet Counting seconds through the night, I got (carried away) So I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself, hey (I wanna get better) Didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better and better, better, better I wanna get (better) Didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better and better, better, better I wanna get (better) To my room where there's girls on the ceiling Cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling Of an 18 year old who didn't know what loss was Now I'm a stranger And I miss the days of a life still permanent Mourn the years before I got (carried away) So I'm standing on the interstate screaming at myself (Hey, I wanna get better) I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face (I wanna get better, better, better, better) (I wanna get better) I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change (I wanna get better, better, better, better) I wanna get better 'Cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi I'm screaming out my bedroom window Even if it's gonna kill me, hey You know that I woke up this morning early before my family From this dream she was tryin' to show me How a life can move from the darkness Yeah, she said to get better So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet And I crashed my car 'cause I wanna get (carried away) That's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself (Hey, I wanna get better) Didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face (I wanna get better, better, better, better) (I wanna get better) I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change (I wanna get better, better, better, better) (I wanna get better) I love you Jersey I love you Stone Pony Thank you so much

Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room Calling my name and I follow just to find you I trace the faith to a broken down television and put on the weather And I've trained myself to give up on the past 'cause I frozen time between hearses and caskets Lost control when I panicked at the acid test I wanna get better While my friends were getting high and chasing girls down parkway lines I was losing my mind because the love, the love, the love, the love, the love That I gave wasted on a nice face In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet Counting seconds through the night and got carried away So now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars Hey, I wanna get better! I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better I wanna get better I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better, better, better, better I wanna get better I go up to my room and there's girls on the ceiling Cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling Of an 18 year old who didn't know what loss was And now I'm a stranger And I miss the days of a life still permanent Mourn the years before I got carried away So now I'm staring at the interstate screaming at myself Hey, I wanna get better! I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better I wanna get better I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better, better, better, better Better, 'cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi I'm screaming from my bedroom window Even if it's gonna kill me Woke up this morning early before my family From this dream where she was trying to show me How a life can move from the darkness She said to get better So I put a bullet where I should have put a helmet And I crash my car 'cause I wanna get carried away That's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself Hey, I wanna get better! I wanna get better, better, better, better I wanna get better I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better I wanna get better I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change I wanna get better, better, better, better I wanna get better

When you say things you don't mean to It's easy to forgive you 'Cause everyone's got issues, don't we? I can look past all your darkness Love you when you're heartless If only I could do that for me I go home, take it off Alone with my thoughts Wish I could trade all my flaws For something better Never felt good enough I've always thought it was hard To give myself any love But I'll get better Whoa, whoa-oh, whoa-oh, whoa Whoa, whoa-oh But I'll get better Hate to be lone at night when Me and myself are fighting I don't have any nice things to say I wish I could treat myself like I treat all my friends and Love me like I love you, mm I go home, take it off Alone with my thoughts Wish I could trade all my flaws For something better Never felt good enough I've always thought it was hard To give myself any love But I'll get better Whoa, whoa-oh, whoa-oh, whoa Whoa, whoa-oh But I'll get better Whoa, whoa-oh, whoa-oh, whoa Whoa, whoa-oh But I'll get better Shut myself off, I don't wanna think about All the hate that keeps on growing in my mind And I'm so tired, mm, yeah So please be quiet, mm I just wanna feel like I am good enough, good enough, good enough I go home, take it off Alone with my thoughts Wish I could trade all my flaws For something better Never felt good enough I've always thought it was hard To give myself any love But I'll get better Whoa, whoa-oh, whoa-oh, whoa Whoa, whoa-oh But I'll get better Whoa, whoa-oh, whoa-oh, whoa Whoa, whoa-oh But I'll get better

One, two, three, four Out of my head I'm beggin' for skin to skin You don't say much 'cause you've been cheated before me I know you think I think I'm better than I am But I'm not tryna wake up in some promise land I just want a secret life Where you and I can get bored out of our minds I just wanna have you in a secret life 'Cause I'm sick of chasing after holy ghosts Been tryna tell you I want you the most You're always looking like a photograph just took Acting high life, reading your old Russian books Don't I know you think I think I'm better than I am Oh, honey, I'm not tryna wake up in some promise land I just want a secret life Where you and I can get bored out of our minds I just wanna have you in a secret life 'Cause I'm sick of chasing all these holy ghosts Been tryna tell you I want you the most And I talk so much I talk so much, it's nice I talk so much because I'm scared to begin God, I want a secret life Where you and I can get bored out of our minds I just wanna have you in a secret life 'Cause I'm sick of looking after all my ghosts Been tryna tell you I love you the most

Some girls Some girls they really just wanna hurt you And there's some boys Some boys that laugh when they break your heart But how love dies is a place that I'm not going And we could try, cause If you're feeling small I'll love your shadow And if you're feeling small I'll love your shadow There are those girls Those girls that are waiting by the phone on the weekend Oh yeah, like those boys, those boys that are home with the broken hearts But the heart wants fear So we're looking for a villain I'll be there If you're feeling small I'll love your shadow And if you're feeling small I'll love your shadow And I know that they have hurt you And I know the love you gave feels cheap and used And I know it's getting harder And I know the lights have all gone dark on you Still I will love your shadow When the love you gave feels cheap and used Yes I will love your shadow When the lights have all gone dark on you How love dies is a place that I'm not going And we could try... If you're feeling small I'll love your shadow And if you're feeling small I'll love your shadow