I Thought I Died Inside - guccihighwaters

I've been climbing on this ladder for months Time has worn it down now I'm breaking the rungs City smog blackening my lungs I'm used to shitty days This stuff just isn't fun anymore Where did all the time go Spent it with my eyes closed Spent it with some fake friends Dissing ain't a typo Now my pockets fat They gonna need some lipo' I always spend it fast I make it in a night though Self sabotage I'm with my entourage Cold shoulder I don't really wanna talk And I don't wanna stop Until I'm on the top Don't want another thought Of when my bones will rot Self sabotage I'm with my entourage Cold shoulder I don't really wanna talk And I don't wanna stop Until I'm on the top Don't want another thought Of when my bones will rot I need excitement Something that could pump my blood around I've been fighting with myself every time I'm down And I turned blue right at the bottom Man you let me drown now they ask me Why I never bring that girl around Done with that phase I ain't coming back aye But the pain stays Tatted with the sad face Sit back look at all the damage I never knew I caused it But I saw it when you vanished I really hurt myself for you I cry I feel I'm just like you And I killed my body And I killed my brain I'm a bag of bones baby Walking in the rain (I call it) Self sabotage I'm with my entourage Cold shoulder I don't really wanna talk And I don't wanna stop Until I'm on the top Don't want another thought Of when my bones will rot Self sabotage I'm with my entourage Cold shoulder I don't really wanna talk And I don't wanna stop Until I'm on the top Don't want another thought Of when my bones will rot