I Still Do - Barry Brown

Pieces of broken glass Shattered by lies behind the scenes And what we had That's how she left my heart Feelings just disregarded Memories of yesterday Haunting my dreams over and over on replay Keeping me awake Almost lost my faith Gave all of me to get some of you Heavy price to pray to ignore the truth It was so hard to do Let you win the fight rather wrong or right Didn't see eye to eye nearly lost my mind But after all that I've been through I would still say I do (I would still say I do) Even though when I could lose (I could lose) The remaining part of me (me) I would give what's left to you (to you) How foolish would it be Betting it all after losing everything And nothing here makes sense Love is worth whatever the consequence Discovering who I am Letting love be the music so I can have this dance Not sure how this songs gonna end But I'd take another chance Gave all of me to get some of you Heavy price to pay to ignore the truth It was so hard to do I'll let you win the fight rather wrong or right Didn't see eye to eye, nearly lost my mind But after all that I've been through I would still say I do (I would still say I do) Even though when I could lose (I could lose) The remaining part of me (me) I would give what's left to you (to you) I would still say I do Knowing that there's a chance that I could lose The remaining part of me I would give what's left to you For so long I didn't wanna be Be a victim of my vulnerabilities Lost in my resistance Contempt to keep my distance Now I'm open to the possibilities I would still say I do Even though when I could lose The remaining part of me I would give what's left to you Oh, oh I

I'm not ready for this Though, I thought I would be I can't see the future Though, I thought I could see I don't want to leave you Even though I have to I don't want to love you Oh, I still do Need some time to find myself I wanna live within' Can I go my own way? Can I pray my own way? I don't want to leave you Oh, I need you Am I ready for this? Did I think I would be? Can I see the future? No, I can't see I don't want to leave you Even though I have to I don't want to love you Oh, I still do Ah-ha-ha-ha La-la-da-da-da Ah-ha-ha-ha I still do Ah-ha-ha-ha La-la-da-da-da Ah-ha-ha-ha I still do

It's been 5 months, 3 weeks, and 6 days Since we broke up, and you went away Couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't go anyplace Cause I walk down the street and all I see is your face I should move on, find someone else But I can't help myself Cause I'm not supposed to miss you but I still do No, I shouldn't think about you but I still do And I just keep on wondering if you want me to Yeah, I'm not supposed to miss you but I still do Every night I still see your face in my dreams I'm back in your old apartment, smells like pizza and weed Hanging out on the couch, we're watching Friends Hear the beating of your heart with my head on your chest My alarm starts buzzing and I wake up I don't wanna leave the dream so I keep my eyes shut My friends all say you're bad for me, I know you hate my family But I can't stay away, you're like gravity Cause I'm not supposed to miss you but I still do No, I shouldn't think about you but I still do And I just keep on wondering if you want me to Yeah, I'm not supposed to miss you but I still do I need you more than the air that I breathe And I don't care if you're good for me I love the rush that I get when we're together Like the sky's more blue, everything's better I've never laughed so hard in my life I swear your smile makes the sun shine And I know that you're bad for me, we always end in tragedy But I can't stay away, you're like gravity Cause I'm not supposed to miss you but I still do No, I shouldn't think about you but I still do And I just keep on wondering if you want me to Yeah, I'm not supposed to miss you but I still do Yeah, I'm not supposed to miss you but I still do Keep on hoping that you'll come back and we're not through Maybe there's a chance you still want me too Yeah, I'm not supposed to miss you but I still do I still do

Fuck the world till it births me heaven How's that for a first impression? Fuck apologies and permission I'm God, prophet, snake, and the villain Head in the cloud like selfies in the sky Thou shalt back it up like redundant drives I was a misfit as a misfit Now I'm plotting like a surveyor Planting flags in this bitch Lazy rapping on the first draft Reverse that, give me all the words back First impressions only last a second Turn you on with my drip, call it bird bath Buddy have you heard that 97% of all artists Never get their return back? Guess I knew that, it's a risk I'm taking Blazing chemtrails, I'm high adjacent I used to fumble the word like a nervous reverend So no one knew like absurdist heaven But I was getting right, 8 PM And they were just talking shit, ATM Now I'm hearing more cheers than the KKK During the first half of 12 Years a Slave Carry my hate in a holster, barrel's never cold So no need to be floored, keep it slow lane I'm high as planes in flyover states Sideways feeling right as rain A nervous kid comedian, chameleon Blending in at the back of the stage Where do you see your life in five years, man? My mama tryin' to hold back tears Amy Adams translating, halfway to famous We arrived but we were already here Now talking reckless is my responsibility I solemnly swear to swear sacrilegiously Sanctimonious iconoclast Leave em sweating like ice in a glass Am I playing devil's advocate or feelin' myself? Even with nothing to say I say it so well Fuck PC shit, it's a Master bedroom cause it's where Omni dwells Sans and omni put the stank on it Fuck a new watch, don't want it This is our time so you know we gon flaunt it Committin' thought crimes, real smoke don't got it Got it? Honest, killing these beats is a process Ghosts in my headspace, haunted So if you want to hear the real deal appeal to real feels Strap in cause we're blasting off bitch

We take a drive just to sing along Every word of them Rolling Stones Stacey's mom had it goin' on Lived three doors down, I can see her now Her daughter had a heart that was wild and free If you Blink-182, then you'd miss me and her Every verse had a story Yeah, them pocket lighter nights lit up our days of glory Back when the air guitars were the only sound And you'd strum the chords and I'd put the pedal down Two-man dashboard band rollin' through this town Had that rearview shakin' to the kick-drum beat Leanin' West Coast deep in the bucket seats All I ever wanted was right there in that car Back when we were rockstars (We're running all night, chasing down a dream) (Howling at the moon, baby, you and me) Back when we were rockstars (We're running all night, chasing down a dream) (Howling at the moon, baby, you and me) Nothin' like freedom two windows down You singin' along, still hear it now Way too loud and sometimes off key But you sounded like an angel to me You'd make fun of how I threw my head And threw my fingers up in the air Thought I was Kurt Cobain or Jimmy Page You were at side seat, center stage Back when the air guitars were the only sound And you'd strum the chords and I'd put the pedal down Two-man dashboard band rollin' through this town And that rearview shakin' to the kick-drum beat Leanin' West Coast deep in the bucket seats All I ever wanted was right there in that car Back when we were rockstars Back when we were rockstars We never ended up on MTV Or heard our voices on a CD But in your eyes and in my arms We were each other's rockstars Back when the air guitars were the only sound And you'd strum the chords and I'd put the pedal down Two-man dashboard band rollin' through this town Had that rearview shakin' to the kick-drum beat Leeanin' West Coast deep in the bucket seats All I ever wanted was right there in that car Back when we were rockstars (We're running all night, chasing down a dream) (Howling at the moon, baby, you and me) Yeah, back when we were rockstars (We're running all night, chasing down a dream) (Howling at the moon, baby, you and me) Back when we were rockstars (We're running all night, chasing down a dream) (Howling at the moon, baby, you and me) You and me were rockstars (We're running all night, chasing down a dream) (Howling at the moon, baby, you and me) oh yeah (Running all night, chasing down a dream) Yeah, we were runnin' all night, chasing down a dream Howlin' at the moon, baby, you and me