I'm OK - Down Beats

Once upon a time there was a girl In her early years she had to learn How to grow up living in a war that she called home Never knew just where to turn for shelter from the storm Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face Every time my father's fist would put her in her place Hearing all the yelling, I would cry up in my room Hoping it would be over soon Bruises fade, Father, but the pain remains the same And I still remember how you kept me so afraid Strength is my mother for all the love she gave Every morning that I wake, I look back to yesterday And I'm OK I often wonder why I carry all this guilt When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door The echo of a broken child screaming, "Please, no more" Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done? To you, it's just a memory, but for me, it still lives on Bruises fade, Father, but the pain remains the same And I still remember how you kept me so, so afraid Strength is my mother for all the love she gave Every morning that I wake, I look back to yesterday It's not so easy to forget All the marks you left along her neck When I was thrown against cold stairs And every day, I'm afraid to come home In fear of what I might see next Bruises fade, Father, but the pain remains the same (Same) And I still remember how you kept me so afraid Strength is my mother for all the love you gave Every morning that I wake, I look back to yesterday And I'm OK I'm OK

Feet on the driveway, key in the door I found my suitcases on the living room floor With no explanation, and no reason why And all I keep thinking is, it's some other guy I jumped on my Vespa, ride through the gloom I found myself back in my old bedroom Well, I'm going out to get over you Ain't no such thing as "it's too soon" I'm OK I'm gonna live the life I wanted every day Find someone to help me, chase the clouds away If you wanna know, it's written on my face When you see me smiling I'm OK Maybe you'll miss me or maybe you won't Still miss my kisses or maybe you don't But the truth of it is I don't care any more Posted back all my feelings With my keys through the door 'Cause I can't wait for that knock on the door When you tell me that you want it like we had it before 'Cause I got to say, that love ain't here any more But don't you worry your head cause I'm OK I'm gonna live the life I wanted every day Find someone to help me chase the clouds away If you wanna know, it's written on my face When you see me smiling I'm OK 'Cause I know you're gonna turn up here one day And some pretty girl is sitting in your place Well I hope that you cope with that bitter taste When you see me smiling I'm OK Broken pieces held together I'm not whole still, but whatever I'm OK I'm gonna live the life I wanted every day Find someone to help me chase the clouds away If you wanna know, it's written on my face 'Cause when you see me smiling I'm OK 'Cause I know you're gonna turn up here one day And some pretty girl is sitting in your place Well I hope that you cope with that bitter taste When you see me smiling I'm OK Oh, I'm OK I'm OK You know why, it's written on my face, oh yeah I'm OK

One day, the strain I've never felt like this before Our lives, capsize, I've never been, before my God Why must you kneel for me? Instrumental I write for sight One day you'll find me in the corner More sublime But I still never died before Instrumental