Grudge - SYPH

Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity Calculate what we will or will not tolerate Desperate to control all and everything Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen Clutch it like a cornerstone Otherwise, it all comes down Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end Clutch it like a cornerstone Otherwise, it all comes down Terrified of being wrong Ultimatum prison cell Saturn ascends, choose one or ten Hang on or be humbled again Humbled again Clutch it like a cornerstone Otherwise, it all comes down Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end Saturn ascends, comes 'round again Saturn ascends, the one, the ten Ignorant to the damage done Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity Calculate what we will or will not tolerate Desperate to control all and everything Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen Wear the grudge like a crown Desperate to control Unable to forgive And sinking deeper Defining, confining Sinking deeper Controlling, defining And we're sinking deeper Saturn comes back around to show you everything Let's you choose what you will, will not see and then Drags you down like a stone or lifts you up again Spits you out like a child, light and innocent Saturn comes back around Lifts you up like a child Or drags you down like a stone To consume you 'til you choose to let this go Choose to let this go Give away the stone Let the ocean take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor Give away the stone Let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold (gold, gold, gold...) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) (Let go, let go, let go, let go) Let go!

Remember when we used to sing, baby Up in your room, before your mother got home? There was a sound to our innocence Our voices were lovers in the same bed Now I'm not sure how they would sound, isn't it sad? Now that the ocean's all waves, and the diamonds are blood There's a new girl on your song I didn't know that I could be replaced Years ago, I tried to get a message to you But I never heard back I never heard back Where did we go wrong? Our haven was always in a song But just when I go to close the gates Permanently, I realize that it isn't me No, I don't keep a list, can't hold a grudge Don't you think that we both might've done some growin' up? Well, I know that some shit was said and done But it's such a different world now, I can't hate anyone Remember when we woke at dawn? Saw the silver sun in your old Citroën? And remember when we took them on? Stoners on the run, How the West Was Won Remember when we used to swim, baby No one around, take off all our clothes? And in a clear cold, we were born again I used to count down to your birthday Now I'm not sure if it's June or July, isn't that sad? Where did we go wrong? Our haven was always in a song (mmm) But just when I go to close the gates Permanently, I realize that it isn't me No, I don't keep a list, can't hold a grudge (hold no grudge) Don't you think that we both might've done some growin' up? Yeah, I know that some shit was said and done (said and done) But it's such a different world now, I can't hate anyone Remember when we woke at dawn? Saw the silver sun in your old Citroën? And remember when we took them on? Stoners on the run, How the West Was Won Actin' my age, not my horoscope Guess that's growin' up Now I'm sending you love And wishing you well Wherever you are

I have nightmares each week about that Friday in May One phone call from you and my entire world was changed Trust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingers You took everything I loved and crushed it in between your fingers And I doubt you ever think about the damage that you did But I hold on to every detail like my life depends on it My undying love, now I hold it like a grudge And I hear your voice every time that I think I'm not enough And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream How could anybody do the things you did so easily? And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine But you know I can't let it go, I've tried, I've tried, I've tried For so long It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel strong The arguments that I have won against you in my head In the shower, in the car and in the mirror before bed Yeah, I'm so tough when I'm alone and I make you feel so guilty And I fantasize about a time you're a little fuckin' sorry And I try to understand why you would do this all to me You must be insecure, you must be so unhappy And I know in my heart, hurt people, hurt people And we both drew blood, but, man, those cuts were never equal And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream How could anybody do the things you did so easily? And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine But you know I can't let it go, I've tried, I've tried, I've tried For so long It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel strong Ooh Do you think I deserved it all? Ooh Your flower's filled with vitriol You built me up to watch me fall You have everything and you still want more I try to be tough, I try to be mean But even after all this, you're still everything to me And I know you don't care, I guess that that's fine But you know I can't let it go, I've tried, I've tried, I've tried For so long It takes strength to forgive, but I'm not quite sure I'm there yet It takes strength to forgive, but

I hold no grudge There's no resentment underneath I'll extend the laurel wreath and we'll be friends But right there is where it ends I hold no grudge And I'll forgive you your mistake But forgive me if I take it all to heart And make sure that it doesn't start again Yes, I'm the kind of people you can step on for a little while But when I call it quits Baby, that's it I'm the kind of people you can hurt once in a while But crawling just ain't my style I hold no grudge And deep inside me there's no regrets But a gal who's been forgotten may forgive But never once forget